[i think I will cause chaos in this chapter]

Burrito: I fixed my keycard after all this time

Months: Ah nice. Was it the front desk like I suggested or was it the administrative office

Burrito: I just asked the desk and they gave me a temporary keycard while they sent my original to the housing administration

Burrito: so both, technically

Months: ah what a wonderful compromise

Months: how is school

Burrito: it's alright

Burrito: I have at least a B in all my classes and I'm caught up with my work

Burrito: like I always have been.

Months: please don't start this again lol

Burrito: start what again? I'm just saying I can keep up with my work no matter what environment I'm in

Months: yeah that's the point

Burrito: ??

Months: I sent you back home because I didn't want you to miss out on your NYU experience okay? I know you're perfectly capable of keeping up from across the Atlantic but are you paying for in-person lectures or online schooling?? Get your moneys worth. This shouldn't even be an argument.

Burrito: well it is because you treated me like I'm dumb and you hated me

Burrito: that's the issue I had with it and I'm not hearing you invalidate my feelings again

Months: god save the Queen when did I ever do that???

Months: I know I have issues but really

Months: stop blaming me for shit I've never even said

Burrito: you keep telling me that I'm being ridiculous or a jerk or whatever when I try to tell you how I feel. And it doesn't matter what it's about. I'll tell you how I feel about some assignment I've been given and how I think it's stupid and you'll go off telling me to be grateful that that's all I have to complain about

Burrito: yeah I know I'm privileged and I'm crying over milk that will never spill but can you let me be upset about things and voice my thoughts without shutting me down??????

Months: I never said anything like that and you know it.

Burrito: is that all you have to say on the matter

Months: let me. Type.

Months: I would never shut you down and if I do it's either because it's something really out of your control or it's irrelevant or whatever. I've never complained about you going on about your school work, which is all you do by the way, and I sit and listen to you while you talk about the things you want to. Now you come at me pulling all this out of your arse because I asked if you had a good day of classes??? God save the Queen I'll swim across the ocean and kick you in the shin myself

Burrito: "I never said anything like that and you know it."

Months: I haven't what are you yammering on abouT

Burrito: you just admitted you do when it's something you feel is irrelevant or out of my control. Why do you get to decide what's irrelevant when it clearly matters to me

Months: goddamn you can't con Jeff Bezos into donating ninety percent of his fortune. Not only is it out of your control and unattainable, but you go on for hours and bring it up so often like you're actually going to do something about it. That's what I mean

Burrito: oh my god take a joke.

Months: it was a joke the first hour and now you bring it up so often and divert from the genuine conversation we have. It's like you're hiding behind a Jeff Bezos scam wall and you won't let me through. You went off on me about holding up so many walls and now you're putting up twice as many on both sides of the field

Months: miss me with that shit. What the hell do you want me to do??

Burrito: not be such a jackass about literally everything

Burrito: if you didn't like it you could've told me instead of sitting and simmering in silence. What do you want me to do about that?? I don't have a goddamn magic touch I barely even have healthcare

Months: you act like you hate me sometimes I swear to god

Months: you chew me out for existing and being cautious (because I have issues) before you invade my home and stay for days. You get mad when I ask you to go home and get your moneys worth from your university. Then you continue to chew me out for existing even though you had such a jolly ole time at my place and you told me I'm the only person you want to be around

Months: what is wrong with you??????? I said outright I have commitment problems and a lot more issues and here you come trotting into my life like a ray of sunshine and then a load of shite pops out like you're a Trojan horse

Months: why is everything so sunny when we're together and then it's goddamn thunderstorms when we're apart. I'm not moving to nyc and you aren't moving here. If the long distance won't work and we can't meet in the middle then what are we doing here???

Burrito: I don't know.

Months: that's the worst answer you could possibly give me. You're the one causing the issues what do you want to do

Burrito: I'm the one causing the issues?? If it wasn't so hard to communicate with you and get to know what you like and dislike we wouldn't be in this situation. Maybe if you messed back instead of brooding all day we'd be more in tune with each other. Don't tell me I'm the one causing issues when I'm putting in work and you're sitting back and saying I'm the thunder and lighting in the storm.

Burrito: I know you have issues but goddamn. I said I liked you and I'd work and wait with you and it feels like we're just running in circles

Months: liked

Months: you liked me. Past tense.

Months: do you "like" me anymore.

Months: do you even want this to continue

Burrito: you know what. I don't know. You're a great guy when half the wall gets broken down but you seriously need to go to therapy or something. Maybe I do too. Maybe we just aren't meant to be together.

Months: maybe we aren't

Burrito: okay.

Months: okay.

Burrito: however I do have a bet with Tyler that whoever stays together the longest gets a hundred bucks

Months: and

Burrito: I'll give you half if we beat them

Months: fair. We'll beat them. No sweat

Burrito: hell yeah