**Here's a little something steamy for you guys!! It's not long but it's something. Enjoy!**

Raelynn's POV

I awake to the feel of his lips on my shoulder and I suppress a moan at the feel of it. This is how he'd always been waking me up for the past few weeks now. The softest of kisses against my skin causing me shiver and mew... feelings only he could brew inside of me. Feelings so much stronger than I ever imagined them to be.

When he began to show affection in the beginning I was still too lost to acknowledge it. The pain, the darkness, the longing for eternal release were too much to fight. But some how he would take everything he could from the little I had to give him. From a twitch of my lip, to a sharp intake of breath, he would savour all of it knowing it was a part of me trying to get back to him. Trying to free myself and live again.

If he'd touch me in the morning to wake me up, I would sleep through it, barely feeling a thing at all. But as I was forced to go to counselling and express my emotions I started to open up.

I started to cry and scream and yell and through it all he was there. He encouraged me and protected me and even cried with me. He was the man my father would have always wanted me to have if he were alive to see it.

If either of them were alive...

He was a pillar of strength that stayed by my side if I needed him. And there were times when I could admit to myself that I did... need him.

"Good morning my beautiful mate." His arms are wrapped around my stomach careful not to go any higher or lower than there.

"Good morning Luka. You're in a good mood for someone who has to overhear a lot of complaints from his pack today." I respond turning in his arms.

As usual he is already dressed for the day smelling clean and looking sexy and I'm a mess. But I am working on the mess that I am. And for some reason that I never would have believed to be true, he loves the mess that I am as well.

"I'm always in a good mood whenever you're near me." He leans in to kiss me softly and I wrap my arms around his neck to pull him closer.

The deep rumble from his wolf shows me he approves of my actions as he takes my legs and puts them around his waist so we can get closer. Always closer... but never close enough.

His tongue, the sinuous thing, delves deep in my mouth, tasting every part of me and loving every second of it. Unlike with my previous partners Luka doesn't care much for me looking a certain a way, acting any way, hell he doesn't even care that I haven't brushed my teeth yet. He wants me for me in any and every way he can get me. Except...

"Have I ever told you how sexy you look wearing my clothes, in my bed? Goddess it's gorgeous." He says biting my lip.

"You think I'm attractive with my morning breath, bed head and sand filled eyes?" I ask honestly already knowing the answer.

"Absolutely. Because this is your natural beauty and I love all of it." Luka responds tickling my side and sending me into a laughing fit.

"I love you Luka." I giggle out effectively pushing my chest into his face. His eyes begin to darken and his grip tightens.

"I love you so much Rae. With all my heart and then some. I'm going to be the male you deserve I swear it." His kiss is fierce and hard, consuming my very soul with his unrelenting passion.

I throw my weight forward to begin some movement between us and Luka growls deeply. He stops our kiss to look at me and he groans.

"You're going to make me late." He says pushing his head into my neck. "Again."

I throw my head back to allow him more room and he eagerly begins to nip and suck on my skin. His canines are out and biting into my flesh but it never causes me pain. It just feels amazing. I even feel the light trickle of blood run down my shoulder from how deep he's pushing into my neck but I don't mind it. In fact it's pretty sexy.

"Luka."

I breathe out his name as his hands begin to trace my sides, but never my breasts. He only teases. And it drives me crazy.

Again, he growls low and cups my butt tenderly at first. But as the seconds pass by and the passion begins to burn I feel his claws elongate and squeeze into my butt harder than before.

"Rae..." He struggles out as I reach for his pants for the umpteenth time this month. My hands fumble with his belt before I finally get it loose. Popping the button open and pulling down the zipper my hand meets his ever so eager friend, hard, hot and pulsing for me. The only real barrier between me and it is his underwear that I'm determined to get them off him somehow. I barely get a chance to touch it before he growls louder this time and pulls back.

"No." His eyes are pitch black, his breathing is coming out in pants and his body is so tense he looks like he will snap any second. But he stops us. AGAIN.

"Why must you always stop us? One second you're eyeing me like a juicy steak that you has you salivating at the mouth and the next you're treating me like a nun or something. I want to be with you Luka. I'm literally giving myself to you and you don't want it... you don't want me."

The words tumble out of my mouth before I can process them but they're all true. Feeling rejected can push a person to do crazy things. But I shouldn't have to push this between us. It should have already happened.

"Rae..."

I close my eyes to the sound of his pained voice and bite my lip causing Luka to react. I feel his lips against my chin, tracing all over my face till he pulls my lip from between my teeth and bites it himself. He sucks on it slowly, his canines causing a slight puncture but his tongue is quick to lap up the blood. My hands grip his hair hard so he can feel my pain and he moans out loving how rough it is.

I try to breathe as he begins to lower his weight on top of me but I can barely think straight. Luka lets go of my lip and kisses his way down my neck to my breasts.

I wait in eager anticipation as he licks and sucks on my erect nipple through his cotton shirt. His hands reach under the shirt to squeeze my breasts while he continues his assault on my body. Fire burns through me at his ministrations and wetness pools between my legs like a running faucet.

"Goddess I love it when you get wet. You smell so good." His wolf growls out through him. I figured he'd take control sooner or later.

"Please Luka..." Again I reach for his waist digging my nails into his sides to make him feel how badly I need him.

"Not today my little mate. But soon. For now, let me pleasure you." I'm about to cry out in anger when Luka's clawed finger slips past my underwear and right inside of me.

"Oh God!" My body lifts off the bed as he begins to slowly insert and retract his finger, careful not to cut me internally but still giving me immense pleasure.

Fisting the sheets, I choke out as he adds another finger inside and starts to increase his pace. The tip of his claws are curled so it won't scratch me but some how he's scratching an itch inside there that makes me want to explode.

"Yes my beautiful mate. You're almost there. Don't be afraid to scream for me."

"Yes! Luka! Don't... Stop!" I scream in release as I completely come undone and Luka does something I never would have expected.

He slides down my body and straight between my legs licking away all that I've given because of him. The feeling alone makes me scream again and he eagerly accepts it lapping at me until I can finally breathe again.

Looking down at his wet mouth I feel a deep blush stain my cheeks.

"I... I can't believe you just did that." I admit suddenly feeling shy.

"You don't know how long I've been wanting to do that to you. I hope it will suffice for now..." His voice too has become a little quieter and we both just stare at each other.

"Luka... It was wonderful and I am more than grateful... but it's not enough. I want you to mate with me like the other lycans do immediately after finding their mate."

"It's not the same with us Rae. Please can't you just wait a little longer?"

"No! Why do I have to wait? What's there to wait for? I'm of age, you're of age! Hell, we should have had sex so many times that I would have been pregnant by now! You're driving me crazy!"

"Rae you know I wasn't going to try anything with you till you got better–"

"If you haven't realized I AM BETTER!"

"I don't want to fight about this anymore Raelynn. Can you not just be grateful for what I've done and be done with it?"

"Be done with it? Excuse me? Did I even ask for any of this? You know what? Forget it. Forget I said anything." Shutting myself up I sit up in our bed and throw my legs over the side.

When I was still... in a dark state we both concluded that sex wasn't going to happen because I wasn't ready for it. We understood that I needed to grow and break out of the depression first before we committed anything so special. But it's been a month since Doctor Ewan gave me the all clear and still Luka won't budge.

I don't know what's holding him back but for Goddess' sakes it's breaking my heart.

Sighing I begin to pull away from him. I make sure he sees the blood on my neck from his bite and he winces. He reaches out to touch me but I shrink away. I can't stand this. I can't be here.

"I do want it Rae. I want it so, so badly but just not right now. And not rushed either. It will happen soon. I promis –" He tries his same old excuse and I roll my eyes.

"You know technically I'm not your Luna until you mate with me so realistically I shouldn't even be here. In fact, I think I will pack up and move back to my room today." I readjust his shirt I'm wearing and get up from the bed.

"You're not leaving this room. And you're not leaving me." Luka says from behind me. I can hear him trying to adjust his pants as I grab a random bag and start throwing my clothes in it.

"Yes, I am and yes, I am. I'll see you for lunch or maybe dinner. We'll see how long I leave you in the dog house this time." I say in both a childish manner and utter sexual frustration.

I'm not complaining because what Luka just did really is amazing but he and I both know it's not enough. If anything, it's only made things worse and he won't even acknowledge that. How is it fair to him for me to receive such a gift and he gets nothing? He's going to be so sexually frustrated for the rest of the day and that will make him distracted...

Maybe I can use that to my advantage.

Luka mumbles something about belts under his breath but I pay him no mind. Maybe sleeping in my old bed will be good for me. Maybe we really do need the space apart. I haven't even stepped foot in my old room since the funeral. It's mid March now which means it's spring time. Time to clean up and refresh. If I even know how.

Left and right I fling things into my bag while Luka goes around the room hiding the rest of my belongings like a baby. Not another word is said between but in that silence so much is being said.

Does he even understand how hurt I am that he won't even try? Does he get anything at all in that stupid thick skull? He's so damn stubborn for no good reason. He makes no sense. I love him to insanity it seems sometimes but that's just it. It's insanity.

The more we do this back and forth crap the angrier I get. This isn't the first time we've fought about this and it most likely won't be the last either. It's like clockwork with us. One second we are happier than ever and radiating love like the sun and the next we're so heated both sexually and emotionally that one of us explodes. And usually it's me who blows up first.

I storm into the bathroom, grab my toothbrush and soap, grab my bag and start to leave. I'm not even wearing bottoms but I don't care. I need to get out of here. I throw the door open and walk right into Naal.

My first instinct is to recoil back because he's not Luka and I shouldn't be so near him now that Luka and I are together but I don't. I just step back slightly and smile warily at him.

"Oh... hi Naal." My voice comes out sheepish and low and my cheeks burn red. We hadn't spoken much since the funeral. I vaguely remember anything from that day other than kissing Luka. It was such a wonder to actual feel something again. Everything else is a blur of darkness and sad faces and I plan on keeping it that way.

"Good morning Luna. I didn't mean to walk into you, I would have thought you were still sleeping. Is Luka still in there?" He asks keeping his eyes locked with mine and his voice neutral.

He's changed so much in only a few weeks. Is this what a true broken heart looks like? Stony, detached and aloof? Is this what our relationship will be from now on? Can we ever truly be friends again?

"Yeah he's still in there... Naal listen..." I try to say something, anything to him but he just nods and steps aside.

"If you don't mind Luna may I enter? We need to brief about what will be happening today. And... I just... you smell... very strongly right now." His voice is still neutral but his eyes are burning like they used to when we fooled around.

I would say when we were together but when I look back at our "relationship" all I seriously saw was sneaking around. Never once did we go on a date or spend time outside of his house. Sure, he told me he loved me and he wanted to be with me but nothing was ever done.

Deep down I think we both knew that we weren't truly going to be together. In the time frame we were together it was necessary so we could get our minds off our only troubling lives, but that's it.

"I smell? What do you mean I... Oh. Right... That." Embarrassment washes over me causing me to retreat further into the room.

"Yes... that. Um... you know what I will come back later. If anything, just tell him I will meet him in his office at ten." He turns away from me and leaves faster than he spoke.

"Was that Naal?" Luka asks from behind me. His nose traces my skin from my ear to my shoulder.

"Yes. And I'm leaving."

"Please don't do this Rae. I'm sorry ok? Can we finish fighting when I'm done today? Maybe with little less clothes and a lot less talking at that." I laugh at his insinuation and lean into him.

"I hate you, you big dummy."

"And I love you too." He kisses my cheek and walks past me towards the stairs.

"This is really unhealthy, you know that right?" I tell him as he begins his decent.

"We won't be like this for much longer I promise. Oh and remember, just because we haven't mated, doesn't mean you're not my Luna. You will always be my Luna mark or no mark." His eyes flash black while he casts me a wicked smirk.

I make my way back into our room and throw my bag to the floor. I was never really leaving. We both knew that, but it was fun while it lasted.

"Nice to see you two have made up a lot quicker this time. You mind putting on some pants?" Willow says from the doorway.

"I don't have to wear pants I'm in my own room." I respond back already going into the closet to find a pair of tights.

"Oh and can you open a window or something. It reeks of sex in here... but not completely sex, more feminine than mascu – Oh that's what happened." She starts laughing and I roll my eyes.

"Must you be so crass?" Pulling on the tights I turn to her and cross my arms.

"If I wasn't then who would I be?" We both glare at each other for a few seconds before we burst into laughter.

"I'm going to miss you Willow. Lord knows I never thought I'd see the day when I said that but I mean it. When are you leaving?" I ask sitting on the bed. Willow sits beside me and leans her head on my shoulder.

"Next month. Tobias wants to make sure I've said my proper goodbyes before we go to his pack. Even though I'm technically already the Luna," she points to her mark and engagement ring, "We still have to have a proper ceremony with his own pack as we did for mine. So we'll be gone the day after Luka's birthday."

She sounds both excited and sad as she says this but I try not to show any emotion even though my heart is breaking at the thought of losing my closest friend.

"I'm happy for the both of you..."

"Yeah I'm sure you are but what about you two? Why haven't you... you know?" She asks squeezing my hand.

"I don't know and he won't give me a valid explanation. I feel like just giving up." Falling back on the bed Willow falls with me and giggles.

"Have you ever thought to seduce him?"

"Eww that's your brother–"

"And your happiness. I can wash my brain later. Maybe on his birthday you should try to do something sexy for him. I did it with Tobias and he bumped up the wedding date and everything!"

"I tried–"

"No you complained. Take some time, figure out his weaknesses and do what you gotta do to really become this pack's Luna. And be quick about it. We both know how stubborn my brother can be." Willow gets up from the bed and grins as she leaves the room.

I need to seduce Luka somehow... and I only have three weeks to plot it out.

I will not allow him to stop me this time.

I will become the Luna.