Blake's POV

"Will I see you tomorrow at least Blake?" Rain said.  Why did Rain want to see me tomorrow? I am ugly and fat "I will try and come tomorrow Rain" Blake said. Why did I just say that? Why? Getting out a piece of paper, writing my number down. What was I doing? Why did I want to give Rain my number? "We can call each other later if you want" Blake said. Fuck I am going to ruin this before I even manage to get the chance. Walking out the nurses office, how was it that she wanted to help me from before. How did she carry me before? Going down the hall into the office, I had to sign out. Touching my lips with my fingers, I kissed her... But she kissed me back. Why did she kiss me back. Going into the office, over to the signing out machine. Entering my school code and the reason I was signing out. Entering it in, as I walked over to the counter and let the office staff sign my note. Walking away from the hell hall. Okay today was a bit better than some of the other days, because I finally learned her name and got to talk to her. Her lips were soft. I bet this was all a sick joke and Missy planned it all. Please god no, I hoped not. Rain was beautiful, she said she hated what they were doing, but really why me?. I am just.... I am a emo freak! She is like a princess. Walking out the front door of the school building. Before I knew it, I was thrown onto the floor. Looking up to not only see Missy, but to see her boyfriend. Great.. Now I am never going to get home "Oh look who it is, emo boy" Missy's boyfriend said.  "Lose some weight, your fat, go cut yourself" Missy said. I wanted to call Rain, but I could not let her see me like this. Not ever. I tried to get up, but they just pushed me back down, I felt too weak. Watching as Missy finally kicked me in my stomach, as they slowly left me there.

My body was so sore. Getting up off the ground, my knees would defiantly be bruised tomorrow. Walking over to the gate, with my umbrella in my hand and bag on my back. I had a small limp in my walk. Nothing could be done. There was no way I could come in tomorrow even if it was to see Rain. I just had to tell her on the phone, that I am not coming. I didn't want her to see my bruises. Going out the school gate's of hell. Walking down past the prison walls, touching the rails slowly walking down the path. It seemed to have stopped raining for now, but with my luck it would start again soon. Turning the corner path going down further. I still had one more corner street to go. Going down the path, I felt something being thrown at me. I had to run. But stupid me, turned around to face it. No one was there? Turning back around, again no one? What was going on? Going back to the original way I was going. It suddenly felt like someone threw a rock at me. My head all of a sudden went heavy. Running down the pathway. 

I had to get home. Arriving at my front door. Knocking quickly. I did not want to stay outside any longer. Looking around to make sure no one was behind me. No one was. I would swear I am crazy. Finally my mother answered the door "Why are you home early Blake? Shit come inside you're bleeding" My mother said.  How the hell did I start bleeding? My mother, who I have to admit is the best was leading me over to the couch "Lay down and rest for a bit son, I am going to call the doctor" My mother said.  It couldn't have been that bad, could it? My father came into the room with a towel and a ice pack. Slowly closing my eyes, hoping for this just to end. If I could end everything I would, but now I knew Rain. I couldn't yet. I could still feel her lips on mine where they touched. It couldn't be real. One thing I noticed about her was that she didn't feel cold at all when I touched her anytime. Her body temperature was always cool. Something was going on here. Looking at my fat stomach, my parents thought I was imagining. I wasn't Missy and her friends thought I was fat. Her boyfriend and his friend's thought I was fat. Everyone but Rain and my parents did. Okay to be exactly sure I do not know what Rain thinks. She is perfect. I wanted to have her lips back on mine. How can only knowing her for years and than finally talking to her today cause all of this? My mother touched my cheek as I closed my eyes, trying not to cry. 

It killed me to hold back my tears "It will be alright Blake, we're going to take you to the hospital for a check up okay" My mother said.  "Mm don't forget my mobile I might be expecting a call later"  Blake said. Yeah right like she will actually call me "Oh from who?" My mother said.  Dear god no, not now mother "From a girl" Blake said. Now I have done it, I really set her off "Good, good what is her name?"  My mother said. Fuck now I am screwed "Her name is Rain, now let me have a rest" Blake said. "She sounds beautiful Blake and okay we will let you have a rest now" My mother said.  As I finally closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep as they got me to the hospital sleeping "It looks he might have a small head injury for a while, but other than that he should be fine" The doctor said.  "That's good, now we were wondering if we should talk about his anorexia, he has been getting worse and we're worried" My mother said. 

"How bad has it gotten from what it has been?"  The doctor said. "He has not eaten since we can remember and he has been cutting. We're sure of it" My mother said.  Hearing my parents say those things. It hurt me. I am fat, not anorexic. But how did they find out about my cutting. "We could put him on medication but that doesn't always help. Maybe if you could find someone to encourage him to eat more and stop that could work. It might take weeks, months or years.

Maybe even never but it could be worth a try" The doctor said. "Well he did say he met a girl, maybe she could help him" My mother said.  I am soo screwed "Yeah that could defiantly work" The doctor said.  Double screwed "He will need to stay in overnight thought, maybe you could bring him a change of clothes" The doctor said. "Sure, and will be able to answer and take phone calls while he is in here?" My mother said.   "I think so, as long as he is careful, it should be fine" The doctor said. I am soo screwed, what the hell am I going to tell Rain? Why can't I stop thinking about her? My eyes were still shut and all I decided to do was sleep. Anything to make this nightmare stop.

Kitty/Shantey