I sigh, staring outside the window. It is 6:00AM in the morning and yet I am still awake.

Why?

Simple - Jeon Jungkook.

I don't get it. Why is society so cruel?
Jungkook is getting married to angelica, I'm here all alone, broken. All I can do right now is cry if I'm honest because nothing ever works out for me. My life is hell.

I wonder what Jungkook is up to right now, maybe he's working, or preparing for the wedding. Why do I care you ask?
I love him, he hurts me, but I love him.

And the thought of him being attracted to another woman he is going to spend the rest of his life with, well, to say that breaks my heart would be an understatement.
My father started all this mess, I blame him for all of this.

Just then I hear the door creak open "good morning" Carter flashes on a smile and walks towards me "morning" I sigh. His smile drops "Bora..is it because of Jungkook?"

I nod, I can't hide it no more.

Carter sighs "forget about him, all he does is hurt you Bora" I move my attention back to the window "it's easy for you to say Carter. How can I forget someone I've loved almost all my life" I say.
"I'm throwing a party tonight," he places his hand on my shoulder "I want you to join and forget about Jungkook tonight, just party, and no more stress." I turn to look at him "is Jungkook coming?"

"I doubt it, he's always busy with his work anyway" he shrugs. I nod "come on, let's have some breakfast then go.."

"Shopping!" We both shout in unison. Why can't I love Carter? He's so caring, hot and so boyfriend material. He also reminds me of Jimin, I miss that goofy boy.

I have my shower then head downstairs. I literally have no appetite "your not gonna eat?" Carter asks as I play with the egg in front of me "I'm not hungry" I admit. He sighs "just try and eat okay? It's-forget-all-about-Jungkook day today."

This day is somehow frustrating me because it's really not an easy task. And Carter is not understanding but I guess he is trying to make an effort in this. I mean, I need a break from crying.

Forget is the keyword.

And that's very complicated.

I managed to eat an apple before getting ready to head outside with Carter. We arrive at the mall. He bought me some heels and dresses, jeans, tops and all the god damn clothes a girl needs.
He is rich, I must say.

I pout when realisation hits me "summer has come to an end" I cry out in disappointment "oh my god! No!" Carter drops on his knees dramatically, making me giggle. I copy his actions and we both look like two poor lunatics, begging on our knees.

Summer went by so fast, it's like yesterday it just started. I sigh, if me and Jungkook were still dating, it would've been our one year anniversary.
Carter holds my hand "let's go home and get ready." He flashes on a warm smile, giving me comfort. It's like he can read my mind all the time.

"But first, let me take a selfie!" I reach for my new phone in my pocket, Carter bought it for me a month ago when he found out I don't have one. I held it up and we both pulled a face. We then examined the picture "this is so cute!" I squeal and he chuckles.

We hop into the car before driving off.
His family hasn't returned from their holiday yet, I have spent 3 months living with Carter and away from Jungkook. I'm surprised I survived the misery.
But it'll get worse once I start college again on Monday. It's only Saturday today.

"Here" Carter hands me a black, mid-thigh dress "I like this one, wear it tonight" I give him a thankful smile, taking it into the room.

I had my second shower today and curled my hair, applied some concealer to get rid of my eye bags, mascara and lip gloss. I'm not really a fan of foundation, it ruins my skin.

By 7PM, half of the college year was here, I felt a little awkward and lonely just standing there in the corner as I watched people dance, drink, laugh and joke around. I was an outcast in the past.
As I pour myself a drink I felt a tap on my shoulder, I turn around to see no one. I shrug and go back to what I was doing when I felt the familiar tap again.

I look back once again yet still there was no one there. I snap my head to the front and almost jump in surprise "oh my god!" I say with wide eyes "Jimin!" I squeal, jumping into his open arms, giving him a bear hug.

He chuckles when I don't pull away "not gonna let go?" He asks, chuckling again "no, I missed you so much" I sigh, he hugs me back before breaking it "how have you been angel eyes?" I smile "good I guess, and you?" I question "great."

"I'm glad to hear that" I say "hey, guess what?" Jimin whispers. I raise my eyebrows "what?"

"I have a girlfriend."

My eyes widen for a second before I jump up and down in excitement "oh my god who is she, who is she?" I yell, he chuckles before hushing me "be quiet..she's standing right behind you."

I almost immediately spin around, only to be greeted with a familiar bear hug. I smile when I realise who it is "I missed you." I say, almost breaking into tears "how have you been?"

"I've been great, forget me, are you alright? I missed you so much Bora, you can't even imagine" she wiped her tears away before giving me another hug "miya," I sigh "what happened with you and Taehyung?"

"He left the house, he said he wanted to start his own business."

"He even quit college." Jimin spoke from behind me. I smile at the lovely couple "and how did you two get together?" I wiggle my eyebrows at miya "Long story"

"Tell me.." I plead, pouting.

"He saved me."

"From?"

"Getting into an accident" I gasped "oh my god are you okay?" I say, holding her hand "Bora, that was time ago, I'm fine now." She gives me an assuring smile. I return it.

"God I'm so happy for you guys." I almost tear up from joy but blink them away. I'm so glad Jimin finally got a girl he wants and loves, I'm glad he doesn't like me anymore, that way I won't hurt him. "Bora.." Miya sighs "you know about Jungkook, right?"

"I don't want to talk about him miya, please" I look down, holding in the threatening tears. She agrees. We all chat and joke around, dance together. They took shots but I didn't, I don't want to drink tonight.

Just kidding.

I joined in, it's forget all about Jungkook day today.

I giggle "hey, I'm drunk.." I nudge miya's arm "are you drunk?" She nods at my question "oh my god, we are drunk buddies." I sound like a zombie right now.
Miya wraps her arms around jimins waist and kisses him passionately.

I smile, I'm happy for them.

But I also envy their relationship, I wish Jungkook could be more like Jimin. Yeah I know I had a chance with Jimin but I blew it away. You see my problem was, this one guy who I kept falling for no matter how hard I tried to stop myself.
Jeon Jungkook was just a heart breaker, but my foolish heart chose him over Jimin.

But what I'm wondering is, how is Mr. Jeon agreeing to miya dating one of his sons, but disagreeing with me dating Jungkook?

I walk over to the kitchen counter, pouring myself another glass of water to sober up a little when a hand suddenly grabbed my upper arm "that's enough for one night, stop drinking." My eyes shoot open, he's touching me, he's talking to me, after 3 whole months.

Tears form my eyes, I missed this.

But he's the one who pushed me away 3 months ago. Today I put in so much effort in trying not to think about him, yet here he is, talking to me. My brain is telling me to push him away, but my body is saying the complete opposite.

"Bora"

My name leaving his gorgeous, kissable lips relieves me.

I remain silent. Warmth surrounds me when he steps closer to my body, his lush cologne washing over me. I inhale his scent, my hands were itching to touch him, his hair, lips, body, just him.

No.

How ever much I have missed him, he's the one that pushed me away. If he thinks I'm that easy, then he thought wrong.

I jerk my arm away from his grasp and slowly turn around with a small smile "do I know you?"

"Don't play dumb with me Bora, stop drinking-" he gets cut off as his eyes scan my dress "what the fuck are you wearing?" His tone was severe, it sure did send shivers down my spine.

"I said, do I know you?"

He suddenly grabbed my forearm and dragged me along with him. I yelled for him to let go but he paced up his steps in response.
Once we reached the guest room Jungkook pulled me inside and locked the door "I believe I asked you a question, Bora"

"I believe I asked you a question, Jungkook" I repeat his words. Only making him angrier than he already is but I need to stay strong. Although I am the same scared Bora from a year ago but I won't tell or show him that.

He turns around, and that's when I clearly see his face. He's still the same, nothing has changed. The same perfect body, flawless and handsome face, gorgeous plump lips and that look, the mischievous one. Still remains there.

He walks towards me but I take big steps back "stay away from me, stranger." I say, my voice shaking. This continues until the back of my knees collide with the bed, causing me to fall straight on my back as I bounce up and down on the mattress a little.

Jungkook takes this chance and hovers over me "so I am the stranger now?" He chuckles "Jungkook, get off me" I whisper, although a part of me wants him to stay.
"Tell me you missed me, Bora" he inhales my scent, his breath fanning my neck. I remain silent, his lips connect with my sweet spot and I moan.

I felt him smirk against my skin "say it." His voice was calm but dominant.

"Your the one that pushed me away, why would I say it?" I protest, facing the side to avoid his dark eyes. Jungkook moved my face by my chin so our eyes lock.

"Wrong answer babe."

I wasn't much surprised when he pinned my hands above my head "do you know," he plants a soft but tortuous kiss on the corner of my lips "how much I've craved, these delicious lips" his eyes peel off mine and travel down to my lips. I bite them, teasing him.

"God damn it Bora" before I could say anything, he crashes his lips onto mine. My eyes grow wide for a second before I slowly let them close, I kiss him back. His lips are like black magic, instantly brainwashes me.
The kiss becomes rough and lustful, his hand moves down to my wet panties and rubs my clit over the thin fabric, causing me to gasp.

He takes that chance to slide his tongue in and explore my mouth. Our tongues fought for dominance but I eventually gave up and let him take control. Jungkook sucked on my tongue.
He moved his hand from my clit before reaching for something in his pocket, I peek at it and my eyes instantly widen.

I shake my head, only to hear a chuckle from him "now, don't forget, I'm still the master and you are mine, your body belongs to me. Do you understand?"

I don't respond.

He suddenly cuffs my hands to the bar of the headboard. I pull at them "Jungkook please don't do this." I give him the best puppy eyes I could but that doesn't work on him.

"Again, wrong answer."

I yelp when my face flips to the side, the sound of the slap echoing through the air.

"Do you understand?"

"Yes Jungkook."