18th August 2021

I had my fourth session with the psychologist. I'm little bit disappointed, I don't really know why.

Today it wasn't only me, but the parents were in the session as well. And... I don't know. I felt irritated by their actions and words.

My head doesn't feel right, and it feels like there is a war inside. Well, I think an argument between my alters is going on. I can hear their voices... Their shouting voices.

I will have to take the virginity test even though they don't have any scientifical backings to them, I'm done for it if the doctor says I'm virgin. No one is going to believe in what I say.

I feel like I've gone mad when they say to me it's impossible for me to be raped. I ask myself how come? I don't know.

I no more know a thing you know. I can't really tell what's dream what's real anymore.