Sorry this isn't a update! I promise I'll upload on soon though. I just really needed someone to talk to. It's not family issues or anything. It's issues about love. A lot of you might think this dumb and stuff that's okay.

Okay so I want to talk about this guy I like maybe even love..idk anymore..
I've like him for 3 years now I tried so many times to give up on him. He's had like 2 girlfriends that I know of. Right now idk if it's true or not but I really think he's dating someone now. He's probably a fuckboy but w/o. Okay so the 2 girls that I know of I was okay with i still liked him even if he was dating someone. Now it really made me think. What's the point in liking him if you don't even have a chance? Who are you kidding thinking he even liked you? This really brought my mood down. I really think I'm an idiot to think he would even like me.

The final step in moving on is getting rejected or that's what I think. I want to move on I really do. But I'm so scared in confessing. Why? Because I'm scared he'll tell everyone he's someone who jokes around ALOT. I'm scared he'll tell then everyone will pick on me. Specially one of his ex girlfriends who
I think still likes him. Like no joke she is scary af. Idk if my friend is reading this but they might think I'm dumb af for writing to a bunch of strangers I don't even know. But w/o I really needed to tell someone.. I've been trying to get one of my friends to talk to him again. Because something happen and they didn't talk for the rest of the year. I was happy talking to him thinking maybe he lies me to. How wrong I must of been. Anyways this is the end of my rant. Ty to those that read this!! I'm working on new ch promise it will be up soon!!!!