Guys.....

This is not an update......

I just wanna share my worst feelings.....

If you don't read this your going to let me broke into pieces.....when I already am...

I'm not the happy and bubbly person now.....

I'm hurt....

I feel nothing....

I'm just a trash....

I'm the one who supposed to be cheering others....

But now I'm feeling I'm the one who supposed to be cheered....

I'm supposed to be at school now....

But I can't....

I take an absent even if I don't want to....

I'm hopeless.....

I'm hopeless to have a real friend....

She hated me....

I'm crying now.....

I can't stop.....

I'm nothing.....

Nothing but a trash....

I'm so depressed, tired,lonely......nothing....

I want to scream but I can't....

I'm only an 11 year old girl with no friends.....lonely....

It all happened only in this day....

She always teases me with my crush....she always said it to others....then this day when our teacher is teaching about our P.E. lesson about gymnastics we didn't listen...we are just so happy.....and I wanna take it back.....if I listen to our teacher......I'm not like this.....

She write on a piece of paper that ...

"I💖u Janley"

From:Alison(my real name)
I love you so much
Mua,mua
Tsup,tsup

I don't really read that much but I cry a little.....she always teases me like that.....and she's the one who said that I have a crush on him too....

Then when I cry a little I started to hate her a little....but she's my only friend with me....on my side....

Then when our PE class is finished they don't.....wait for me......I feel so alone.....we were on our next class and I feel broken in that time I wanna cry  during our gardening class.....then her other friend.....said to me that Cheody want the friendship necklace she buy....that happened in the past....she took that older friendship necklace......with the help of her Sabrina- I mean her friend.....then she just replace me with her.....how pathetic.....and my mom said that I will never be friends with her and I didn't listen.....because she's my bff......but she only wants something from me......she all want is gifts....every Friday we give gifts to each other she only gave old things and me....I always give her shiny and special things even if my mom hates me.....I give her that but in repent.....she gave me this feeling.....

The others want to know what cause me cry......and in all of that I just said 'no' because I don't want her to be talking with our advisor.....she's my friend I can't betrayed her even if she betrayed me first.....I still care for her because she's my only stick around friend since grade 3 or maybe 2.....

I want to take that all back....

She the one who make me cry......

I don't want this.....

I wanna die!!!

Please god why!?
Why do you give me this feels?!
Why me?!?!
Why......

I feel so alone...

I don't care if hawkmoth akumatize me!
But readers just be happy.....

Bye.....
*cries in the corner.....again*

Aj...