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Frisk

I was so cramped! Rolled in a little ball, I don't remember being in this position...

I pushed on the area around me. I hesitated as the events of last night played for me and hit me like a truck... I couldn't remember their face, their clothes... just how they felt... and it terrified me.

But words that Chara told me a long time ago flew through my head.

"Even if you're scared take a stand and fight, it's the only way to get things done and over with." I can't help but say... they were right...

I pushed, what I think is garbage, away and crawled, something gave a tug at my ankles and I yelped. Only to find it was my clothes that were ripped from me.

I yanked them up despite their betrayal they were needed and dependable to hide what happened. I grimaced feeling the crunchy uncomfortable crust of someone's unwanted need move and flake off as I reach up where I saw some light peaking out.

I was so lucky that I just had a small headache. I grabbed the edge of the bin and pulled my way out.

I shuddered and hiccuped softly... no, no no nooo!!! Don't cry!! Don't cry!!

I struggle to pushed memories of the night before out of my mind. I remembered the feeling, no... stop... I shrank.

Don't be weak...

I shuddered and whined. A lump swelled in my throat, something I tried to swallow as fluid rushed to my eyes.

I gripped my pants and bent over myself. I had been disposed of like trash, after being used in a way I never wanted!

I stared up at that daunting monument, Mount Ebott it towered over the buildings... it saw everything.

"THIS IS YOUR FAULT!" I wailed at it. "WHY'D THIS HAPPEN WHY'D YOU LET THIS HAPPEN TO ME!?" I ran at the wall.

"WHY WHY WHY!!!" I shrank and sobbed.

I don't care that people heard me that they saw me, that I was screaming at nothing like a crazy person.

I yelped as my headache worsened. I grabbed my head and touched my scalp and cried out curling up into a ball.

Oh my god... that hurt! I hissed and yanked my hand away, there was dried blood on my head.... I looked to the streets seeing a few people staring at me.

They were just there for a show...

They weren't going to help, I look and smell like filth!! I was screaming like a madman, of course they weren't going to help.

I... I could...

I needed to find help. I pushed to my feet and wobbled around a bit. My nether regions sending me uncomfortable messages that I tried my best to ignore.

"Can anybody help me?" I called out weakly, no more crowds... I heard someone groan behind me and my instincts took over. I ran and I suddenly bulldozed a person or two over that tried to avoid me.

I yelped and scrambled off of them trying to wipe their disgusted faces from my memory.

"I-I-I'm sorry!" I stuttered and tried to offer my hand as help, but they shook their heads stood up on their own and quickly moved on.

I sobbed and wiped my eyes with my sleeve and gasped as my eyes burned. Crying again... why do I do this...?

You klutz! Screw up!! Such an idiot such a fool!!

I wailed and pressed against the wall and just let it out.

I attempted to ignored the guilty looks, the worried, and disturbed glances that came my way.

Though, Nobody would come near me unless it was to walk by. They avoided me and looked down

'No no child don't talk to the pathetic crying girl on the ground' I could hear in my head as mothers pulled their curious staring children along.

Yeah, a thin little thing like me is dangerous... I can be...

So I suppose, I can understand where they are coming from...

I would walk away as fast as I could too.

I looked to the mountain. It taunted me, called me, its shadow hovered over me like an expecting mother waiting for me to come home.

'Come to me you'll be safe.' And for a moment I believe it.

I tried to clean up my face, tried to stop crying.

The Underground was one of the only few places I ever felt at home.

Toriel would be waiting for me I'm sure of it!

I got up and took a few steps forward, then stopped.

I couldn't... it felt wrong... how could I go when I abandoned them?! How could I leave when I lost the SOULs that they needed to be free.

I needed to get the SOULs back... but that was a task easier said than done.

I looked around the town and ran across the street and up the sidewalk, I kept my head down perhaps I could find a church...

My history teacher always said that if you're in a bind seek help, but I'm sure she meant something else by that.

I can try to get something from a church, maybe I'll find someplace to bathe inside some churches have showers if the building is old enough, they probably don't work but never hurts to try...

I turned a corner and looked up. Perfect.

It was a Church of Christ, now I am not much of a religious person... but sometimes churches of Christ give free food. If you stand in these long lines.

Well that's based off the experience I received from one of my old caretakers.

I only went a few times, but every time there was this buffet line, free food as long as you went to one of those classes, this is a small price to pay.

A price I won't be paying, I would take the food...

This building looked plain and blocky, it was made of brick and looked like a sad cheap attempt of a modern building.

The sign in front read 'Ebott Church of Christ', I hope I was right...

I rushed inside and earned a strange look from the young greeter.

I tried to ignore it as my wet shoes squeaked on the polished floors. Gaining more attention than my smell could.

Bathroom... bathroom... look for an old one...

I searched around and turned down one of the halls and led to a media area. Filled with young teens gathered around a foosball table.

I forced my head down as I speed walked to the other side of the room and down a short hall finding a bathroom, finally luck was on my side!

I swung the door open and paused. The room had a crowd of girls inside I stared down again and thought about backing out. But I wasn't going to go look for another restroom.

I don't understand why girls just crowd in bathroom... what do we even have to do there? Gossip? You can do that anywhere else...

I took in a deep breath and walked to the sink. Turning on one of the sinks as I listened to their chatter. It was nothing interesting, nothing that I would care about until one spoke up.

"Oh my god... what is that smell??" One of them gagged I flinched and tried to scrub my arms.

"I don't know... it's probably one of the stalls." Another dismissed the first one.

"I can't stand it..." they feinted a cough

"Class is about to start we can head there?"

"Yeah let's go..."

I watched them leave as a group.

I sighed and relaxed a bit. I cupped my hands and gather the water, who cares if the floor gets wet? There was a drain in the middle of the room...

I dumped the water on my head tried to soak my hair, it stung a bit, though I could push past it for now.

I took some hand soap and scrubbed it into my hair. Grimacing when my hand ran over the wound I got last night.

I whimpered and pushed the memories away, another time I can get into them... now... now wasn't a good time.

I listened closely to the door as I stuck my head under the faucet getting all the grime out as best as I could, the water was so cold, but I wasn't willing to wait for it to warm up. Especially when someone could walk in at anytime.

I squeezed the water from my hair and spotted a ponytail on the ground I reached for it and placed it around my wrist. This would be useful for later.

I gathered a few paper towels and tried to dry my hair as best as I could. My hands and arms were red from some of my scrubbing from earlier.

I froze when I heard someone walking in. And threw the towels away as fast as I could.

Their heels click, click, clicked on the floor. She jumped when she saw me.

"You startled me." She chuckled, I forced a weak smile

"Sorry about that..." I looked back at the mirror.

I felt a nauseous. Food, food will help.

I gently pushed past her and rushed for the food line I saw, maybe if I can find the lost and found I can use whatever's in there.

I hope I can get in line before they shut down.

Words: 1596
Date: 1-11-2020