So some of you know that I am fucking up real bad. I am sorry for that. I have been so stressed out lately and to add to the stress something might be wrong with my mom and I am scared. Yup.....I admitted it, I am scared.

I'm scared I might loose all you wonderful people. I'm scared I'm gonna fail my exams. I am scared I'm going to piss you all off if I show you all who I really am. I am scared that you all hate me. I am scared I'm going to loose everything and everyone I cared about.

I'm so very scared.

I am so scared. I'm sorry but I don't want to hurt any of you. I'm so terrified I'm going to loose everything and everyone I love and I am sorry. So many of you keep saying I haven't replied to something and I'm sorry for that. I have too much to handle. Exams, possibly loosing my mom, loosing all of you, being hated for my cowardly actions. I am so scared. I've never been this terribly horrified. I just want to make you all happy but I can't! I can't do that okay! I'm sorry but I am scared, I'm a coward, I'm a stupid, selfish, bitch who is too scared for her own good and I'm so sorry for that.

Please forgive me.......