Intermission
[you return in an instant]
Quick, yes? Did you learn anything?
The story seems a bit vague, but if you delve deeper
You'll find its meaning
Come, let us continue our walk as I explain
[you nod]
In the dream, what did you think of the woman?
...
Yes, it was quite sad
But no, the woman did not represent Master
At least not as much as it did with the one who watched her
In the dream, if you didn't know, the one who watched was something of a guardian
It was a guardian of the forest, and it could feel
And hear
Everything that happens around it
That's the first thing we use to compare
Unlike the guardian, Master doesn't know everything that happens around him
But he wishes to know, and not only on the scale of what is in his general vicinity
He wishes to know everything that happens around the world
He especially wants to know what others are thinking
Sure, it may sound like he's being a little greedy
What will he do with all that information?
If anyone had that amount of information, nothing will ever threaten them
But Master wants to know these things for other reasons, not to use it to move up in the world
To him, they are stories, different worlds, endless ideas
He wants to know them all, only because they fascinate him
To him, it's like living the story itself. He attempts to relive every word
Though, he is human. One cannot contain all and be expected to be the same
Which brings me to the second point of the dream
In the dream, the guardian wanted to do something for the woman
Something to help and make her happy after feeling her emotions
In the end, he couldn't
No matter how much he learns, there are things he can do nothing about
The guardian was beneath the water, the woman was not
They were living in the same world, but simultaneously in different ones
And much like the guardian, Master wishes to do something about despair
The dream only included one person and one story
But Master likes to read and listen to people talk, so the troubles he wishes to resolve are many
His journeys from one story to the next, after some time,
Eventually made him not only feel sadness and uselessness,
But also uncertainty. The uncertainty isn't shown in the dream, but it's what comes after
I only knew this after one of our conversations
The more he learned, the more he didn't feel right
Things he thought he knew for sure were wrong
Things he believed in before became myths
It has come to the point that even when the answer is right in front of him,
Master will make sure it is correct five times before believing it
And in some cases, even then it's wrong
Just like with the woman
...
Why doesn't he stop?
It does indeed seem detrimental to his wellbeing
But, he cannot stop
Several times, I've felt this corner of his mind closing, becoming darker and darker
At first, I believed it was going to happen
And for a long time before that, I was hoping he would do it someday
To completely forget about me, this mansion. For his sake, of course
Each time after that, I'd have a tiny amount of hope that he'll do it
Though it isn't all bad
He enjoys them also, remember?
The guardian learned a great deal about the woman other than her sadness
The guardian got glimpses of her past, her happiness
She told a story of her life
As for the third and last point, the woman herself
No, none of those things ever happened to Master
But he has had some complications and was troubled during his school days
Though, others didn't notice. He held either a blank or fake expression most days
He even contemplated suicide once, but thankfully he found that idea to be ridiculous
He still thinks about it though, and the whole idea, or lack of, behind death
[butler sighs]
He's much too complicated
Ah, the exit
I hadn't realized we were so close
Is there anything else you'd like to see before moving on?
Preferably something close
...
The last few windows, is it? Allow me
[snaps fingers, window turns into an opened]
[from the corner, a shadow moved]
Whenever you are ready
[take a step inside]
[black]
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