"Okay so I'm not going to try and figure out why or what you're thinking, but whatever it is, stop," Angelo's jawline was clenched and his voice told me he was serious.

We were still driving back to my house, and for some reason, the drive seemed to be longer than usual. My mind was racing. My heart was pounding in my ears and haven't seemed to stop. Morgan....or Ash was...it was so confounding.

"Well I need to find more information," I spoke with a tone in my voice.

I saw Angelo's head turn to look at me from the corner of my left eye.

"And by doing that you invited him to Ry's birthday party? That's supposed to be about him? I'm sorry Ray but I don't think it's a smart idea, even to do it on this day," Angelo sighed and I felt his hand touch mine as the warmth of it kind of relaxed me.

I felt like a whore. First Angelo, then Morgan, Adam, Jake and now Ash? All in a year. Well....never mind at least it wasn't all in a month, now that would have marked me the biggest one in our town. But now I have a choice. Who do I choose? I closed my eyes and my thoughts automatically went to the times Angelo and I sat down by the stars and we first told each other that we like one a another. Simple times, yet I wouldn't go back to those times. The things I experienced made me wiser and more cautious about things. 'Anything can be gone in a matter of minutes' was what I've thought of over the past year. Even through I haven't taken that quote seriously, I'm now realizing I should. I opened my eyes and looked down at our joined hands and looked at Angelo's face. This was the one thing I was sure about. Angelo and I were better off friends. I slowly pulled back my hand but his squeezed mine.

"Please...." Angelo's whimper pained me.

I swallowed back my reason to make him let go, but I couldn't.

🙅🙅🙅🙅

When we got to my house everything was chaotic. My parents adored Ryan so it just made since his party was at our house. And his parents loved my parents. And me. So you can say Ryan and I were like siblings. That's why our nicknames were Ry and Ray. Well....Angelo gave me mine, before that I was called Raylin. Since Ryan couldn't say Raven he called me that, which my parents and his parents called me. Then that changed. I walked in the house with Angelo, our gifts in our arms, Mrs Hawken was just coming down our stairs when she saw me and beamed.

"Ray! Where have you been? Oh it's so good to see you, you barely come around the house, then again our own son doesn't either," Mrs. Hawken grinned at me.

I smiled and hugged her as she was indeed my favourite adult.

"So where are we putting the gifts?" I held mine up as Angelo grinned at my princess wrapping paper, and Mrs. Hawken laughed.

She led the way outdoors where a pile of presents were stacked on a table where the pool was, but not so close where they would fall in. Nobody was there yet, so I was grateful, because when I looked down I had Jake's T-shirt and my dress underneath. I went to my bedroom and looked at my phone for the first time.

34 missed messages.

My stomach sunk. Some were from Jake, Adam and Ash. I answered Ash first because he asked about the party and where it was at. I still hasn't thought of a plan on how I'm going to do this all. I mean....I just have no idea. And Angelo and I are on good terms but with the whole thing in the car, I'm afraid to ask him.

"Knock Knock, hope you're decent," a familiar voice waltzed into my room.

I turned around and saw Kera. Wow, she must have bestie-senses, because I needed her and her advice. I sighed and just sat on my queen sized bed. Kera sat on my bed too and we both just sat in silence until I was ready to open up.

"Morgan is alive," I abruptly spoke.

"WHAT!?!?" Kera's eyes looked like they were going to pop out of her head, as she stared at me in disbelief.

"Well...it's so confusing. He says his name is Ashton, or Ash, but he looks exactly like Morgan. And I invited him to this party," I groaned and laid down on my back.

"You what!?! What the hell Ray? What were you thinking? I mean...it's just...a little crazy you know. I just hope you know what you're doing," I heard the concern in Kera's voice and I knew she was the one I had to talk to.

I sat up and the wheels in my head were turning. I guess I well just wing it. Yolo? Well that seems a little inappropriate seeming how Morgan is/was dead.

"Come to the party, it's going to be fun, I swear no weirdness 😂" I texted Ash and looked up at Kera as I sent the message.

I seriously hope this party goes well, I would hate to ruin it for Ry, but I need answers.