Veer's pov

That damn fucking car and I lost her. I instantly run to my car and now  I'm looking for her everywhere but fuck I don't know where to find her.

How could Shahzaib do something like this to her? She loves him so much and he is ignoring her and punishing her.

I don't know why she is not telling him the truth?

I have no idea where to search for her. Defeatingly I call dad and ask "Hey dad are you home?"

"Yeah. But what happened?" He ask hearing my worried voice.

"Is Noor home?" I ask

"What do you mean by home? Isn't she was with you?"

"Dad it's a long story I'll tell you later. I'm searching for her. If she came home then call me." I said and cut call.

Damn it ! Noor . Where are you?

I checked office and she is not here. Now I'm sick worried for her and bad things started invading my mind.

What if anything happen to her?

No No No No!!!! Veer . Don't think too much.

Nothing will gonna happen to her. But what if? Then? What I'm gonna do without her? I can't live without her.

Yes.

Doesn't matter if I keep denying but it's true. She become most important part of my life and I can't live without her.

I ordered my secretary Arun to check every hospital and clinic if Noor got admitted.

I himself looking for her like a mad man but she is nowhere to find. With each passing second my heart is sinking imaging worse.

Then suddenly the thunder rumbled and it started raining without weather.

"Begum where are you?"

It's been hours and now I decided to file a police complaint. I'm on my way to police station and my phone ringed.

"Yeah dad?"

"She just arrived home." Dad replied and i instantly turn car and drive maniacally.

I parked car and instantly run inside.

"Veer what happened?" Dad stopped me.

"Dad later." I replied hurriedly.

"But......"

"Is Maa and Nani with her?" I cut him.

''No they both are not home."

"Don't tell anyone then." I replied run to my room. I open door hurriedly "BEGUM!! BEGUM!!!!!!" The room is empty. I checked walk in closet. It's also empty.

"Noor!!!!" I checked the bathroom it's also empty.

"SHIT!!!!" She shouldn't be outside in garden.

I go to my terrace garden and saw her sitting on ground, hugging her knees and crying.

My heart stabbed with thousand knives, seeing her like this.

"Noor." I instantly crouched to her level. She is crying and sobbing.

Even in rain I can see her tears. Fuck I hate these tears.

"Hey !" I palm her cheeks and she started sobbing even more.

"Ve-veer." She sobbed

"Get up." I tried to stand her on her feet. It's raining cats and dogs. She will get sick.

"Bhai-bhaijaannn." She cried.  "I -hurt- him. Veer- he- didn't- even- looked -at- me. I'm- a- very- bad- person. Allah- is- punishing- me. VEER." She is hiccuping badly.

"Stop crying." I wiped her tears. Her every word is piercing my heart. I can't see her like this in her vulnerable state. I like her feisty avatar.

"Veer -I'm- a- bad- person. That's -why- I'm- all -alone."

What alone? I wanna scream that you are not alone. You have me.

But I can't. I can't take advantage of her vulnerable state. Not like this.

"I- have -no- one- Veer. I'm- alone. There- is- no -one- who -can hold- me.............."

I instantly embrace her in my arms. She has me. I will always hold her and tell her everything is fine. She is not alone anymore. No matter what. She has me.

"Shush!!! BEGUM. It's ok." I hugged her tightly.

She fisted my shirt in her hands and cried even more. I let her take it out. She has too if she don't then she will be hurting.

Her cries are killing me. I don't want her  see like this. I want to see her happy and smiling. She deserves happiness not cries.

I hate her fucking tears. Right now I wanna kiss her so bad to assure her that she had me. I wanna kiss away these fucking tears.

But I can't. She will hate me and I don't wanna give her more reasons to hate me.

"Noor." I whispered rubbing her back. "Everything will be OK."

"No it won't. I messed up everything." She cried.

"No you won't. You did everything with good intentions and have patience everything will be alright. Just don't lose your faith. " I tried to console her.

"Why me Veer?" She cried.

And I literally tell the difference of my drenching shirt by her tears and rain. Her each tear is burning my soul.

"Calm down please." I pleaded and scoop her in my arms. Take her inside. I don't want her to get sick because I don't know how long she is sitting out here.

She didn't protested but still crying.

She is still clinging on me. Holding me tightly. I take her inside bathroom and make her  sit  in bathtub in hot water.

"Noor stop crying." I said wiping her tears. She sniffed.

"Veer I'm alone." She said meekly.

I wipe her tears and rest my forehead on her. She closed her eyes. Her breathing shaky.

"You are not fucking alone. You have US." I said and kissed her forehead.

Her white suite is clinging on her like a second skin. She is looking so damn beautiful even while crying. But I control myself. I can't lose myself. Just for her sake.

I stood up and said "take a warm bath and change these wet clothes.  Don't stay for long in water or you will catch cold."

I come out from bathroom and change then go downstairs to make something for her.

A warm tea will be good for her but fuck I don't know how to make it.

But let's try.

I pick up the pan and find the ingredients for tea. Tea leaves, Sugar, milk and water is easy but where is ginger? Or cardamom?

I remember Maa and Nani put these things in tea.

I put water in pan. I don't know how much to put so I emptied the whole jug. Then what to do next?

Fuck I don't know?

I should have take some lessons from Maa.

So I decided to take some help from Google but to my disappointment that tutorial list has tones of ingredients.

Seriously?

For a tea?

I don't even know the ingredients. So I started searching and finding a fucking cinnamon, the whole container of something white slipped from my hand and slipped on ground.

"Whose there?" Maa come running inside kitchen. Fuck Veer!

"Hii Maa." I stood up thinning my lips in a straight line.

"Veer what are you doing here? At this hour?" She ask and then her eyes landed on her surroundings "what have you done to my kitchen?" She ask shocked.

"I was trying to make tea..... "

"You don't drink tea." She cut me and said "you don't know how to make it."

"I can try after all it's not a rocket science." I replied.

"I can see that." Maa replied sarcastically and my mouth hung open in surprise. Then her eyes landed on water in pan "for how many people you are making?" She ask.

"Just for Noor."

"Ohhhhh! Now I understand but bache I'm sure Noor only wants to drink it not want to drown in it." She teased.

"Maa are you done?" I rolled my eyes "Instead of helping me you are making fun of me."

"OK fine. Step aside. Let me make some tea for her." She said.

"Is there something to eat?" I ask

"Why? You didn't eat?" She ask.

"No."

"But you too came late so I thought you must had your dinner."

"Actually Maa...." and I told her everything about Shahzaib to her missing.

"Oh God! My poor child. Wait I'll make something for you two and Veer you also drink some tea. You both were wet in rain or you will catch cold."

"OK Maa. Just make instant noodles for now." I said and she nodded.

I come back in room with dinner and tea.

She is sitting on bed drying her wet hair and all lost in her thoughts.

I go to her and handed her over tea and take towel from her hand then started drying her hair.

"Veer I'll do it....."

"Let me Begum." I cut her and she sit quietly.

"You don't have to show sympathy Veer." She said suddenly and I stopped in my tracks.

"Sympathy?" I ask sitting infront Of her and she looked down. I hold her chin and let her look me in the eyes. "Trust me Begum. I don't know how to be sympathetic. I just said what's is true."

Her eyes soften and she diverted her gaze.

"Let's have dinner and then take some rest." I changed the topic and she nodded.

After dinner we both laid but in middle of night my sleep broken as she is shivering badly.

"Noor?" I called her and touch her forehead. She is burning in fever. "Fuck!"

I instantly tucked her into quilt and bring medicine for her.

"Noor take it." I tried to wake up her.

"N-o-" She shuddered.

"Come on." I help her and she gulped medicine.

Then I  check fever and it's 102. I instantly bring cold water and place cold water straps on her forehead.

"Veer I'm fine." She muttered trying to stop me.

"Yeah I can see that." I replied and change the strap.

Then the medicine send her into deep slumber and I'm keep stroking her head to calm her. Her both hands holding mine one hand.

Finally she slept and I kissed her head and sighed.

"Begum if anything happen to you then what will gonna happen to me." I muttered and kissed her knuckles.