Not long after everyone had slowly left one by one, leaving it to only Jungkook and I. I grew quiet as the wind started to come, covering up our silence. His hand was held onto mine and I hadn't realized that Jungkook's grip onto my hand had gotten tighter. I watched as they walked away, but more specifically Jimin.

I was still struck on how he could possibly be here. I felt like my mind and heart was in two places. One where it should be and one where it used to be. I tried to constantly remind myself that I love Jungkook now, and there is no way I should think otherwise. But My heart had felt torn when Jimin's shadow faded from the distance.

It  was Jungkook who brought me out of my sad thoughts, and he made me look at him, having a firm grip on my chin forcing me to look up at him. His dark doe eyes looked at me, not as bright and shining with glimmer as it had been at the beginning of the night. His lips were neutral not a smile to be found. I stared at his lips, until I looked at his eyes again and they became into a semi squint as he put on a smile that wasn't the same as usual.

I realized that water was slowly forming in his eye's and that was when it got me confused. He saw the confusion on my face and immediately pulled me into an embrace. Squeezing me as hard as he had squeezed my hand. He lets out a low chuckle, "So you're the one he's been talking about." But his words came to faint to me I wasn't able to fully hear.

"What did you say?"
"It's happy tears, I'm glad I have you." Hugging a bit tighter but then letting the grip loosen a little as he left a peck on my head.
"I'm glad I have you too" I said making my head look up from his chest to see his beautiful face under the moonlight, I took this chance to leave a chaste kiss onto his lips.

small but passionate kiss, I look back to see his face and that's when the image of Jimin's face had replaced Jungkook's I shook from the hug, shaking my head, and his face had changed back to originally Jungkook. He tilted his head in confusion and I placed one hand onto his cheek.

"It's okay, I'm okay" I reassure him and he gave me a smile,
"Don't leave me." He says putting his forehead onto of mine, I looked at his eyes from where they had been and then I started closing my eyes. I couldn't give that answer right now, I needed to sort myself out first before I could do anything, I needed time for me before I hurt the one I love. 

We held hands walking back to the car, and we had a quiet drive home. 

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We got back to my room, as the room was dark and silent. I was still holding onto his hand, I dragged him to my bed and made him sit down, I went to my dresser and grabbed one of his extra pair of clothes he leaves in my room and I went to the bathroom to quickly changed into comfortable clothing for sleep.

I walked back into the room to see him already dressed and I came up from behind him and gave him a back hug. He was bare chested only in a pair of shorts, we penguin walked towards my queen sized bed and we plopped down, getting under the blankets.

We faced each others direction, as we cuddled into one another, His body over lapping my smaller one, making him the big spoon, I snuggle in closer to his chest and I closed my eyes.

Jungkook's POV

She fell sound asleep, my eye's were wide open. I tried to contain my heart from thumping erratically. I couldn't fall asleep, not with a thought stuck in my mind. I was no stranger to Jimin he told me everything about himself to me and I only did the same. The girl that he would constantly talk about, I hadn't known it would be my girlfriend.

The thought had scared me that I would lose her, I am not as big and bold as I used to be. She changed me for the better and she makes another side of me that I love. She's makes me whole, and I couldn't imagine anything without her now.

But my mind was clouded of jealousy and fear. Jimin, a man who has only ever been nice to me, who is handsome, and not only but intelligent could easily fall back in love with his first love. The girl he constantly told me about and how much he missed her. I felt threatened that one day she will go back to him and throw me away, like how I had did long ago.

It would be Karma once again hitting me, I thought I learned my lesson and Y/n was the angel who had saved me from the devil. But all in all, she is a normal human. She has every right to change how she feels about me and it terrify's me. I can only think of the bad because that's the only place my mind leads me to think. 

I've become more insecure, and she are what keeps me up and together. I put up my facade but it means nothing because as soon as she comes close it breaks down waiting for your entrance. I'm in love with Y/n, I love Y/n so much. 

What happens is the life  that will happen for me, I had given her my heart, and she gave me hers. I'll love her unconditionally, I'll shower her with my affection, but the question that will stay on my mind all night, is if she will do the same.