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Notes:
'*'= Speaking english

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"Appa..."

"I'm so sowwy, Appa.."

Kai cries and sobs. The image of his Dad fell and being bumped with the ladder still vivid in his pure mind. How his father called out his name while trying to reach him from afar.

The little one was so scared, so scared at the point he will think that his father will die and leave him all alone.

Kai wanted to help his Dad. The little one tried to push the ladder away from his dad's figure but no avail. His hands was too tiny and he was too weak.

He tried again, again and again. Unfortunately the little one's hand slipped from the grip and his right hand ended up being smashed in between the ladder's lock spreaders.

The little one screamed in pain. He tried to pull his hand off but he couldn't.

Kai cried and cried, while screaming for his Appa to wake up.

He silently prayed for help in whimper, hoping for someone will come.

And his wish had come true.

His uncle who he called 'Appa Hobi' arrived at his house and quickly barged in. Appa Hobi knows his house's security code, heck all of his uncles know.

And here he is. At the hospital near his neighbour hood, waiting for any updates from the doctor about his poor father.

But when his uncle Hobi was having a serious talk on the phone and the doctor, leaving him with one of the nurse to treat his wounds, the little one couldn't hold the pressure atmosphere and his mind only thought about his Appa.

And his fault for being so weak.

The little one blames himself for not saving him.

He blames himself for not being big enough and strong like uncle Hobi who easily carry his Appa to the car.

Instead, he accidentally hurt his hand while trying to remove the ladder.

'I'm bad. I'm such a bad boy.' he thought.

So, he sneakily ran from their sight, with his sorrowful heart.

And he ends up sitting at one of the bench outside the hospital, away from the hospital's lobby and the sight of people who works there.

Ningning wipes his tears at the back of his left hand.

"Dad! Say 'Ahh'!"

The little one catches the sight of a boy who ages like him, is feeding a man who's on a wheelchair. They hug, laugh as the boy continue to feed his father while his mom ruffles his hair. They look so happy in their own little circle of life.

And Kai could only watches them from afar, with gloomy eyes and envy heart. The little one caresses his right hand that is bandaged.

He hissess as the pain stings.

"Appa.." he mutters.

If his Appa is here, he will treats his wound and saying it's okay , and treats him ice cream to cheer him up.

Oh, He really wanted his Appa to wake up.

He wanted his Appa to live.

With him.

Together forever.

His Appa is the only one he had.

Besides his uncles and his brothers, even though all of them are not related by blood but they are all the people whom he cherished so much.

'Appa.. I'm so sorry for not being strong.'

'Please.. Just-..'

"*OH NO! THE APPLES!"

Kai's head shots up when he hear someone shout.

Well, it's because the way the shout is in English.

He sees a guy, wearing a grey hoodie with his orange hair colour, struggling carrying 3 big paper bags on him and one of it had tore off and the apples are on the ground.

Seeing the guy tries to bend down, the little one rushes to the man in front of him and picks up the apples; helping him.

The guy is astonished to see a foreigner-looking-boy like him, who is Kai picking up his apples.

Kai looks up and face the man's features clearly.

'Oh, it is an English man.' the little one thoughts.

"*Sir, let's pwut ap-pwles there!" Kai speaks to him in English and  points out the bench that he was sitting.

"*O-oh! *Why, thank you, boy." The foreigner man replies. 

Both of them go to the bench and put down the apples and the bags. Luckily the foreign man has an extra plastic bag for the apples as an exchange for the teared paper bag.

After finishing putting the apples, both of them sit on the bench.

"*Thank you for helping me, young boy." The foreigner man says his gratitude with his thick accent.

"*It's al-wight. You nw-eed help." Kai reply politely.

Kai watch the man smiles as he pats his shoulder, but his smile soon vanishes when he notices Kai's bandaged hand.

"*Hey, what's wrong with your hand? *Did you break your hand??"

"*N-n-no. It's not. *My hand.blood."

"*Oh my. I'm so sorry.* You shouldn't have helped me if you're hurt!" The man touch Kai's bandaged hand with so much care; checking if there is a bleeding going on.

"*Why are you all alone? *It's dangerous, you know? *Where's your Mom and Dad, kid?"

The questions that the man just asked made Kai frowns.

Mom and Dad.

Eomma and Appa.

Appa..

"*Kid?* I'm asking you, where's your parents? *Your Dad, perhaps?"

Kai only looks down as his Appa is being mentioned.

Again.

His eyes start to become glassy.

The man softly lift his chin up.

There, he sees the boy's tears.

"*Eh? Why you crying?? *Is there something wrong?"

And that exact moment Kai burst out in tears.

"Appa!! I'm sowwy!!" Kai screams as he cries again.

The man looks taken aback when he heard Kai screamed in another language as he tries to connect the information dots in his mind.

'*Woah, wait, Hold the fuck up.'

"KID, YOU SPEAK KOREAN?!"

"Huh?"

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"HUH?"

"SORRY?! AS IF YOUR SORRY WILL BRING MY CHILD BACK!'

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN KAI IS GONE?!"

The nurse lady  could only sighs and mutters her  apologies to Jimin who had awakened and Hoseok who is calming the man.

Jimin: "Just where did you left him, Miss?"

Nurse: "I was cleaning the things on the table and went to the nearest dustbin to throw away the tissues that have been used for the wounds. But when I went back to his bed, he had left."

Doctor: Have you checked throughout  the lobby?"

Nurse: "I did, sir. I even asked the nurses and the people there, but none of them noticed him."

Jimin: "I'm going to find him."

Doctor: "No you can"t, Mr Park! You just woke up and your blood pressure is really low, you could collapse!"

Jimin: "I DON'T FUCKING CARE, DOC! IF YOUR STAFF WOULD BE MORE AWARE OF HER SURROUNDINGS LIKE MY CHILD, THEN NONE OF THIS WILL HAPPENED!"

Hoseok: "Jimin, calm down! Control yourself! It's not their fault!"

Hoseok holding back Jimin from getting up.

Jimin: "PLEASE, YOU NEED TO FIND HIM. I DON'T WANT TO LOSE HIM. NOT MY CHILD! NOT MY NINGNING!!"

Hoseok: "I'm sorry for his behalf Sir,Miss. But could you please leave us alone?"

Doctor: "Yes, of course. Again, I'm sorry, Mr Jung."

Hoseok: "You're just doing your job. I understand."

Doctor: "We take our leave now."

Soon the doctor and the nurses leaves the room, leaving the two man alone in the ward.

Hoseok: "Jiminie, calm down. This is not you! Breathe,Jimin breathe! "

Jimin finally let himself falls onto his bed, as he sobs ; uncontrollable.

Where did his child go?

Why did he left?

Is he not being good enough?

Did someone kidnapped him?

Is Kai going to leave him like his soulmate?

Jimin couldn't help himself while thinking these probabilities.

Jimin: "Please, come back.. Don't leave Appa alone, Kai."

Hoseok pats Jimin's back. He understands why Jimin lashed out his anger to the nurse although it was not her fault to begin with, but Jimin only worries about the thought of Kai will leave him.

The feeling when your loved one just vanished in the blink of an eye, and nobody even noticed it.

Jimin is traumatized with the tragedy  from 4 years back.

And Hoseok understands him.

"Jimin, we will find him. That kid is smart, Chim. He'll come back to us. He will come back to you."

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"So you ran away because you feel guilty towards your Appa?"

Kai nods as he munches the egg tart the man gave it to him; to persuade him from crying even more.

When the little one takes a bite of the egg tart for the first time, his eyes are sparkling; enjoying the taste of the sweet pastry in his mouth.

"This is so good!!" Kai squeals as he munches. "What is this?" He asks the man as he shows the half egg tart that he has eaten.

"*Egg tarts."

"*Egg-thot??"

The foreign man chocks on his sausage stick.

His face turns into a horror when he just heard the censored word accidentally slips out from the child's mouth.

"NO! *TARTS! As in tarts in korean."

"Ohh." Kai nods, finally understands him.

After Kai and the foreign man finishes their snacks, the man faces him and speaks.

"Kid, listen to what I'm going to say."

"Some events we can't even control it and we need to accept it to be happened. And never put the blame on yourself if you try so hard to not let the bad things happened to you or even your loved one, when you know you're not in the fault."

"But sir, I want to strong to take the ladder out from my Appa."

"Well, did you try?"

"I tried to save appa."

"But you ended up being hurt,right?"

"Y-yes."

"Then it's not your fault, my dear. You're not a bad boy, kid. You're a good and brave kid; so strong to even bear the pain on your hand. So stop blaming yourself and go back to your father, and apologize to him for running away."

"But.."

"Running away will only make your Appa sad. You don't want your Appa cry, do you?"

"......"

"Trust me, Kid. Your Appa loves you so much more than could you imagined. Now, be a good boy and go back to him. He needs you as much as you need him."

"Yes. I go now."

Before Kai could even move, the man hold his left hand and give him a small carton box that contained two egg tarts.

"E-eh?  *egg tarts?"

"You seemed to like egg tarts that I bought, so I give you some for you to share with your Appa."

"Thwank- you sirr.. I'll be going."

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Kai runs until he enters the hospital entrance, and he sees someone familiar from afar.

Appa Sunshine Hobi!

He dashes towards his uncle who seems to be restless among the crowds.

He tugs his uncle's denim jacket from the back, making Hoseok turns back and face with the child that he was searching for.

"Ningning!"

"Appa Hobi!!"

Hoseok engulfs him into a tight hug.

"Oh my God! I thought we lost you! Thank God you're alright!"

"Appa Hobi." Kai breaks the hug.

"Ningning want to see Appa. Ningning did wrong, and Ningning wants to apologize."

"Sure, kid. Let's go. Appa have already awake. He was worried sick about you, you know?"

Hoseok picks up Kai and notices the box he was holding.

"Oh? What is this?" Hoseok takes the box and examines it.

"Oh, a kind English  man gave it to me, Appa Hobi. He can  talks in Korean too! And his hair is orange colour. Ningning helped him and he gave me *egg tarts! He told me to share this with Appa."

Hoseok eyes squint as he read the bakery's name that is crafted on it.

Chwe's Cottage.

Hoseok smirks. 'Ah.. so he's here?'

'Well, what a kind 'English' man indeed.'

"Let me carry the box."

"Thank you, Appa Hobi!"

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Ward 165

Patient: J.Park

Jimin stares at the baby photos on his Iphone.

He sobs as he reminiscing the day where he found his Ningning and brought him home.

The truth is his Kai is the son of one of his late wife's best friend.

After a few months of Charyeong death, Jimin went back to his late wife's hometown, and met her best friend Sangmi, along the way, coincidence.

Both of them knew each other by Charyeong before, and they instantly became good friends, along with the husband of hers.

Unfortunately, Sangmi had died when giving birth to his son.

And Jimin was there. The whole time.

As a promise that have been sealed among the three souls, Jimin took the newborn and raised him as his own son.

"Love him, Jimin. Please give him love that he deserved. Let him love you as his real father, replacing David."

"Please do it for me.."

"It doesn't matter if he didn't know me and David as their parents, but let him know that there is a person who loves him eternally. Make him happy,Jimin."

"I'm sorry, Sangmi, David hyung." Jimin sobs, remembering her last words.

"I-I-I failed you both."

"I failed... To protect my baby."

Jimin looks at his little boy's picture once again, and cries while hugging it.

It hurts.

It really hurts.

Is this how Namjoon hyung felt when he thought that Soobin would left him?

Is this how a father feels when his own child goes missing without a trace?

Damn.

*Knock! Knock!*

"Jiminie?" Hoseok pops his head out from the door.

" Please, Leave me alone, Hyung!" Jimin exclaims as he's back is facing Hoseok; not knowing there's a little boy with him.

Hoseok enters and put  Kai down on the floor.

"Jimin, turn your face to me, man."

Jimin: "I said leave me alo-.. Ningning?"

Kai: "A-a-appa."

Jimin: "Oh my god, Ningning!"

Before Jimin could even move, Kai quickly runs to him. He climbs up the bed and attacks Jimin with a tight hug; as if he doesn't want to let his Appa move even an inch.

"Appa! Ningning is sowwy!!"

"Ningning feel bad for running away! Ningning  sad for not helping Appa when you fell, so... So.."

Jimin hears Kai winces in pain. He shocks to see Kai's left hand bandaged. 

Did he..

"Ningning."

"Yeah?"

"Did you.. Did you hurt your hand.. because of Appa?"

"I.. Ningning wants to push ladder but.."

" Ningning hand hw-urt."

So Hoseok hyung saying the truth after all.

"I'm so sowwy, Appa. Ningning promise-.."

The little one flinch when he is being hugged by his Appa.

Jimin on the other hand shed his tears in silent, his soul is in a  delight, he can feel his pain and his worries slowly vanishes away.

He feels touch by his little one's pure deed; his attempt to save him.

Looking the both male having their bonding time, Hoseok decides to leave the ward; letting them have a private time.

He puts the box on the table that is  beside the bed and walks out.

Jimin breaks the hug quickly wipes his tears with his sleeve. He cupped his little one's face; staring into his sparkling eyes.

"My brave boy, my lovely Ningning.."

"You've already saved Appa without you even knew about it, my little one."

"Me?"

"You're a good boy. My Ningning is a brave boy. Ningning hurt just to save Appa and Appa is proud of you."

"Appa. Is Ningning.. A hero?"

"You always be my little hero, Kai." Jimin caresses Kai's cheeks gently.

The little one shows his toothy smile and boops his father's nose.

"Ningning pwomise to be a big  BIG boy. So Ningning can protect Appa. Evewy-time!"

Jimin chuckles softly and tickles his little boy's tummy.

Both of them goofs around, having their best time, forgetting the bad times.

After an hour, both of the boys lay flatly on the bed; Jimin's bed to be precise.

Seeing his little one's eyes droopy, Jimin takes Kai into his embrace.

Kai notices his father's warm and firm embrace guarding around him; and snuggle in closer to his father.

"Tired?"

"Uh-hum."

"Do you want Appa to sing a song?"

Kai  can only nods partially, since he is overpowered with tiredness.

Jimin start to hum softly.

It leaves me feeling seasick, baby
Seems like I am locked deep in the dreamlike reality

It spins me 'round and drives me crazy
It seems that I’m like the moon that rose at noon

Kai looks up to his father with his droopy eyes.

His Appa is singing this song.

His Appa will sing this song everytime to him before going to bed.

If I was only by myself
If I didn’t know you
Maybe I’d have given up
Lost at sea

Jimin caresses his little boy's face with so much love, and he flashes a genuine smile towards his precious little jewel.

He continues to sing.

But my heart’s still on fire
With a burning desire
Gonna get you back like it’s destined

Kai's face lits up when he sees his Appa smile, sending him the warm feelings inside of him.

They both smile.

And the both of them are singing together.

I wish that you would love (Love) me (Me)
Just like yesterday, don’t let go of this hand ever again

They both sing and  immersed into their own world, enjoying each others' embraces.

Small delicate hands into big hands.

And every time my heart (Heart) beats (Beats)
Match your steps so you don’t wander around ever again

I feel destiny in you you you you you
I feel destiny in me me me me me

Jimin stops when he could not hear his son's voice.

He look down and sees his baby already greets his dream land.

Jimin brushes his boy's bangs and kisses his forehead; and playing his soft locks while his other hand caresses the little one's bandaged hand.

"Park Kai. Kai, my little Ningning. My beloved little one,.."

"Do you know that you've  already saved me since the day these hands of mine took you home?"

"You healed me, little by little every single day."

"You made my day even more colorful, and I'm glad that you came to me on the right time."

Jimin shifts closer to his son, making the small gap is none to be feel.

He kissess the crown of his little one's head with so much love.

"No matter how different you are, or where you've come from.."

"I will always love you."

"And that will never change."

"Forever, even when I die."

P/s : I'm sorry for the loooonggg update and for the looooooonnnnggg ass chapter! I'm sorry if it's cliché and not good and I will fix that for the next chapter.

Omg thank you so much for waiting,seriously. Borahae 💜💜

I've been busy taking care my sick sister for the past few months after her delivery. (Yes, I've become an aunt and became a confinement lady to my sister for a while haha)

And eid mubarak to my muslims brothers and sisters!

And Happy ANNIVERSARY TO US STAYS! WOOOHOOO!!

May Stays will support our eight crackheads men in their careers!

P/p/s: See you in the next chapter!

P/p/p/s: Did you survived? And how was your day today?