"I ponder of something great

My lungs will fill and then deflate

They fill with fire, exhale desire

I know it's dire, my time today."

I can hear the voices again. My breath is heavy, my phone two feet away. Another panic attack. Another voice was added to the mix and she won't stop talking.

"I have these thoughts

So often I ought

To replace that slot

With what I once bought

Cause somebody stole my car radio

And now I just sit in silence."

I'm sitting, shaking in the middle of my room. "She'll never love you! You're only a human, not even a good one. A stupid fag." If she was a human or I a troll, would we become girlfriend and girlfriend? I continue shaking and I don't think it will cease soon.

"Sometimes quiet is violent.

I find it hard to hide it

My pride is no longer inside

It's on my sleeve

My skin will scream

Reminding me of

Who I killed inside my dream

I HATE this car that I'm driving

There's no hiding for me

I'm forced to deal with what I feel

There is no distraction for what is real.

I could pull the steering wheel."

I grind my teeth and clench fistful of h/c hair. Messy, tangled, unkempt. Unlike hers. Silky, soft, long, shiny. I scream. "Feferi will never love a bitch like you." The voice sneers. "Just kill yourself, didn't we already tell you to before?" All the others chime in "Yes, Y/n. Die, no one wants you, no one will love you, no one will care." " YES, THEY WILL!!" I scream. I tear out some hair but I'm not caring. I run to the bathroom.

"I have these thoughts

So often I ought

To replace that slot

With what I once bought

Because somebody stole my car radio

And now I just sit in silence."

"Oh, are you going to cut yourself? Too scared to do the real thing?" The voice coos. "Too bad." I let go of the razor and slam my head against the sink. A door opens when I see red. ")(oly carp, Y/n! W)(at )(appened?!" I can't answer. I don't need to answer. She, Feferi Peixes, the one who never heard them, carries me to her car. "Y/n, it will be okay, okay? I'm just going to go to the )(ospital with you! T)(ey can kelp!" She begs me to stay awake. "FEFERI THEY ARE HERE THEY WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE!" I scream shrilly. She holds me down while I thrash about. "FEFERI JUST CULL ME!" I beg, hugging her torso. "N-no! Y/n, please everyfin is going to be alrig)(t." She tries to soothe me. She locks me in the car and drives to the hospital. Signing me in, the doctors rush me to a room where they sop up the blood that I didn't notice. "Ms. Peixes, she will have to stay a while." The main doctor, Dr. Bones said. He sounded sorry. But the voices. They are getting stronger.

"I ponder of something terrifying

'Cause this time there's no sound to hide behind

I find over the course of our human existence

One thing consists of consistence

And it's that we're all battling fear

Oh dear, I don't know if we know why we're here

Oh my, too deep

Please stop thinking

I liked it better when my car had sound."

My eyes widen and I scream again. The voices, the voices, the voices they are killing me! I can't think, my head hurts, my heart strings are being pulled. Feferi looks at me, frightened and heartbroken. "Y/n, It will be okay! Please, I want to kelp, but you need to sit still!" I was thrashing about even faster, getting more dangerous, knocking over the doctor's equipment. "Maybe they will have to operate on you," The voice cackles. "Maybe they will just kill you." no No NO! I think. I cease moving. They injected me with something and Feferi had tears in her beautiful eyes.

"There are things we can do

But from the things that work there are only two

And from the two that we choose to do

Peace will win

And fear will lose

There's faith and there's sleep

We need to pick one please because

Faith is to be awake

And to be awake is for us to think

And for us to think is to be alive

And I will try with every rhyme

To come across like I am dying

To let you know you need to try to think."

"You'll never be anything, Y/n. You're pathetic. An idiot. Can't even kill herself." The voice mocks. I squeeze my eyes shut and droplets slide out. Then black.

"I have these thoughts

So often I ought

To replace that slot

With what I once bought

Because somebody stole my car radio

And now I just sit in silence."

"I cut your little heart out. Then you drop your limbs." The voice, you could hear it smiling. I wriggle a bit, but I'm in ropes. The voice turns into a person, e/n (Enemy's Name) and he/she is holding a knife. And then...

I wake up and start freaking out. "Y/n, it's okay, I'm )(ere, I'm )(ere," Feferi says. "W-why?" My voice was raspy, I guess from screaming. "O)( carp, )(aven't you known for a w)(ale?" She asks sadly. "N-no." She sighs deeply and it's as if she has been repeating it for a while. "Y/n, I glub you, a lot. And it scares me t)(at you )(ave to )(ear stuff like t)(at. It must be s)(ell." The voices were stunned. I am speechless. "I-i love y-you too, Feferi." "What? NO! She's lying!" The voice wails. No. No, she's not, I think. She's not fake.

"I ponder of something great

My longs will fill and then deflate.

They fill with fire, exhale desire

I know it's dire, my time today.

I have these thoughts

So often I ought

To replace that slot

With what I once bought

Because somebody stole my car radio

And now I just sit in silence."