I messaged Roman the second I landed, after seeing four missed calls and two messages from him while I was napping on the plane. He told me he was so happy to hear my voice, and was equally happy to hear his too.

I told him I was in Ohio now, and was making my way back home to my little Studio apartment. It sounded more depressing than it actually was, but that was my only plan until next week. It only took me an hour and a half by taxi from the airport to my apartment - making just one small stop on the way at my favorite cosmetic store, where I bought myself two bottles of my favorite cherry and almond perfume. When I reached, I just stood on the lawn and stared at my door. How odd it felt, seeing my home after all this time away. After all the fancy hotels and tour busses, it looked so dull and ordinary being back here now. I guess I really was enjoying living the life of riley, and without the risk of sounding stuck up, I couldn't wait to get back there either. I decided that the first thing I would do after paying Seth back his money, was to seriously think about buying myself a nice little house, something fancy like what Roman has, only less expensive, ha ha!

For the first three days, I just stayed in bed and slept. I didn't realize how tired my body really was until I slept in my own bed. All the wrestling, all the training, the gym...the amazing sex! I was beat, and it felt good to hibernate from the outside world for a while.

I had really wanted to visit Jimmy while I was down here, but after the way he chewed me out on our last conversation, I was kinda afraid to go see him. I decided not to call, and just show up instead, I figured that way he wouldn't have time to be mad at me, and hopefully seeing me in person would make him happy.

*****

The taxi had just pulled up outside OVW Studios, and I looked at it oddly, same like I had done when I saw my studio apartment, only this time it was with admiration. It looked like a completely new building! The old rusty door and beat up old sign, was now replaced with a shiny metal door, and a fancy silver and black sign.

''Johnson! You're not doing it right! Its left foot, then right arm! Like this!'' I head from inside...yep, that was definitely the unmistakable voice of Jimmy Madison I smiled, making my way over to my old training school. I peeked my head round the door of the studio, and watched him terrifying all the new talent that stood around him hoping to be the next wrestling superstar.

''You see? Now try it again! And this time, put some effor...oh my god!'' Jimmy smiled, his eyes suddenly spotting me at the door. The whole class all turned and look towards me now, and I immediately felt myself blushing, but I timidly waved over at everyone and stepped inside. They all immedtaley began gasping and walking over to me, greeting me nicely and asking for pictures and autographs. I did as many as I could, but my eyes kept darting over nervously to Jimmy. He seemed to be in a better mood than he was on the phone the other day, as he stood patiently by the ring, smiling at me warmly. Everyone had begun asking me so many questions like 'What was it like being a WWE Superstar?' or 'How did I get started in the business' 'Is the pay well?' Things like that.

One cheeky girl even asked what it was like to sleep with The Roman Reigns, to which I couldn't help but answer ''Why don't you ask Summer Rae's face'' I figured she knew, just like everyone else did, about the rumors circulating that match, so I didn't need to be goaded when I came home to relax on my own turf. However with that being said, I was confronted with the reality I had been trying to avoid this entire time, but somehow only felt comfortable to admit to myself now that I was back home...and that was that I still very much had anger issues stemming all the way to my attack two and a half years ago. And even with the aid of wrestling, and Romans warm love, I realized that I'd only laid the demons to rest, but they were still very much alive and simmering beneath the surface. I had a sudden flashback to my rape, and I immediately closed my eyes with a heavy shudder...damn you whoever you are! I hate with every fiber in my being what you did to me. But I the reality is you won. You god damn won! You wrecked my life and you got away with it, I just hope you burn in hell for your sins!

I had come so far since that night, and worked so hard to get to where I am today. I had an amazing career now, which bought along with it fame and fortune, but there wasn't a day that went by that I didn't feel that scared little girl inside, the one begging for mercy from an attack that was unfairly laid upon her. Because no matter where I went, or what I did, the horror of what happened that night would never escape me.

I sighed a sigh of relief when Jimmy decided to cut class early that day, so he and I could talk.

''Looks like you've done the place up'' I smiled walking over to him, observing the brand new ring, and training equipment too.

''Business is good! Classes are booked up for the next year and a half now, due to the studio gaining so much popular demand in young wrestlers wanting to train.. People from all over the world wanna come here now, and it's all because of you kiddo, so thank you'' Jimmy smiled, patting me on lightly on the head, then opening his arms for a big hug.

''Really? That's awesome Jimmy! I'm so happy for you, and your welcome'' I beamed happily, embracing him back.

''So, how you doin' kid?'' he asked softly as we stood hugging each other.

''Not so good Jimmy'' I told him, and couldn't help it when my eyes started welling up with tears in his arms. I told him everything, and I mean everything. He was absolutely stunned at the lengths Summer Rae had gone to try and push her career further, even saying he wished he kinda hadn't thrown her out like a loose cannon, and instead been a bit more patient and trained her longer. But then again, he also said it actually shouldn't surprise him, based on what he observed of her here at OVW. He was extremely apologetic of what happened to Paige of course, and asked me to give his love to her next time I saw her, which I told him would be next week.

He also gave me a lengthy lecture on how he'd told me to mind my anger issues now that I had made it to the big leagues. I felt like a young kid being scolded by her father, but in all seriousness, I knew Jimmy was right. I just wish I knew how I could change things to better myself like Stephanie said. I was feeling vulnerable and alone again without Roman, and that sucked like hell.

The rest of the week rolled on pretty much the same...me, my dull apartment, and boring old Ohio. I'd booked my flight to Pensacola over the weekend, and spent the rest of the time at my local Gym.

*****

Monday was finally here! And I was flying out to Pensacola today to go see Paige, I was so excited! And I missed her so much! Roman had told me he would be flying out early Wednesday morning, so as you can imagine I was doubly excited! I didn't have my own car yet, so I decided to do what the boys always do, and get myself a rental. When I got to the hospital, they told me that Paige (I'm guessing because of her superstar status) had been moved to her own private ward.

It was a pretty big hospital, so when I finally found the room, I was soooo exhausted, as I was also carrying all the shopping I'd done for her too, including a massive pizza with pepperoni and olive toppings.

''Baabbbbbeeee!!'' she yelled the second she saw me, carefully jumping out of bed to come greet me with open arms!

''Oh god Saraya, its soooooooo good to see you'' I screamed, setting the pizza down then running over to hug her ''I've missed you so much!!'' I cried.

''Me too babe!'' she said hugging me back tight.

We embraced for like a good minute and a half, feeling so happy to see each other again just like old times.

''Well look at you! Oh babe, I can see where she got you on the nose'' she said studying my face carefully.

''Aww don't worry about that, I think what I did to her was much worse....'' my voice suddenly trailed off and I looked down with heavy guilt.

''Don't do that to yourself babe'' Paige said softly ''there's always gonna be battle scars, we're wrestlers for goodness sakes'' she teased ''it's the emotional scars that hurt the most though'' said, looking in my eyes ''so, how you doing babe? For real'' she asked, cheekily gobbling down a large slice of pizza and jumping back onto her bed. I grabbed a slice for myself and sat down next to her ''I'm doing good...not the best, but I'm pulling through ''I told her honestly ''I'm grateful to still have my job of course, and Roman'' I smiled weakly ''but right now, I'm just so happy to be here with you!'' I said, reaching over and hugging her again ''anyway, enough about me, how are you doing?'' I asked ''you look so good and upbeat'' I observed.

''Look good? Me?'' she said touching her hair and face ''You're kidding right? I look like death warmed over!'' and in her quirky British accent, that sounded funny as hell ''you did remember to bring all my makeup didn't you?'' she asked, not even giving me a chance to answer as she excitedly jumping off the bed again, and sifting through all the bags on the floor.

''You don't neeed make up Saraya, you look just as beautiful without it'' I smiled, watching her like a kid in a candy store with all the goodies in the bags.

''Easy for you to say'' she said flopping back down on the bed with her hands full of makeup ''You don't have to wear this disgusting neck brace that makes you look like a turtle'' she pouted, making me laugh out loud at her cute comment.

''So, how is your neck? What are the doctors saying now?''

''Well...'' she said, applying the red lipstick I had bought her at same time ''...as I told you guys before, it was broken in three places, one on the back of the neck, one by my throat, where I had a small bone fragment pressing slightly on my voice box - but they managed to moved that quickly for me so I could speak normally again, and the last just by my collar bone'' she sighed.

''My god Saraya, if you knew just how numb I went when I heard your neck crack that night'' I told her ''I was stood right by you, and I saw what was about to happen, but I was too late to stop it!'' I cried ''and I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Saraya'' I sobbed, feeling all my emotions this past week suddenly come together, as I once again began crying my eyes out.

''Aww Faith come here, it's not your fault ok'' she consoled me ''I don't blame you for anything, there was nothing you could have done, you and I both know that'' she said wrapping her arms around me in comfort. I was so grateful for her warm embrace right now, that it just made me cry all the more.

''Thank you Saraya, and I'm sorry for breaking down on you like this'' I said, grabbing some tissue from her bedside table and wiping my eyes with it ''it's just that I felt, well feel so upset still by what happened to you. I mean it wasn't your fault'' I sobbed.

''And it wasn't yours either'' she said softly ''look, we both know Summer can't wrestle, she proved it the night she botched the leg drop move on me''

''I dunno about that, she was pretty good at knocking me down at WrestleMania on Sunday'' I said rolling my eyes.

''That's only because Seth's been giving her extra training like you said'' and rolled her eyes also.

''Still hasn't sunk in yet huh?'' I said, reading her expression.

''Nope. I mean, I knew he was sneaking off to go shag someone...but Barbie? Yuk!'' she said making a face, making me once again giggle out loud.

''Yeah, but I guess we have to be respectful of her now that we know their together, and after what I did to her, I really need to make an effort. I've been feeling so guilty about the whole thing, you know? And I'm exhausted and just want the feuding to stop now''

Paige smiled warmly and held my hand.

''I kissed him you know'' I told her, sheepishly.

''Who....Seth?!'' she said, and her mouth dropped wide open with shock! ''You left that part out biatch! When?!'' she yelled, excited to get this latest piece of juicy gossip.

''Well it was only for like a second, but it was after Mania, back in the hotel room. I was so apoplectic with anger over the thought of Summer and Roman sleeping together, that I guess, kind of in the spur of the moment, I tried to kiss Seth out of revenge...''

''And?'' she boomed excitedly ''What happened girl?! Tell me!''

''He...well very respectfully declined my advances, which to be honest, I'm so grateful for now'' I said looking down again.

''See babe, I told you he's a good guy'' she beamed happily.

I thought of my fine Seth had just paid for me, and no matter what had happened between us, that had definitely come from a good place.

''You never doubted him did you?'' I said looking over at her.

''Not one bit'' she smiled softly.

''I see now that you were right about him Saraya, he really is a good guy'' I smiled just as softly ''oh and hey, don't tell him I told you this, but he's also bought you a gift from every state we've been to so far, as a way to make up for the fight you and he had about me in the parking lot that day'' I smiled.

''Oh what a sweetheart! He didn't have to do that'' she said rolling her eyes cutely and smiling ''I mean we fight all the time, he's like a brother to me too, he's just more annoying than Roman is'' she giggled, winking over at me ''Speaking of...how was the makeup sex?'' she grinned cheekily.

''Saraya!'' I said, leaning over and spanked her thigh playfully, before giving her cheeky grin ''it was amazing!!!'' I winked.

''I knew it!'' she said clapping her hands together happily

We sat and ate the rest of the Pizza, while girly gossiping about this that and the other, and the next thing I knew, Paige was fast asleep and snoring cutely with her lipstick still in her hand. I used the moment to call Roman, and was so happy to hear his voice, same like he was happy to hear mine. He asked me to give his love to Paige, and I promised him we would both be watching Monday Night Raw later together, as I knew Paige wouldn't miss it for the world, because she would want to see her Deano.

*****

It was amazing how fast time flew by when you were having fun! I had already said my goodbyes to Paige at the hospital earlier, and I was now making my way to Romans house to wait for him. I still couldn't believe I was going to be with him tomorrow, it felt like a lifetime ago since I'd seen him last. My god I missed him so much, and I wanted to prepare everything nicely for his arrival. I felt bad because I had been non-stop smoking since Ohio, well, actually since I had taken that ciggie from Seth after my suspension at Mania...I guess old habits die hard. But I didn't want to smell like an ashtray when he got here, and I definitely didn't want him being disappointed in me again. So after left Paige, I stopped by a late night pharmacy not too far from the hospital, to buy myself one of those transparent patch thingy's.

I could have sworn I saw it before...but now I was absolutely sure, as I peered once more through the rear view mirror at the black car with its blackout windows, that had been tailing me shortly after leaving the pharmacy. I tried to keep my thoughts calm and my hands steady on the wheel, but my heart began racing as I drove down the dark deserted road....