Adrien - Chat Noir
I sigh as I open my door to my apartment. I set my two new kittens down named Princess and M'lady. The cats are sisters and immediately start to explore my home. Me and Marinette bought a lot of stuff for these two kittens.

After I get all my cat supplies out and about, I sit down on my couch and close my eyes. Princess immediately jumps on to my lap and begs to be petted. But, all I can think about is how I almost kissed Marinette. I just don't I'm ready to do that all over again.

"I better still be your favorite." Plagg says eating a piece Camembert that I have no idea how he got.

"Of course you are, Plagg." I say as Plagg flies to sit on my shoulder.

"With those two cats having the nicknames of your two favorite girls, I'm not so sure." Plagg says with a mouthful of Camembert.

I laugh and reply sadly, "Just reminder of something I will never have again."

Plagg nods and says, "You could still visit her like you used too."

"And what? Argue?" I say setting Princess off my lap and standing up, "She doesn't like Chat Noir anymore and maybe she didn't even like me before the accident."

"She doesn't like you, she loves you." Plagg says jokingly.

"Shut up, Plagg!" I say as Plagg chuckles.

"Just go and visit Marinette. Please?" Plagg says, "This is a big misunderstanding, and talking about it will help. Just because you're arguing a lot, doesn't mean you're going to become mortal enemies."

"But sometimes it feels like we became mortal enemies." I say, "But I guess you're right. Plagg, claws out!"

I felt the smooth leather cover up my body. But instead of feeling the excitement of adrenaline filling my veins, anxiety does instead. I have to do this and before fear can stop me. I use my baton to fling myself right out of my window.

I know this route too well. It is surprising how nice it is to be going to her house again. I land on her balcony without a sound. I take a deep breath as my anxiety increases every moment. The familiarity of balcony and being here a thousand of times relaxes me.

I could almost go back in time, before the accident. When everything was almost perfect.

"Chat Noir." Marinette usually sweet voice says turning sour, "What are you doing here?"

I freeze and my heart beats loudly in my ears. I shouldn't be here. I can't relive things that are already gone. This is a bad idea, but I have to stay. I shouldn't push myself, but I usually do and there is no stopping now.

I turn slowly as I see Marinette angry bluebell eyes. This is worst than any akumatized villian, an angry Marinette. I want to say what she wants me to say, the right thing. But I can't read minds or change the past, but I can be brave.

"I k-know you don't want-t to see me." I say slowly, "But I n-needed to see you."

"I don't deal with liars, Chat." Marinette says seeming to growl.

I shrug and turn my head to face the moon as I say, "I'm not lying, Mari."

"Why can't you just leave me alone?!" Marinette says angrily, "I was having a great day until you showed up. What you did is unforgivable!"

"What I did?!" I say getting angry and turn to face her, "I been through a lot, Mari! Is that what are you angry about? Because I been through hell and back and didn't die?! What do you want from me?! I have no idea what I did! Tell me what I did wrong,
Mari!"

My face feels wet but I keep my eyes staring intensely on Marinette waiting for her to respond. She stutters as she looks deep in thought. Marinette has a scared look on her face as she says, "I-I can't r-remember."

Then it clicked. My heart thumps wildly in my chest. Everything blurs as I seem to turn frantically looking for something. I begin sweat uncontrollably. I try to calm myself but my mind and heart is in a rapid pace. I realize then that Marinette is—

"Please Kitty." Ladybug said as her desperate and depressing eyes stare at my own me, "I can't do it anymore, it hurts too much."

"Chat Noir!" Marinette says but I can't see her, "What happened to my memory! I can't remember anything about what happened. What did you do? What did you do Chat Noir?!"

"But M'lady." I heard my voice crack as an image of my own face reflected Ladybug's face full of tears, "What about me? It is killing me too. You can't leave me all alone with this. Don't do this to me, M'lady, please?"

"Chat Noir?" Marinette says, "I can't understand you with all your mumbling. Are you okay, Chat? Chat, answer me!"

"I'm sorry my Kitten, I'm so sorry. I just." Ladybug said sorrowfully than sobbed, "I just want to be happy again. I know it is selfish, but it is tearing me apart, Chat Noir. You know this is all my fault. All of it is. I want it gone, Chat. I can't handle it anymore, I can't!"

"Chat!" Marinette seems to scream from somewhere far, far away, "You're okay, kitty, you're okay. I'm here and I'm sorry for blaming you for something. But, I'm here now and you will be alright."

"It isn't your fault, M'lady, please stay with me." I whimpered like wounded kitten.

"Chat Noir, did you erase my memory?" Marinette's quiet voice asks.

"Please, Chat Noir." Ladybug begged, "Thanks for being the best partner ever. But I need it gone and I need it to disappear. I want to be okay again, don't you want me to be okay again?"

"I need you to answer me, Chat Noir, I need to remember." Marinette says, but I am already far too gone in my own torment. I wrap myself in ball and waiting for it all to be over. The pain, the guilt, the crime, to become numbing distant memory. Why does still feel so fresh?

"Anything for you, M'lady." I said as I set my paws on Ladybug's head.

I was, and still am, always ready to risk my self for anyone, even when that meant pushing myself into a nightmare all alone with no promises of coming back. Always pushing myself, never understanding that I was sacrificing more than I ever had.

"Thanks Kitty." Ladybug said as she tried to contain her sobs, "Did you know I have always loved you more than anything? I fell for you twice. Thanks for always being here for me, no matter what. Thanks for always sacrificing yourself for the greater good of Paris. You were always the better hero than me no matter what the fans thought. Thanks for falling in love with me, twice. I love you, Chat."

I didn't quite know what Ladybug meant when she said twice, but I do now. I remember how close we were. Holding each other like it would be our last.

"No, thank you for making me brave and realize what true heroism is. I will always love you, Ladybug." I said I knew what was coming and I was terrified, "Cataclysm."

It was the day when I realized I could destroy anything. I could destroy good things as well as bad. I could destroy everything that I loved or hated. I could destroy buildings. I could easily hurt people. I could destroy akumas. I could make sentimonsters go crazy. I could even destroy memories.

My hands fell to my side as I stared at Ladybug's face. Instead of sobbing expression on her face, Ladybug had a smile on her. The torturous memories we had shared were now only mine.

"You okay Chat Noir?" Ladybug said as her smiled disappeared.

"You cataclysmed my bad memories didn't you? Chat Noir wake up! I need you to answer me! Tell me your okay." Marinette says shaking me.

"I did something bad, Ladybug." I said than I began to sob uncontrollably and I ran away from Ladybug. I was gone and I was alone now. Alone with the memories I couldn't face by myself.

But I did, I always did and I always will. I will always keep fighting. I will always push myself. I will always try to be better. I will always be changing. I will always love the people who are always there for me.

Always.

A/N
This was something special. I keep changing the backstory, but I think I would like this one the best. But you have no idea what it is. MUHahaha! I'm trying to make this funny author note, but I'm depressed now after writing that.

So comment and hit the star if you want me to feel better!

-mirculously out!