I sat there, aching without a heart. I couldn't feel it anymore. It was like the last time it thumped was before I fell asleep last night. I woke up and Hisoka was out of the bed. I saw the bathroom door light was on. I opened the door and saw Hisoka. He was bathing.

"Good morning love," he smirked.

"You use the curtains for a reason," I sighed, going to the sink to wash my face. I rubbed my rosy cheeks with the towel sitting by the side. I heard the shower stop so I began to take off my clothes, ready to take my turn.  I heard Hisoka get out the shower, but I gasped as my body was lifted into the shower and I was quickly hugged. "Why are you in the shower with me?" 

"Can't I bathe you?" Hisoka made a smart remark. I rolled my eyes and cut on the water. It was warm and I felt the sensation of my body tingling as the water drops hit my skin. I let my face hair and body get soaked. 

"If anything you can wash my back," I sighed. "It's hard to reach sometimes..."

I yelped as Hisoka licked up and down my back. "Is this good enough?" he purred. He then began to chuckle and put his head on my shoulder. "I'm just kidding." 

I didn't respond to Hisoka and took the bar of soap and lathered it on my body. I could feel Hisoka's hair flop and sit against my shoulder and neck. He was really warm... Was I warm like him?

"Am I warm?" 

Hisoka was massaging my back lightly but paused. He lifted his head off my shoulder and sighed. "Stop asking yourself that," he mumbled. "You're always warm, no matter how cold you might feel..."

He wrapped his arms around me and squeezed me tightly. I put my hand on his arms and stared at the bath tub floor. Only the water hitting the ground was all I could hear. Soon, the female's voice echoed in my ears.

"We are arriving shortly..."

Hisoka let me go and cut off the shower. I got out the shower and dried off. 

"I love you, y/n," I heard Hisoka. I looked over at Hisoka and I looked into those squinty eyes of his. I then turned and went into the bedroom, slipping on some clothes. "Why wont you answer me when I tell you that..."

"What's the point if I don't actually love you back?" I mumble. "Its better not to say something then lie..." I put on my shirt and exited the room. I closed the door and walked straight into Gon and Killua.

"Hey," Killua mumbled. "We heard screaming last night from your room... Are you alright?" 

"I'm fine," I faked a smile. "Thank you for worrying about me, you two. You guys are the best of friends..."

Gon laughed and hugged me. I smiled back and hugged him back. Once I let him go, I walked towards the front to meet  Illumi. His hair blew  in the breeze that came through. "So you're really gonna do that to Killua?" I questioned. He didn't respond. "I'm not very fond of your plan, but if it's truly what you think your brother needs, then sure... "

"I don't need your approval, but thank you," he mumbled. 

"He's my friend so don't hurt him too much," I sighed. "And if you do, I'll go out my way to murder you after the Hunters Exam. " I took out one of my katanas and held the blade up to his neck. "I might be a little rusty after taking a break of killing,"  I mumbled. "But I'll slaughter you with whatever I got..."

"I like you, sadly," he sighed. "I'd take you away from Hisoka and have you for myself if I could..."

"Nobody owns me," I put my katana up. "Nor will you ever. " 

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I stepped on a plate and dropped onto my butt. I hissed as the throbbing sensation spread all over. My eyes looked around to see Hisoka. He was sitting down. "I needed another person and I guess you're here now," he mumbled, getting up. "Lets go."

I walked with him towards a platform. On the other side were people in little cape thingies and changes. "You have to battle us to win," one said. "You will fight to one of us dies or gives up." 

"Well that's straight forward then," I sighed. I took out my katanas and stepped onto the platform. "Someone challenge me. And hurry up. I'm not that patient anymore..."  A large male, much larger than me, stood in front of me. I looked up at him. He began to talk about his totally "interesting" backstory. I let my katanas bounce light off of them and shine into his eyes. I heard him scream and growl at me. I smirked.

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"Well that was easy," I sighed, cleaning off my katana. Hisoka didn't reply and walked towards the door. "Are you mad about earlier this morning, Mr. Hisoka?" I made a snarky remark.

"Shut the fuck up," he whispered, just gripping the nob. 

"Why do I have to?" I mumbled out. "You said you loved me and I didn't love you back."

Hisoka didn't respond and opened the door with frustration. He walked into  the small room and waited for the door on the other side to open. I walked with him. We were the first ones to pass? Huh, interesting. Hisoka sat on the floor next to the door we came out of. I picked up a tray and walked over to him. I got between Hisoka's lets and picked up the spoon. Getting some food, I put the spoon to his mouth and watched him eat the food.

"Maybe I overreacted," he mumbled after swallowing the bit of food. I nodded and leaned closer, kissing his lips softly. "Are you sure you want to do this even though you don't love me..?" 

"Make me love you," I whispered. I touched his face with my index and middle finger. "I want to love you as much as I can but I won't unless you discipline me like a dog..."

We kissed each other one more time before, Illumi came along. I sat up and ate some of the food. I had laughed with Hisoka and sat on his lap. I was exhausted. I let my head rest on Hisoka's shoulder and closed my eyes. He snuggled with me.