i think loving yourself is like
liking how your hair looks

sometimes you can't stop touching it from how perfect it is
some days you want to shave it all off
at times you want to dye it
or just cut it short

in the end, it'll grow back
and even if it looks bad right now
it may be perfect tomorrow
or after that shower you take
or that keratin diet you have to follow

so hold on
things just might get better

— the lie i told myself
      to stay alive despite the pain