All of our reasoning ends in surrender to feeling.

-Blaise Pascal

Willow Kinsella's POV

I went to answer the door and my eyes widened when I saw Neon standing outside with hellfire in his eyes.

What's going on?

"Yes?" I inquired lightly but my heart pounded so loudly in my chest I could swear he can hear it from this distance. "Do you want something?"

"Actually, I do." He replied softly in a dangerously low voice, the hellfire in his eyes was still there and he's making me nervous not for fear but something else entirely. "The boys are having a barbecue party outside, come outside."

"I think I'll pass."

"What's wrong? Are you okay?"

I swallowed hard, unable to remove my gaze from his magnificent eyes. He took a step forward but I held my ground on my doorway holding the doorknob tightly as if it was my only lifeline. "I am not in the mood I want to go to bed right now and here I thought you want another pecan pie?" I jested lightly trying to brush off the awkwardness that surrounds us at this moment.

"I think, I am..." He suggested seductively. "But it's a different kind of pie that I am craving tonight."

The air in my lungs had been knocked off at his words. My heart thundered on my chest as if there was a stampede. "Stop playing games with me, Neon. Go back to the barbecue party outside."

"I am not playing games with you, Willow." This time he closed the distance that separate us until we're only an inch apart from one another. I could almost smell his spicy aftershave. "I came here because I want to know why you are avoiding me throughout the day."

"I am not avoiding you."

"Oh yeah?" He asked maddeningly, his beautiful eyes gleamed despite the darkness around us. "That's not why I think. Tell me, did I do something wrong?"

"You are not making any sense." I tried to laugh but even in my ear, I knew how off its sound. "You are not making any sense, Neon. Did you overdose on your pain meds tonight? You should go back to bed and let's call it a night now, shall we?"

I was about to close the door in his face when a large palm flatten on the wooden surface of my doorway and stop it from closing. "I stop drinking those prescription days' ago, Willow."

"Good night, Neon." Too bad before I have the chance to shut the door firmly he already made his way inside my room and lock it behind him. I pretend to scandalize with his aggressive demeanor tonight. "What do you think you're doing?"

He raked his gaze on me from head to toe ardently. Suddenly, I felt that my exposed skin went hot with his scorching scrutiny. And then he said without an inch of remorse. "I came here to seduce you."

I gasped at his brass announcement as I took a step backward until I hit the mattress. "You got to be kidding me. I have no time for your game."

"This is not a game, sweetheart." He replied, stalking me slowly like a predator who was about to catch his prey. "I want you from the moment I saw you and now I will have you." He paused for a moment probably gauging my reaction. "And you will let me have you, right?"

"Be sensible, will you?" I tried to put some distance between us putting him at arms' length. "You are not on your usual self tonight. Maybe you need to sleep now."

"What do you know about my 'usual' self when I can't even remember my name?" His smile was dangerous and seductive at the same time. It was that kind of smile the devil might use to get what he wants no matter what. "Don't worry, I will sleep...later."

"Neon..."

My breath was caught in my throat when he suddenly lifted my chin with his long fingers and force me to look at him in the eyes. "You will let me, right?" He inquired alluringly. "You will let me sleep with you tonight."

I couldn't help but gasp openly at him. This was the most blatant way of a man asking him to have sex with him that ever happened to me. I tried to open my mouth to say something—anything but nothing comes out.

So he took the opportunity and pounce at me. He slowly lowered his head and I found myself closing my eyes as I wait for his mouth to kiss me.

I intake a short breath when his soft lips touch mine. I flattened my hands in his solid chest I am not sure if the gesture was to stop him or I lean for support since my knees turn wobble. When the kiss turned passionately I try to break the kiss and stare at him. "Wait..."

"What?" He asked, caressing my exposed neck slowly.

I swallowed hard. "I have not agreed to this yet."

"Don't worry," He announced with a wolfish smile on his face. "Let me change your mind, Willow."

Before I have the chance to argue with him more. He gently pushed me down to the bed and he went above me. I just lay there with my heart pounding hard letting him slowly peel my cotton t-shirt exposing my bra to his view.

He feasted his eyes on my half-naked state giving me a series of hot little kisses from the flat of my belly to the valley of my breast and until to the hollow of my neck where my pulse was rapidly beating.

"Neon..." I started as I watch him remove his plaid shirt revealing his muscled but scarred body.

In one swift movement, he managed to unclasp my bra like a pro. It seems to me that he'd done this countless times before. But before I could accuse him but took one breast to his mouth and suck it while he cupped the other one in his hand.

"Oh, my..." I couldn't help but arch my back at the sudden sensation I feel while he's focusing his attention on my boobs. The unexpected movement made my hips in contact with the growing arousal in his pants. "Neon...please..."

He stopped caressing my bust area and look at me briefly with a wicked smile on his face. "Stay still. We're just starting. Don't move."

Neon started to peel down my boxers and I stared in horror at the ceiling. Oh, crap! I thought helplessly. I immediately cover my private part with my hands as I thought that I should have at least shave first. "No!"

"Now, Willow." He chided gently, staring deep into my eyes with unmistakable hunger. "You're not going to hide anything from me, right?"

"But..."

My protest only fell on deaf ears as he slowly remove my hands that covering the most feminine part of my body. A small smile crossed his handsome face as he feast his eyes on my genitalia. "Blonde everywhere, I see."

"You wouldn't..." I started in shock.

"But I will," he replied shortly before clamping my wrist in his strong hands to prevent me from struggling, keeping me in my place, as he lapped me hungrily between my thighs.

I let out a scream at the feeling of his skillful mouth on the apex of my legs. "Neon, please..." I don't know if I was begging for him to stop or just continue with his exploration. "...sweet lord..." I mumbled incoherently as he run his tongue inside. "Stop please...oh..."

I nearly went crazy with this devil-skilled mouth. When I was about to beg him again he seems finally satisfied tasting me and he remove his already tight pants hurriedly and I saw his proud manhood sticking straight that's when I also notice the long scar on his right leg from what can I see it's still relative new given how pinkish the scar is.

I stared at him for a moment. Just what kind of dangerous life this man had before his accident? No wonder being a daredevil flying a helicopter alone was not a new thing for him. Before I could dwell more on my thoughts he dragged me back to our current situation.

"Wait," I said when he started to position himself on the juncture of my thighs. I added hastily. "We don't have protection."

He stopped for a moment while probably thinking about a quick solution. "Don't tell me you're going to instruct me to get one from the drugstore at this state of mine?"

"But..." I cursed silently. I should have stock condoms here in case of emergency. But that wasn't in my mind in the past since I didn't have a relationship after Matt. "Then we can't..."

"We can." Neon started firmly. "Don't worry, I will take care of it."

"How?"

"The natural way, of course." Just when I was about to argue with him more about this. Clearly, he wasn't in the mood for this rubbish talk in his opinion when he tested the wetness at my center with his fingers before plunging his erection inside me.

My breath was caught as I grip his shoulder blades tightly with my hands. My word, but he's so long and thick. I would be surprised if I will be able to walk tomorrow morning. "Neon..."

"Don't worry," he reassured me, kissing me on the lips before giving an open-mouthed kiss on my neck. "This will not be that painful if you only not this tight and wet. It drives me crazy I know I have to be gentle on you but..."

"Then don't."

It seems that's the only reassurance that he's been waiting before slowly moving in and out inside me setting his pace until his tempo changed it turn aggressive pounding me so hard that leaves me breathless at his restless onslaught.

"Oh my God, Neon!" He took my mouth again stopping the words and I whimper at the pleasure of him being inside me. I could already feel the pressure building up inside me. "Neon..."

"It's alright." He assured me, seeing the sweat forming on his forehead. I knew he was not far away from his release. "Let it go, darling."

When I finally found my release he took his time and found his exit on the wooden floor. I placed my hands on the top of my head while catching my breath. This was probably the best sex of my life.

Then Neon went very still while wiping the moisture off the floor. Something went to his lightning-fast as if he'd been struck by thunder.

"What's wrong?" I asked when I saw him visibly pale from the bed. "Are you all right?"

He abruptly stood and wore his boxers and pants like he just regretted the whole thing. "I need to go."

"What? Why?" I asked in confusion that made me feel hurt about his sudden actions. There was something wrong with him. He was as pale as the white linen. "What's wrong with you?"

"I'm sorry, Willow." He said, zipping his pants. I notice the changes in him that moment, his flirtatious dark green eyes were now distant and wintry this was not the Neon I know. "I cannot do this. I am not the man for you.

"What?! What the hell, Neon?" I demanded.

"You are better off without me trust me." He stated coldly, his eyes withdrawn different from their usual warmth. Without waiting for my reply he walk out of my bedroom with as much as a backward glance leaving me wondering what the hell did just happened.