I woke up in a bed that was much more comfortable than my lumpy mattress with broken springs. The room had a smokey, bonfire like smell to it instead of the musty stench of mold and wet cement. And I was warm and relaxed, unlike the usual cold and paranoid I'm use to waking up to. So my conclusion is that I'm obviously not in my room. But then... where am I?

I try getting up but I'm slammed back down by a headache. When I mean headache, I mean migraine. Not the cliche 'arm around my waist, pulling me closer'. When I finally get up I start to walk towards the door when its opened rather loudly.

"What the fuck are you doing in here you slut? Huh, you freak?" some blonde bimbo asks me. I look down in submission, but that gives her the perfect opportunity to slam me to the wall.

"Go downstairs and do what you're suppose to fucking do! Now!" she screams at me. I hurry downstairs and make everybody food and clean and do the fucking laundry. Including all of the guys boxers. Oh joy! Nope, not really.

When its finally night time, everybody has already gone to there rooms. I had just finished cleaning up some kids puke and started my way to the basement, where my room is. Just when I was going to open the door I got lifted up and thrown over some buff shoulder. The only person willing to touch me like this is Alpha Korey.

"You're on runaway watch so you have to stay with me at night." yep my assumptions were confirmed with his commanding tone.

I didn't even bother doing anything. Its not like he's going to let me sleep in his bed. So I'll just make him think I'm getting water then run. If he starts to catch up then I guess I could go to Forbidden Cliffs. Forbidden Cliffs were these giant cliffs that led down to a beautiful lake.

Back before the pack was formed, there was this man who was in love with this chic who also loved him. One day the chic found her mate and totally left the first guy. He was so distraught about her that he ran and ran for days. Soon he came upon these cliffs, hence the name Hidden Cliffs Pack. After seeing these cliffs, it made him realize that his life didn't revolve around her. They gave him hope, courage. Later on all people went to find the cliffs and when they did they either fell because if the soft soil, was pushed, or as I planned, jumped.

***later in the night***

He surprised me. He made me sleep in his bed. I squirmed out from under his arm and crept downstairs. Nobody would be up except for border patrol and the cliffs weren't on the run schedule. I quickly ran outside and ran there in human form. When I found the cliffs, I sat down with my legs dangling down. I had never been afraid of heights thank god. All of a sudden a song that perfectly fit this moment popped in my head: * My legs are dangling off the edge. A stomach full of pills didn't work again. I think I'll slit my wrists again. And I'm gone gone gone gone*. Perfect right? Because I've now tried all of those.

I look down at the water below me. The waves silently crashed and reflected the rising suns rays. I began to lean forward when I was dragged away from the edge. Ugh, so close yet again. Is the world trying to tease me?

I open my eyes to see storming grey ones. Fuck. My. Life. It was Alpha Korey yet again.

"Why?! Why Shay?! Why are you always trying to get killed?!" he basically screaming out his questions. His voice wrapped in worry, then he continued. "I mean, I thought we treated you pretty well for being a slave!"

"You want to know why! Because the pack treats me worst than dog shit! And why? I have no clue! Please, enlighten me on the subject!" I screamed, with my voice cracking.

"Because you fucking killed Spencer! That's why everybody hates your guts you bitch!" he yelled in that kind of voice that just makes you stop in fear.

Spencer. He was my older twin. When we both were 12 we decided to explore. We came across these old mining caves and being the badasses we were, went inside. I don't remember what exactly happened but then dust started to fall and the mine started to shake. He made sure I got out first but then right before he got out, the mine collapsed on him. You could even hear the cracking of bones as the heavy rocks fell on him. I started backing up in shock, fell of the side of the mining road and tumbled down. When I reached the bottom, there was a light silver, shining wolf laying there. She looked over to me and said 'Sorry but this had to be done' and then vanished.

"You should have been the one to die. Not him." Korey said in a calmer tone than before.

I brought my knees to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. "You're right. Even I wish I had died not him. Not him. Not him. Oh why did it have to be him?" I whispered with tears running down my face.

"Go back to the pack house. Now Shay." Korey commanded with a pinch of sadness and pain in his voice.

I quietly got up and walked towards the pack house. Maybe if I finally die, everyone will look back and think of Spencer's death as an accident instead of abusively blaming me. I got to my room, wishing that I could escape just really quick. But I knew that Korey would come up and punch me around if he smelt my blood and I caused it. So I went the alternative way. I grabbed my eraser off the floor and rubbed it against my skin. It didn't hurt now but I knew it would in a little bit. I repeatedly did this for about 4 times. I quit only because I was tired from waking up that early.

~~

When I finally got up, I made my way up the stairs and looked at the clock in the kitchen. Holy fuck it was 12:30 pm!! Usually if I didn't make breakfast somebody would come in and beat me. I guess... they were in a hurry? I turned around and rammed into a wall of muscle. I looked up to see the one and only, Korey.

"Hello fuckup."