''A...a wolf'' she repeated confused ''What does that mean?''

''I'm sorry Dr. Nelson'' I said shoving a handful of dollars at her ''...but I gotta go!''

I grabbed my bag and ran out the building as fast as I could!

I turned at the first corner I saw and doubled over against the wall, trying to catch my breath.

My hands were shaking uncontrollably, as I began fumbling inside my bag for my pack of cigarettes. I then shakily lit one, and held it to my lips...

Fuck! Now because of the therapy I feel absolutely no desire to smoke...great I thought, and dropped it to the ground with frustration, crushing it angrily with my foot.

I felt helpless now. I had no aid to sustain me, and no one to catch me from falling face first into a pit of horror.

My whole body suddenly began to fall weak, and I had to hold on to the wall for support, as the unbelievable was becoming all too believable.

It couldn't be! I just couldn't be!...I began telling myself. I needed to be sure though...so I stood there and closed my eyes again, performing my own little one-on-one therapy session as I forced myself to re-live it just one more time....

....after a while I opened my eyes slowly, and when I did, there was absolutely no mistaking what I'd seen inside Dr. Nelsons office, and that's that the man who raped me very clearly had a tattoo of a wolf with the words 'Hounds Of Justice' on him, in the exact same area as The Shield. I couldn't believe it, I just COULDN'T BELIEVE IT! In these past four months, we had all travelled together, ate together, and shared hotel rooms together. I would even go as far to say we were kinda all best friends. Yet all this time, all this god damn time it was one of them!

But which one...?

It worried me even more that this entire time, whoever it was, knew me and who I was, and had been playing it cool so as not to raise any suspicion to themselves.

I felt an instant chill ripple throughout my entire body, leading to everything feeling extremely numb and heavy with anguish. I was in shock, and had to find a way to deal with it quick before it consumed me completely.

I let my mind finally ask the question I'd been avoiding ever since I ran out the building....What if it was Roman? Oh god it can't be! Roman would never do anything like that, ever!

But Joe would.

Oh my goodness! Oh my god! What am I going to do now?! How couldn't this be happening! I cried to myself.

I didn't know what to do.

I felt sick, confused, irritated, desperate, angry and upset all at the same time! I wanted so desperately to call Paige and tell her the whole story, but I feared in doing so she would immediately tell Dean, who would then tell Roman, and somewhere in-between Seth would find out too. Then with everybody suddenly aware, who knows what would happen!

No, I needed to figure this out on my own. I had to be careful too though, as we all know I've been wrong in the past.

I decided that I needed to conduct my own investigation, starting by finding out which member of The Shield had been in Ohio at the time of my attack. As uncomfortable as it's going to be, I knew I had to remain calm and nonchalant, if I was to find out once and for all who the bastard that attacked me really was! Please don't be you Roman...I thought worriedly...I wouldn't be able to handle it if it was...I sobbed quietly to myself, especially after how much love I'd built in my heart for him. In fact I'm pretty sure it would send me over the edge if I found out that all this time I had been sleeping with the enemy.

I drove round the block a few times, trying to clear my head before heading back on the road to Romans house. The drive did me good, but it didn't take my fear away.

When I finally reached, I parked the car in the driveway and took a quiet moment just breathing in the warm fresh air from the open window. I then leant my head back slowly on the car rest, staring out blankly at all the pretty flowers planted neatly in the gravel driveway. It felt surreal knowing that the man who had assaulted me over two years ago, had been in my life for the past four months and I had no idea who he was.

Suddenly the image of Roman yesterday came flooding back to memory. His aggressive nature, his cold attitude towards me as he held me down on the floor....''oh god'' I cried ''even though I know now that that wasn't you Roman, it was still part of you, and that scares me!'' I sobbed to myself. I know he's a good guy, and I know he hated himself for what he did to me, but the truth remained that it was still him. It was still one of his personalities.

Then there were the other two...Seth with his forever staring at me like I was a piece of meat, and Dean with his sporadic unnerving character at times, like what he said that night about Summer Rae, after following me from the pharmacy down that dark road...''but if were in your position...I would have killed her''

That still made me shudder!

And I couldn't help but feed my suspicion again, as his behavior recently left a lot to be questioned. Plus Dean was the only Shield member also from Ohio like me...could he have been in town during the Christmas period? I don't know, but I wasn't going to rule it out as a possibility either.

I always hate it when people say ''knew it'' but in this case I absolutely did. Because I knew the second I saw that tattoo on Roman, I knew there was something about it...I just didn't know what.

How could I have blocked something like that out?! It was such a big part in discovering who my attacker really was. Well, better late than never as they say, because I was now closer to the truth than I had ever been, and I wouldn't stop until I found out who it was!

The entire complicated situation had burned a hole right through me, but the fire I felt from it gave me the strength to carry on. I didn't want to waste another second now, so I hurried back inside and began packing immediately.

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I

checked my watch, and saw it was 8:00pm, which was not bad for time as I was now all packed and ready for my return back to work tomorrow. I had received an email from Stephanie earlier when I was at 'Mind Over Matter, detailing my schedule and matches for the upcoming week. I already knew I was supposed to have a re-match with Summer, and as per the high demand of fans via the WWE Universe Twitter page, people were insisting for Summer to pick the stipulation for our re-match.

I guess that's only fair I thought grumpily. But apparently that match had to wait until Smackdown on Tuesday, as Stephanie wanted me to go up against Eva instead. Whatever, I'll get all the ins and outs when I see Steph tomorrow, as she had also reminded me that I was to come straight her office the second I stepped foot inside the Allstate arena in Chicago. I guess she wanted to give me another face-to-face warning before I went on stage and faced all the fans I'd let down, plus have me sign my return to work form in the process. She had also warned me not to be late, as Hunter, who was on a tight schedule between Raw and NXT, would also be there, and that I needed to prove to him that I was sorry for my actions at Mania, and that I would never ever compromise my contract again, otherwise I might find myself without one. I chucked me phone down on the bed, and sighed heavily.

Suddenly it began buzzing, so I quickly reached over and checked the screen...it was Roman, again. He had been calling and messaging all afternoon, probably wanting to let me know that he had landed safely. I couldn't keep ignoring him, nor in my heart did I want to. But this whole damn thing had me shook to my very core! And now I had no idea how to approach him. But if I was going to stick to my plan and find out once and for all which one of them had attacked me, I had to play it cool and not cause any suspicion as to what I was up to.

''Hey baby,'' I said smiling into the phone.

''He babygirl! How are you? I've been calling for ages now, you ok?'' Roman asked, sounding concerned.

''I am now I've heard from you'' I smiled, and I meant it too. Amidst all that I'd recently discovered, I was still comforted by the sound of Romans warm voice ''...I'm so sorry, I mustn't have heard it, I've been packing and getting everything ready for my return tomorrow. Stephanie has already emailed me with my schedule and a whole bunch of stuff I need to do so...'' I sighed.

''It's okay baby, and look don't worry alright, everything's going to be absolutely fine'' he assured me ''just apologize to her again, and look like you mean it''

''I do mean it Roman. I know now what I did was wrong, and I am more than willing to take responsibility'' I told him.

''That's my sweet girl...oh god baby I miss you so much you know that! These four days have been amazing with you...''

I was silent.

''Baby....you still there?'' he asked worriedly.

''I'm here'' I said calmly.

''Look, I know what you're thinking....''

I seriously doubt that!

''...and I just want to say to you that I'm so sorry again, I honestly never meant for anything like that to happen, and I love you so much baby. I would die if I ever lost you...''

My heart melted when I heard him say that ''...oh god Roman, it really would kill me if I ever lost you too! I love you so much'' I whispered ''...more than you know.''

''I know baby, I know...'' he whispered back.

''So...'' I said quickly trying to lighten the mood ''...you still coming to pick me up at the airport tomorrow?'' I asked.

''Of course baby! I'm gonna be there the second you land ok. I love you baby girl''

''I love you too Roman'' I said, and I really did, I just wished I didn't have this dark cloud looming over me.

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T

he next day, I woke in a surprisingly good mood! I had slept well, and I was looking forward to getting back in the ring and kicking ass. I guess my old urges to fight fire with fire was surfacing again, and I couldn't wait to release the tension with a good old wrestling match...being careful of course not to get myself in any more trouble this time. I was just about to lug my suitcase down Romans fancy flight of stairs, when my phone rang.

It was Roman.

''Hey baby girl'' he said nervously as I picked up.

''He baby, how's it going?'' I asked.

''Not so good...'' he said ''I got a bit of bad news''

''Uh-oh...'' I said nervously.

''Yeah, because of the media attention tonight's Fatal Fourway match is causing, Vince has called all the participants into his office for a meeting to discuss some additional features to the matchup, which unfortunately means I won't be able to pick you up from the airport later baby, and I'm so sorry'' he said apologetically.

''That's ok baby, I understand'' I told him politely ''but hey, we'll see each other later alright, and hang out once we get to the hotel ok. Also don't forget to message me the hotel name and address, so I can pop my luggage down if I get there early enough'' I said.

''Of course baby'' he smiled ''...and don't worry, I always got a backup plan'' he said smiling ''and that's that I asked Dean to pick come you up instead, and he was happy to do it'' he said sounding pleased with himself.

Dean?!

''Dean? Um, ok'' I said.

''Is that ok baby? You don't sound too sure. I'll tell him to put the country radio on for you...'' he joked.

''Aww, no that's alright'' I chuckled ''and thank you baby that's sweet of you, and tell Dean thanks too, you guys are always looking out for me.'' I smiled.

''I just want my babygirl to be safe and happy'' he said.

We said our goodbyes now, and I quickly lugged my suitcase down to the front door...I guess I'll use the alone time with Dean to slyly conduct my investigation...