WARNING!!!

*Chapter includes lot of dramas and a little bit psycho.

*Please be well prepared before reading. thank you.

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Perhaps I wouldn't be able to believe the words:

"Let's see and hear only good things"

no more.

-Louder Than Bombs, BTS-

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PLEASE! DON'T DO IT!"

"STAY BACK IF YOU DON'T WANT ANYTHING HAPPEN TO THIS KID!"

"Let him go! We can talk about this."

"Talk?! There's nothing to talk about, RM! You ashamed me! You ashamed all of us! You're not the leader that we look up to, not anymore!"

"If this is my fault,you can blame me. But that kid has nothing to do with this! So let him go! "

"Of course it does! This kid is the prove you stabbed ARMYS behind our back!"

"You're selfish! You don't know anything! You just put the blame on me and other ARMY,  it's not fair! "

"YES! I BLAME YOU BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, RM! I LOVE YOU, KIM NAMJOON! WE COULD BE HAPPY TOGETHER. YOU AND I WILL HAVE OUR OWN CHILDREN AND GROW OLD TOGETHER. BUT WHAT DID YOU DO?! YOU MARRIED TO SOME KIND OF BITCH LAST YEAR!"

"DON'T YOU DARE INSULT MY WIFE! I MARRIED HER BECAUSE I LOVED HER! AND SHE LOVED ME FOR WHO I REALLY AM! NOT BECAUSE OF MY FAME OR MY CAREER! "

"BUT SHE'S GONE NOW! SO MARRY ME NAMJOON! I'LL BE GOOD. I'LL BE A LOVING WIFE TO YOU."

"YOU'RE INSANE! STOP THIS! "

"ME? INSANE??"

The teenage girl frowns and sobs. Her grips around the fragile figure tightens, making little Soobin cry even louder.

Namjoon is terrified.  He can't think.  He's mind completely goes blank. He's suppose to stand at the stage and performs with the rest, but, what happened?

He's now standing at the highest floor, more like the rooftop of the stadium in America, with numerous of bodyguards behind him. Jackson stands a few steps ahead of him. Both the well-known stars witnesses the terror sight in front of them.

A teenage girl has taken Soobin from the backstage and decide to make him as her hostage.

One step taken, the girl will end the boy's life.

Just like that.

And Namjoon will not forgive himself if he let one of his loved ones leave him.

He tries to take steps ahead but only being hold by Jackson, as his friend prevent him for going further.

"Don't". Jackson snaps.

"You only gonna make it worse. That kid will do anything to make you bow to her needs."

Namjoon: "Then what should I do?! Let her kill my son?! Is that what you want me to do?! "

Jackson: "Let me handle this. Listen, the medias didn't know that you adopted a child, Joon. I've also never updated anything about Soobin. So you better watch your actions. Don't make it too obvious."

Jackson: Hey girl! That kid is one of the BigHit's staff child. It's not RM or even my child. So I suggest that you calm down and come here. We can talk about this. If you will act like this, you only gonna make these bodyguards misunderstand your actions and put you into jail."

"LIAR! YOU'RE LYING JACKSON! "

"No I'm not, sweetie. Look, RM here is really close to that child, you don't want to make RM sad. Do you like to see him sad? "

"He's right. I really like that kid, sweetie. Please give him to me, or one of us. He's parents are crying,looking for him." Namjoon persuade the girl with his white lie.

"Really? " The girl wipes his tear with her sleeves as her face shows the that she is relief.

But then..

Namjoon and Jackson let out their screams.

As Soobin slowly falls from the stadium.

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Crushed.

Anger.

Sadness.

His emotions are mixing up.

His face is wet with his tears.

His heart is breaking, piece by piece, revealing the old wounds to become bigger.

The light in him becomes dimmer and dimmer.

He's hurt.

He's confused.

He is in rage.

But he just can't do anything aside from crying.

Jin: Namjoon..

Namjoon: "WHAT DID I DO? WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?! WHAT DID SOOBIN DO TO DESERVE THIS?! WHY HIM?! WHY?! "

jin: "Namjoon.. Calm yourself down. We didn't heard anything about him yet. There still hope."

Namjoon: "Hope? Hope?! "

Namjoon flee himself from the eldest embrace. His red eyes stares dangerously to Jin, making him and the others gulp.

Namjoon: " What kind of hope?! I'm tired! I'm tired with all of this!"

Bang PD: Namjoon! Pull yourself together! What is wrong with you?! "

Namjoon: "What is wrong with me?! You saw it today! A child fell from the goddamn building during our concert!"

Namjoon grips Bang Si-Hyuk's collars as his eyes are piercing into the man's soul.

Namjoon: "You! It's your fault! If it's not for your stupid idea, none of this bullshit happened!!"

Jin: "Namjoon, calm down! Let go of him! "

Jackson: "Joon! Enough!"

Jackson finally pulls Namjoon out from the group and drags him away from them to the corner of the emergency door.

Jackson:" Kim Namjoon, stop it! You're going to attract attention with this attitude! It's no one's fault! Stop blaming him. He didn't do anything wrong! "

Namjoon: "How did that girl got Soobin in the first place, Jackson?! How could you be so careless?!"

Jackson: "I was not being careless, Joon! Our car were crashed from behind and then this happened! What was I supposed to do?! "

As the two fights, a young doctor comes in between with a worry face.

Doctor: "I'm sorry, but which one of you are the guardian of Choi Soobin?"

Namjoon: "Kim. It's Kim Soobin. I'm his father, Kim Namjoon. "

Jackson: "Adoptive. He's adoptive father of Soobin."

Doctor: "Okay. Sir, I believe there's a problem here. Your son had lost a great amount of blood. There was a deep cut around his ear. His rib cage cracked due to the high impact towards his body."

Jackson: "Oh Lord."

Namjoon feels that his heart is thumping rapidly. His body freezes, the numbness is overtaking him. He blinks twice, he is shaking in fear. 

The feelings is coming again,attacking him slowly, and painfully.

It's the same feeling that he  had felt when he lose his wife .

Namjoon wants to scream,saying that this is all  a dream. A bad dream. And when he wakes up, he will hear his baby's crying  beside him. 

But no matter how he pinches himself, he still sees this nightmare again.

His reddish skin at the back of his hands becomes the proof that his nightmare is a painful reality.

It's real.

This is REALITY.

Namjoon: "Please, doc! He's gonna be okay,right? You're gonna save him, right? He's not.."

Doctor: "Sir, we 'll try to save him and do whatever we can. But, .."

"His chance to live is not that high. And I'm afraid I can't guarantee his life."

After the doctor says those words, darkness has engulf into Namjoon,and for once....

He let the darkness taste him and swallow him.

"NAMJOON!!!!"