30th October 2021

I just had a session, and I feel so bad. My psychologist said that the rape may have happened in the inner world as well. And I don't know if that's the case. I don't know if I was really raped or not. And this confusion kills me.

No one is really able to do something about all the confusion I'm facing right now. And what do I do?

I don't want to keep living anymore. I just want to disappear from the world.

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Someone just kill me!

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I went for a walk, and all. I don't feel that bad anymore. Still I'm kind of losing hope.

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It's sad, but I shall live anyways.