"What were you thinking." Steve pulls me into his room at headquarters, away from the others.

"I don't understand your harshness." I reply defensively.

Steve closes the door, "You constantly go in this loop of not trusting and trusting us."

"I trust you all with my life. I just think you all deserve better than my drama." I explain, "Especially you Steve."

Steve hesitates, taken aback from my comment, "We're partners. I want to be there for you."

"What even are we Steve?" I blush wildly but I shake my head regretfully, "You are the last person who should hear about my Hydra flashbacks, I won't hurt you anymore."

"Whats hurting me is you not being honest with me." Steve admits grasping my forearms gently. "We want to help you."

"I'm not getting better." I snap, "I won't put you through that. Not when Bucky-"

Steve winches but manages to stay serious, "You're right. I can't keep doing this."

I pull my arms away, "You finally agree."

"I agree that I'm tired of you being so distant. After everything." Steve grows flustered, "After how we've..."

"Say it already because I'm unclear." I snarl.

"How we've fallen for each other." Steve remarks.

I hold my breath when a knock hits the door, "Shortie we need to have a meeting."

-

"You went back home, your New York apartment?" Tony questions me to understand the situation better.

"I already told you yes." I remind.

"She's gone missing." Wanda clarifies.

I cover my mouth as Sam joins, "The paramedics that were called said that women chased after you."

"She kept repeating about how you were a hero." Nat says with crossed arms, "'The hero came back.'"

"The hero came back?" I say again.

"But she said it mockingly and desperate. And like she needed to get to you." Tony tells.

"She looked like someone I knew..." I claim.

"Who'd she look like?" Sam questioned with furrowed brows.

"I had a flashback and she had similar features to someone in it." I say softly.

"What was the flashback." Wanda asks with worried eyes.

"I was strapped to a chair," I close my eyes in remembrance, "I was becoming one of them I think."

"Who was the lady?" Tony raises an eyebrow, "The leader?"

When I nod everyone starts chatting ideas, but Wanda pulls me close to her by the arm, "We don't have to do this."

"What?" I whisper.

"Do you want to remember? You don't even know anything and you're having episodes almost everyday." Wanda reminds. "I just don't know if knowing will help."

"I want to stop the flashbacks. I need to know my past." I admit.

She pulls me closer, "I may not know what you did. But I knew who you were."

"Who was she?" Clint asks causing the others to become silent.

"Angry. Easily manipulated." Wanda let's go of me, "The person I met during Ultrons chaos was not at all the person I was friends with back then."

"You changed too didn't you? You aren't a villain anymore." I remind nervously. "I was a bad person, but not anymore right?"

"We both were vulnerable. But you were more controlled than me." Wanda explains, "And Bucky was even more controlled than you."

"Is this something we wanna get into?" Nat questions, "Do we really want to find this women?"

"If there is any possibility she's tied to Izzy then of course." Steve confirms.

I shake my head, "I can do this alone."

Steve disagrees harshly, "After today's episode I don't think you can make that call."