Roshni

"But she attacked me first", She said trying to look as innocent as possible. I was thinking how she would look with slap marks on her both cheeks. She is trying to act innocent in front of my husband. Like seriously. And why did he came inside? I don't like other girls looking at him as if he is their food.

And right now I was planning all the ways I could kill this girl. 

"I have seen everything. And what I wanted to say I did already. Don't you dare come near my wife otherwise I would make sure you would regret it", He said calmly and hold my wrist pulling me with him.

He didn't even let me speak just pulled me towards my next class. How did he even get inside here? Oh god what the hell this man wants from me now. Is he angry that I attacked her but she deserved it didn't she. I never seduced him. He had fair chances to refuse to this wedding proposal. On the other hand he was the one who send the proposal. Though mumma was the one who send it in actual but still it was from his side only.

Oh god I would get mad thinking about all this. I can't even pull my hands back because there are people around waiting for a spicy topic to discuss.

He pushed me inside my class and left not before glaring at me. Idiot!

After a long day of college I was at last free to go back home. It was so tiring. Aadya was not yet free but I had my last class free so I thought to have a walk.

I went to the nearby park walking silently thinking about my life lately. I don't understand what Anav ji wants from me. A moment he is all angry and the other moment he is all caring and sweet. I sat on a bench looking at the blue sky. I always wanted to fly high in the sky where nobody could stop me from doing anything but guess I didn't had that in my destiny.

Anav Ji was right every girl wants to make her future when she is 20 but I agreed to this marriage because I knew I was caged in my parent's house as well and now would be caged in my husband's house.

I spend my whole life in solitude. I did have a sibling but he never cared about me. He was always worried that I would ask my part in the property when I never had any interest in our family property. I was never that materialistic.

I mean money is important. You can't deny to that face. It plays a very important role in anyone's life. Even if you are so much in love with someone but have nothing to eat than you can't eat your love right?

Consider me materialistic if you want I don't care. But I always wanted a person who would be able to feed me three times a day and can be caring. I never wanted him to shower me with gifts and jewelries. Just two words of love were enough for me. And here what I got a man who thinks I am a gold digger and keeps on glaring at me.

But then again he is not at fault I was meant to be hated by everyone than why would he like me. He also considers that my love is burden on me. I now understood how difficult at arranged marriage. The girls who say they want to do adventure of knowing a new person via using Arranged marriage. They are the stupidest creatures in the world.

I thought about everything I have gone through from childhood. I felt tears forming in my eyes. At least this life is better than what I was living before. At least somebody cares when I get scared at night without calling me a disgrace on the family. At least somebody cares when I shiver with fear of getting judged my people. Roshni you need to stop fighting and ask for more. God has given you enough. You don't deserve more than that. Stop speaking like this with Anav ji. It is not his fault that you don't deserve those movies like romantic life and maybe they aren't really true.

I saw the time. I need to reach their before Anav ji comes to pick us. I still have fifteen minutes so I thought to walk back in a slower speed observing my surroundings.

When I reached their I felt a shiver ran across my spine when I saw him giving me a murderous glare. Wasn't I on time?

I saw Aadya coming out. She sat on the back seat which meant I have to sit beside him. He didn't say anything watching her. He asked her some questions about her day and she answered everything happily.

I thought what if this situation happened with me and my brother had to wait for me. I would have been hearing curses and abuse words from him till now instead of hearing how your day was. I am happy that he didn't ask me anything. I just leaned my head back looking outside. Thinking my life always made me feel upset. Why all these things happened with me? I thought closing my eyes.

Don't be stupid Roshni some people live much worse lives.

I heard a horn and opened my eyes to find us back home. I removed my seat belt silently feeling depressed. Aadya was already inside and he left the car immediately as well. Was I expecting him to wait for me? I went inside and touched mumma's feet taking her blessing.

"God bless you bacha. Go freshen up. I will make a warm lunch", She said touching my cheeks.

"No mumma I would do it. You don't have to", I said feeling weird that my mother-in-law was preparing food for me.

"Would you say the same thing to your mother as well", She asked as I looked around biting my lower lip.

"Go freshen up. Don't worry much", She said as I nodded and went upstairs.

"Why were you in the park?", I heard his voice as I entered inside. I just looked down I was feeling exhausted. I just wanted to take a shower and cry my pain out there.

"I am asking you something Roshni", He said lifting my chin up harshly.

"What is wrong with you?", He asked looking in my eyes as I closed them immediately not wanting him to look into my soul.

"Nothing. I am sorry", I said still having my eyes closed.

"If something is wrong you can share it with me you know", He said softly and I just shook my head.

"Fine your wish", He said taking a step back. I ran to the closet before taking out fresh pair of clothes.

I went to the bathroom quickly discarding my clothes and got under the shower. I was not really jealous of Aadya and Anav ji's close relation. I just felt like why I couldn't have that bond with someone. Why I am the one left alone all the time. I remembered the times I was being cursed, abused and even slapped when I was not even at fault.

I remembered that day when he first slapped me calling me a family burden who destroyed his peace of life. I sobbed loudly standing under the shower not caring if somebody listens to me or not.

On the other side

Anav was standing leaning on the close door of his bathroom. He could hear her sobbing. She was crying. He knew she was upset in the car but had no idea about her crying. He was angry when his security team called him informing him about Roshni's current location. She just can't leave like this. She is now his wife which means a target for his enemies. He can't take risk of losing her because of his leniency.

After sometimes he couldn't hear the shower running and her crying anymore. He went to the bed not wanting her to know that he heard her crying. He lied casually on the bed trying to show that he was watching something on the phone while she was drying her hair.

She was acting differently not like her usual active self. She always answers him back with her weird come backs. He hated her being this silent. He wanted to pull her in his arms and hide from the whole world. He didn't like her eyes losing their charm. The redness of her eyes made his heart clench. He just lied back not looking at her anymore if she didn't trust him than he shouldn't care as well.

Roshni

After lunch, I had to study. I just excused myself.

I took out my books from my bag when Anav Ji came inside. I looked at him to find him looking something in the drawers.

"What do you need Anav Ji?", I asked but got a glare in return. I looked down immediately.

"When you can't share your problems with me than how can you expect me to do the same?", He asked in an intimidating voice hovering over me. I leaned back as my back touched the bed.

"You are a mystery to me Roshni. One moment you are not even caring what I say and next moment you are all scared", He said tracing his fingers on my jaw as I shivered. Did I wake his inner monster who is hell irritated with me?

"I am like this only Anav Ji", I told him.

"My name is Anav Khurana stop calling me Anav Ji", He said being irritated nuzzling his nose in my neck making me shiver.

"In my family, girls call their husbands with respect", I told him.

"Don't expect me to do the same. I won't call your name with a ji at the end", He said as I nodded which was impossible because of his head. I gulped realizing how near he was not me.

"Anav Ji please stay away", I said trying to push him away.

"How much right do I have on you Roshni?", He asked suddenly maintaining a distance.

"Ji?", I asked sitting at a little distance from him.

"How much right do I have on you Roshni? I am your husband still you keep on pushing me away. I don't remember doing anything which made you hate my touch", he asked as I was shocked by his statement.

"I....."

"What I? Damn it!!", He shouted as I flinched. I felt tears forming in my eyes.

"Roshni I am asking something from you. Did you liked someone before our marriage and you got forced to marry me", He asked at I looked at him with shocked expression. I shook my head immediately clutching his shirt tightly.

"Than what is it Roshni? Why do you seem to be running away from me all the time?", He asked caressing my cheek.

"Anav Ji please", I tried to make him understand.

"Please what Roshni", He whispered looking in my eyes.

"I have never been near to any male. Not even my cousins", I told him as he looked at me shocked.

"We were close but we always maintained a one hand distance. I don't know how to react to a male touch", I whispered.

"You mean you have never been touched by a male", He said. I shook my head.

"I am. But only when I was young my father used to give me piggy back ride", I told him.

"Is that the reason why you always flinch to my touch", He asked as I nodded slowly.

"You could have told me", He said.

"You would have considered me an idiot", I said in a small voice.

"You are still an idiot but you are my idiot", He said pulling me in his arms. I tried to get comfortable and soon got familiar with his warmth.

"Remember one thing Roshni you have got yourself into this and there is no escape anymore", He said as I gave him a weird look.

"What do you mean?", I asked looking in his eyes.

"Well I don't believe in divorce but a life together till eternity. I don't know in what situation you said yes to this marriage but now you belong to me, only me. You are now Roshni Anav Khurana and my responsibility which I want to treasure my whole life. And I can take your any tantrum but not a betrayal. I would make sure to have you pay for your betrayal in the worst way possible", He said as a shiver ran down my spine. He was looking so dangerous at the moment but me being me asked the stupidest question in the world.

"What if I tried to leave you?", I asked.

"Then my dear wife get ready to get tied to this very bed and get pregnant with my child", He said as I gasped. He won't do it. He wasn't serious or was he?