I waited for my dad and after some minutes he came rushing but stopped on seeing my mom's bloodied body on the roadside,
He started crying mumbling some words "it's all your fault"
Police and some neighbours came, all giving my father a hug and a sorry but none spared a glance at the seven year old me
But that didn't matter to me
All I needed was a hug from my father and to tell me everything was gonna be ok but him like the rest
Never spared a glance at me,his own son.
The funeral day reached
Everyone gave me a pity look and a sad smile pretending they understood what I was feeling deep inside

The funny thing was they weren't the seven year old kid who saw his mother being run off by a car, bleeding to death
They weren't the ones whom their father is ignoring, being blamed for their mothers death
And most of all they weren't the seven year old boy,I was.

All I wanted was a hug from my father
All I wished for was for him to tell me "everything is going to be alright son"
But none happened. It was like when my mother died and and so did everyone else .I was all alone.

Yes he took me in but that was it
Years passed and so did my fathers mourning and he moved on. But I was left there lost in the dark
Nightmares were the only visitors I got and that was at night and during the day all I hear was my fathers voice mumbling "it's your fault"
blamed me for my mom's death and for that he never talked to me
There was no one by my side
All had forgotten about me and so I took care of the seven year old me

Walls got built around me
Afraid to let anyone in
The chirpy seven year old me was no longer there and instead replaced with the me now,guarded

There was no one to give me a hand when I fell down,
I picked myself up instead.
I had a hard life growing up
I never talked to anyone
Always kept to myself and no one messed up with me.

But that day when you spoke to me for the first time
You shook something in me
For the first time since my mother died someone showed some emotion towards me
It was rude,yes but it was something. And so I was afraid that you were gonna break down the walls I have spent years to build so I decided to ignore you,behaved like a jerk to you but you didn't back down either
You threw back whatever I threw at you
And without realising it you broke down my walls enough that you created a place for yourself in my heart.

I didn't want to build up hope and then ending up crushing
I didn't want to hope for something and end up losing it like I lost my mother
I was afraid of falling in love with you and you leave me
But that day when you spoke those words
that day when you said you hated me
I was supposed to be happy right
I finally got wat I wanted
'you out of my life'
But instead
They pierced deep into my heart
And that's when I found out that I was too late
A part of my heart was already yours
And I knew then that
I didn't want you to leave
I couldn't bare another person I love leave me
So I decided to stop you and tell you my story;
The reason for my jerkiness,
Hoping you would stay
But I am not forcing you to,
But if you do please don't break me more than I am
I won't bare it
I may be eighteen years today but the seven year old me is still inside me waiting for his father,hoping he would hug him and tell him that everything was going to be alright . That was all he wanted. That is all I want.

A/N

HEY GUYS

I HAVE REACHED THE END WITH 'MY STORY' I KNOW THERE WILL BE SOME MISTAKES SO FORGIVE ME FOR THAT I WILL GO THROUGH IT WHEN I GET TIME.

I JUST GOT ONE QUESTION:IF YOU WERE THE GIRL WHAT WOULD YOU DO? WOULD YOU BELIEVE HIM FORGIVE HIM AND ACCEPT HIM OR WILL YOU JUST IGNORE HIM? I KNOW I WOULD HAVE FORGIVEN HIM HAHA AM A SUCKER FOR SAD STORIES.

Bye
Love you all

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