"Wow", I whispered exhausted.

"That's been damn-"

"Hot", I completed his sentence.

I slowly realized what had just happened. Damn.. Instantly I stood up looking for my clothes.

"What are you doing?", Liam asked me confused.

"I should go. The others could come back any second."

"Stay with me tonight", he craved quietly holding my wrist.

"Okay but I need to sleep on the couch", I said because I thought that was the best idea. I shouldn't sleep next to Louis after what has just happened. I couldn't do that to him.

"I won't tell anyone", he promised, "You can sleep in my bed."

"I know but I shouldn't."

"But do you want it?", he asked as if it would hurt him if I said no.

"Yes, of course but that shouldn't have happened, "I don't want to be a stupid girl ruining your friendship!"

"You're not stupid and you're not doing that. Now come here, sleep. It'll be better tomorrow", he calmed me pulling me gently to him.

"Good morning. Where have you been yesterday night?", Harry asked us when we saw them downstairs.

I had taken a shower and put my stuff from the evening back into my bag to Louis' room so no one would be suspicious.

"Liam wasn't feeling well so I went home with him and we started a movie."

"And Des was afraid I would vomit so she staid in my room, slept on my couch", Liam anded my story so it sounded real.

"We're not used to drinking a lot any more", Niall commented.

"How was the rest of your night?", I asked my sister.

"It's been great. The people around us really believed that Harry and Louis are a couple", she laughed.

While she told us the rest of it I couldn't stop thinking about Louis. He looked so happy, believed everything that we had said. My guilty conscience killed my good mood after only two hours. How should we carry on what we have when I wasn't honest? So I carefully asked him if we could talk alone for a moment.

"Sure, are you alright?"

I nodded shortly. He worried about me! I didn't even deserve all of that. I mean, we weren't dating but I had had the feeling that we would be at some point someday so he should know the truth before. He followed me to his room, closed the door so no one could hear us.

"Last night didn't happen like we told", I started ruefully, Louis seemed to know what I might tell him, "Liam and I did go home to watch a movie not because he was drunk but he suggested that so we could spend some time alone and I honestly have no idea why I agreed. I shouldn't have done that. I feel like you already know that we've slept with each other. I needed to tell you the truth because you deserve that. I'm not as good as you might think, I hate myself right now. If you don't want me to go on tour with you now, I completely understand that. I can tell the others if you want to. I had to apologize for it", I spoke quietly looking down to the floor.

"Uh.. wow, okay", was the first thing he said, his voice sounded emotionless, "I need a moment. I mean you're not my girlfriend. And if you like Liam more than me-"

"No! I mean, I like him as a friend. I know it sounds like a lie due to the events last night but I like you so much more which is why I am telling you this", I confessed.

"I honestly don't know what to say right now. I thought about it being possible so I'm glad you told me. But I need time to find out how we should carry on. I thought there was something between us, we kissed and everything.. so I have no idea what's going to happen.. But I neither hate you nor want you to stay away from the tour. That may only affect the two of us."

"Thank you, Louis, also for listening to me. Please just take yourself as much time as you need. Just tell me what you want then. Believe me, I'm so so sorry."

"I'll let you know as soon as I found an answer", he nodded giving my forehead lightly.

We left his room going back to the other who noticed our the sudden change of atmosphere. Luckily, no one mentioned it. I hated the fact that Louis suspected it before.

"What do you want to do today?", Harry asked around, the silence had been awful.

"Sleeping", Zayn muttered laying on the couch with his eyes closed.

"We could go to the London Eye. We've never seen that in real life", Emily suggested excited.

"Great idea", Niall agreed with her.

The boys called the security company to send over employees. Within an hour they arrived with two big cars. They drove as far as they good but we had to walk some meters.

"We'll wait here for you to come back", the driver too us, the others would come with us.

When we left the cars it's been quiet for some time. The security employees walked next to us while we were laughing about Niall's desperate wish to go to Nandos.

"You're one direction!", one of the girls next to us suddenly screamed.

Within a second a circle was formed, fans asking us for pictures. We tried to take one with everyone and hug them but so many more came to us. It's been overflowing.

"She's the slut who wants Louis", I heard one of the girls say to her friend.

"Really? I thought she wanted Liam? What a bitch", the other girl replied hatefully.

I tried to ignore it but I knew they were right about it so it really hurt. It was my fault anyways. How could I be so stupid?

"What are they even doing here? They just steal the boys from us", another fan looked annoyed.

"Let's go", one of the security men instructed us.

"Hey, are you okay?", Zayn walked next to me while I tried to hide my face from the cameras.

"I'm fine. It's the truth so", I muttered quietly so only my friend could here me.

"No, you know it's not. You didn't do anything wrong. We're glad you spend your time with us and the fans should accept that."

I smiled at him gratefully when we arrived at the London Eye. Of course there were waiting other fans as well.

"You go directly in there as soon as it stops. Later you'll go to the cars directly. We got a special authorization to drive the cars to the entrance."

We nodded and entered the first gondola. Finally, it was less noisy. Liam and I were the last ones to sit down so I ended up being between Louis and him. Emily took place between Niall and Harry, Zayn was next to the curly haired boy. Amazing, thirty minutes between the two boys. The four in front of us didn't say anything, they looked thoughtful, probably thinking about what happened that made us sit so distantly while Emily could cuddle with the other boys. Louis sat almost a meter away from me.

"Liam and I had sex last night", I suddenly bursted out, them staring at me was too much, "You suspected it already."

Liam and Louis looked at me surprised at the same time, the others chuckled lightly. I on the other hand was embarrassed. It was worse than expected.