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After the sudden outburst from Seokjin and him demanding for divorce, Taehyung was devastated, never thought his actions would have such consequences.
The only person he ever wanted to be was leaving him.
It's no Seokjin's fault, his own actions have done the work. Digging his own grave.

"Hey Tae, how is Jin feeling?"
Hoseok who already entered Taehyung's cabin asked him. The other as confused to when did his hyung cane.

"You were probably thinking something."

Did I just said that aloud, Taehyung thought.

"Yes you did, now tell your hyung what's bothering you?"
Hoseok asked taking a seat in front of the CEO.

"Seokjin asked for Divorce."
He said timidly.

"What's with that look hyung, not suprised."
Taehyung was bit pissed that Hobi hyung didn't replied, instead has his lips twisted downwards forming a frown.

"This was bound to happen, the way your were treating him was no good and what did you expect, he did love your for degrading him?"

"You are making me look like a bad guy here."
"Plus you're taking his side."

"I'm taking no ones side here Tae, I'm just stating the truth."

"Are you here to help me, or making me count my mistakes?"
Taehyung said pinching his temples as he was getting irritated.

"Look here Tae, first decided for yourself what you want, secondly I only want you see beyond your mind"
Hoseok huffed and wonder if his dongsaeng understood what he was trying to say.

"I don't understand hyung."

Hoseok stood up and went behind Taehyung, placing his hands on the younger's shoulders and said while cleaning his throat.

"What do you think about Seokjin, wait let me rephrase that, what does your heart says about Seokjin?"

The younger paused at this question and closed his eyes.
As if asking his heart about his heart.
The only answer he got was beautiful smiling face of his Seokjin.

"Seokjin"
He whispered.

Taehyung walk towards the large window on right of desk and stood watching the busy cityscape.
All the buildings, vehicles, people on the street blurred as his mind wandered to Seokjin, the first time when he saw him.

"He was wearing a cute pink cotton candy colored sweater, the same was the hue of his cheeks. Quite chubby they were. Shyly stood behind his mother when uncle and aunty came to meet us-
only talked when questioned, at first I found it annoying but at the same time he was so cute."
A small smile on the CEO's face as he remembered how shy his Jin actually was.

"Did not talked to me the whole time nor looked at me, but when everyone was seeing them off, he turned around and waved at me with his little hands giving the brightest smile, I swear hyung I melted on the spot."
He slighty hit his forehead thinking how silly he was.

"But things started changing when Jungkook came in our lives."
Thinking about his cousin made Taehyung furious.

"He, that brat was always clingy towards my Jin, always doing silly things to get his attention, and Jin laughed at his stupid jokes." So annoying he thought.

"One time I even insulted him on his birthday saying that he looked like fat cow and his a attention seeker, I never intended on saying those hurtful words to him or to be angry on him."
Taehyung stopped as he remembered how his husband looked on his birthday, his happiness turned in sadness, so did Taehyung's.

"Maybe it was the fact the Jungkook wished him before I could." He muttered under his breath.

"Later the years went in blur, I didn't see Seokjin nor heard from him, it was like he disappeared or more like was hiding, I was happy, not seeing Jungkook and him together."

"Life took a complete turn when Seokjin was of the age of entering college, the same college as I was in, where ever he went students and professors would do a double check when he walked through the corridors."

"Everyone was enchanted by his beauty, including myself, he turned to the most beautiful man anyone has every seen."

"The more beautiful he got the more I started hating him, it was not his fault, it was me who wanted that beauty all to myself, but he never spared a glance at me, went straight to that Jungkook and made friends with you and Namjoon, leaving me."

"Tell me hyung what was I supposed to do?"
Taehyung asked still looking outside the window.
Hoseok who was listening intently, was confused as to why Taehyung was telling him the things which he already knew, but decided to keep shut as he wanted his dongsaeng to confess about his heart.

"When I heard about Jin dating Namjoon, something inside me broke, I couldn't stand the thought of him being with someone else that is not me, but then he broke up with Namjoon."
A smile, even being bitter plastered on the CEO's face as he remembered how happy he was.

"A ray if hope rose within me, maybe I still had a chance, maybe he could still be mine if I had shown him some love, if only hyung."

"But you already left for the States right? Did them dating made you leave Seoul? Or was it someone else?"
Hoseok knew why his dongsaeng left for another country, but wanted the younger to find the truth himself.

"I was going to leave early but hearing them being apart made me rethink about my decision, how stupid I was hyung, how stupid."
A bitter laugh escaped the younger while looking at hyung who knew deep down how hurt the younger was.

"Jimin was his new pry."

"You know when Jimin told me he loves someone, I was happy for him, you'd also be hyung if you would have seen his face, whipped he was."

"Stupid lover boy"

"Learning about the boy whom he loved made the ground beneath me burn bright along with my heart, whose ashes also I couldn't gather."

"It was Jin"
A moment of silence passed between them as Taehyung again stared in black.

"I should have been happy for my best friend right, but no I was envious of him, angry for loving what would have been mine, but I couldn't see jimine sad again knowing he finally has someone who could be his, so I left."

"Why did not you fought for him Tae?"

"I just couldn't hyung, I was a coward"

"But you came back-

"Mother called me back, so I had to come, and later Jimine told me what Jin do to him, I was furious, not because he broke up with Jimin, but because of his ways, just because he is very handsome does not mean he have to broke everyone's heart and toy around them. And then him being around Jungkook all the time did not help with my anger, I hated him with every cell in my body, wanted to hurt him insult him, till his pride would shatter, wanted him to beg for mercy, but at the same time wanted him to lov-

"Do you want to know hyung when all my plans on hurting him flew out?"
Taehyung asked his hyung who was digesting what his dongsaeng was saying, he never knew the younger held so of pain inside him, upon his shrug the younger continued.

"When Jungkook was telling his appa about his love for Seokjin and if he would have his blessing in their marriage, that brat wanted to marry my Jin, Ha, as if I would have let him."

"Well then very next day you asked Seokjin's hand in marriage and that naive innocent said yes to without a second thought, poor Jin."

"Yes, hyung."

"If you hated him so much and married him so that you could hurt him then why feel the pain when I told you what Namjoon hyung did to him?"
The sudden question shook Taehyung hard, like a big wave just him in his face.

"Do you remember when I came back form the States, umma and appa threw a party for my welcome."

"Ya Tae I remember, they sure missed you and love you alot, your umma was crying so much because of the happiness."

"Everybody was their, including him, Jin."

"He was?"
Hoseok said from like a question, as far as he remembers the little Jinnie was not their, because Hoseok was at the party from first till the end, he sure say his parents but not him.
As confusion laced Hoseok's face, Taehyung's face was covered with guilt unnoticed by the other.

"But I didn't see him anywhere."

"That's because I took him with me."
The younger replied to his hyung without meeting his eyes.

"Hyung I so badly wanted him, I did things to him, of which if he knew would hate me."
Taehyung said as a drop of tear fell down. The tear which were proof of his sin. A sin he did to eat the forbidden fruit.
Hoseok lifted his chin up and asked what he did to Seokjin.

"What did you do Tae?"
He asked calmly.

"Hyun- Hyung I- I am no good than Namjoon, I -

"What did you do Taehyung?"
Voice clam yet dead serious.

"I did something which I shouldn't have done without his consent."

"For the umpteenth time I'm asking you Kim Taehyung, what did you do to your husband?"

"I raped him."
Taehyung fell on his knees as words came out, being guilty was small word, he was disgusted, ashamed of himself for tainting Jin's innocence.
His sin was eating him every day.
How could have he tainted someone, hurt them so badly.
How could you hate someone so cruely.
The reason was Taehyung hated Seokjin so much was because he wanted him, not just his body, his soul too, all of Seokjin's.
If hating means being closer to Jin, then so it be for Taehyung.

But that's where Taehyung was wrong, he thought Seokjin does not loves him and was a whore, who did open up for anyone but now that he realizes that, Seokjin has only loved Taehyung all these years, it was too late.

"Why?"
The only word his hyung could muster up.
Taehyung clutch on Hoseok's legs crying hysterically, words coming out which were barely audible.

"I loved him."
"But my eyes were blinded with anger and hatred, which blurred my vision, if only I could have-

Hoseok pushed Taehyung away as the younger fell, sobbing hard.

"You're no brother of mine, my brother Tae would never do something like this to the one he loves, you're not him."
Hoseok said as he distanced himself away, moving out of the CEO's cabin.

"Hyung I'm sorry, please hyung don't leave me, plea-

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A/N
I hope this explains.