I feel as though my heart had been ripped from my chest but I'm somehow still living.
They say God places no more on us than we can bare but if that's true i wonder how much i can bare.
Im tired. Tired deep down in my soul.
Tired of being hurt. Im tired of being abused. Im tired of being used. Im tired of being under appreciated. I'm tired of being unloved. Im tired of being tired.
They tell me Im so strong, keep praying things will get better for you.
I'm about tired of hearing it.
How much praying do i have to do?
How much pain do i have to go through?
How much abuse do i have to take?
How many storms must i endure?
How many tears must i shed, till i finally see the day that i can say yall were right!
I don't see it happening right now. Too many tears in my eyes to see that day coming.
Im not asking for a pity party.
I really want to know how do you go on living when you feel like ending your life.
Im tired of fighting. Why should i even have to fight?
Did i see in the Book of Life my rewards to all my suffering and agreed to come to earth?
I don't bother anybody. I like to have fun. I would give my last to help another person.
Can somebody anybody tell me how do i go on when i feel like getting the blade and cutting my wrists?
I'm tired yall.......