••• FIFTEEN •••
Sophie

    I placed my hands on the top of my head as I paced frantically back and forth in the bathroom at the stadium and tried to keep myself from freaking out. "'I have to go to the bathroom'?! Who the Fuck says that?" I fake cried and felt so unbelievably embarrassed that I had no idea how I was supposed to fix this.

    Why did I even say that? I can't believe I just got up and walked away after Ashton told me he loved me. I was so incredibly stupid and I cursed at myself for being such a baby and running away from him instead of just saying that I loved him too. I stared at myself in the mirror and shook my head angrily at my reflection. "Um, are you Sophie?" A girl asked hesitantly as she slowly entered the bathroom and I took in a slow deep breath before smiling at her.

  "Yes, do I know you?" I asked and she shook her head.

  "Oh, no! Your boyfriend just asked me to let you know that he's outside waiting for you." She smiled at me and I nodded as my heart hammered against my chest.

  "Thank you." I said as I slowly walked passed her and tried to prepare myself for what I was going to say to Ashton. I stepped outside of the bathroom and he was leaning against the wall, staring at my purse in his hands and looking lost in thought. Even when he looked upset, he still was undeniably gorgeous. God, I'm such an idiot for not saying it back.

    As I walked up to him, I tried to remind myself to be brave. It took a lot of courage for him to say that he loves me and I needed to tell him that I loved him too. "Hey, Soph," Ashton greeted me once I stood in front of him. "I'm sorry if what I said made you uncomfortable and I understand if you want to end our weekend and go home-" I crushed my lips against his to stop him from saying anything else.

    He snaked one of his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him and I tangled my fingers in his hair as we got lost in the kiss. His lips were so soft and they could make me forget everything the second they touched mine. But, I had to remind myself that I needed to tell him that I was in love with him. He started to kiss the corner of my mouth and then made a trail down my neck.

    I took in a ragged breath as I tugged on his hair and tried to stop myself from moaning. "Ashton," I breathed out and slightly pushed him away so I could stare at him. "I love you." I whispered and the smile that appeared on his face was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.

  "Say it again." He said as he pressed his forehead against mine and I giggled as I stroked his cheek.

  "I love you." He chuckled as he shook his head in disbelief and then cupped my face in his hands as my hands dropped down to his waist.

  "I love you, Sophia." I grinned as I giggled again and leaned up to kiss him again.

    He pulled me closer and kissed me with so much love that it stole the breath out of my lungs and I never wanted it to end. "I think we need to head back to the hotel." I breathed out and Ashton nodded eagerly as he reluctantly pulled away from me then grabbed my hand.

  "I could kiss you forever, Sophie." He admitted as we began to walk toward the parking lot and my heart raced excitedly at the thought of what we were about to do once we were alone.

    The drive back to the hotel was a blur as we basically ran to our hotel room and tried to keep from attacking each other. Once the door shut behind us, I suddenly grew nervous about what to do next. I mean I've had sex before, but I knew that this time it was going to be different. I thought I was in love with those guys, but now I know what real love was and we were actually going to make love.

    We walked slowly into the room and I could that Ashton was just as nervous as I was which made me smile. "Sophie, I don't want you to feel pressured into doing anything that you're not ready for, but I would really like to make love to you." Ashton breathed out as he stood in front of me and then tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear and I shuddered at his touch.

  "I want you to make love to me, Ashton." I said and his hand slowly trailed down my neck. We stared deeply into each other's eyes and he slid my Cubs jersey on the floor leaving me in only a white tank top and my navy blue shorts.

    I reached out and grabbed the hem of his shirt and slowly lifted it up. Once it was off, I let my eyes trail from his face down to his stomach and seeing how in shape he was made me self conscious to take off my shirt. He pulled my tank top up and over my head and he let out a strangled breath as he stared at my body and it caused butterflies to erupt in my stomach.

  "You're so beautiful." He breathe out as he lightly stroked my breasts and I shivered from his touch. Ashton pressed his lips against mine and it was like a bomb had gone off. We were frantically pulling the rest of our clothes off and then suddenly, my back was on the bed and he was on top of me. "Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked once more and I smiled at how sweet and gentle he was being with me as I nodded.

  "I've never been so sure of anything in my life." I leaned up and kissed him just as he pushed inside of me. I was right about having sex with Ashton. It wasn't just sex. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever experienced in my life. I realized that no man will ever come close to how Ashton made me feel that night and I was completely fine with that.