Jungkook is distracting me from my thoughts by taking me out. I guess it's a date.

"You will still go be his slave for a few more days?" Jungkook questions me as he hands me a drink. We are at a bonfire with some people we don't know. It's like a public bonfire thing. The wood is crackling in front of us and people are chatting in their own groups.

"Yeah."

"Why?"

"I don't know why. I just will."

"I think you should stop hanging out with him for a while and see how you feel."

"I honestly can't live without him."

"Just give it a break. You'll see how you truly feel afterward," Jungkook further encourages me. He has wise words coming out of his mouth. I honestly never heard him talk about anything other than drugs and parties but it seems like now he is expressing some of his deeper knowledge.

"You're right. I'll do that."

Jungkook puts his arm around me in comfort, and I lay my head on his shoulder. The fire is giving me a nice, relaxing feeling.

We drink in silence for a bit.

I lift my head up at one point, gulp down my entire drink, and raise on my feet. He looks up at me as I reach my hand out of him.

"Come on, let's go to the beach,"  I say. 

"Really? It's already past dinner time," Jungkook replies, continuing to look up at my face as he is still sitting. 

"Whatever I'll explain to my mom later."

Jungkook takes my hand and we run out of the place.

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We drive to the beach for an hour or so, jamming out to lit music in the car.

Jungkook is fun honestly.

Much more fun than Yoongi. That is just what I am feeling right now. I cannot recall having a moment with Yoongi like this recently. We used to have a lot of fun and laughs together when we were younger but now it is just boring and the same everyday. 

I still do not feel any less for Yoongi though. Seems like the fun doesn't matter to me so much in the long run. 

When we arrive, I notice that I have some texts from Yoongi.

Text Messages

yoongi: where r u? Ur not picking me up from school ?
received at 4:01pm

yoongi: ok I got home by myself thanks for the ride
received at 4:45pm

yoongi: r you mad at me?
received at 5:30pm

yoongi: i know I sounded harsh today but its always like this so why r u acting up
received at 5:31pm

yoongi: y/n r u in trouble or something? You never ignore me like this
received at 6:02pm

yoongi: r u alive
received at 6:30pm

yoongi: y/n i will call your mom if you dont respond to me.
received at 7:22pm

yoongi: where the fuck are you.
received 5 minutes ago

you: im with jungkook. don't worry about me. Also I'm not giving you a ride from school anymore.

yoongi: jungkook? why?

you: why not? he is my buddy

yoongi: he wants to fuck you. You have a terrible eye for people

you: so what?

yoongi: what do you mean so what?

you: whats so bad about having someone that wants to love your body

yoongi: wtf he doesn't want to love your body he wants to use your body

you: you dont know that

yoongi: right.... like I dont know how shit men are

you: aw so you are the same as them then

yoongi: what?

you: basically you are saying all men want to use girls for their bodies

you: but you are a man too so... makes you apart of that team then

yoongi: whatever . be like this

you: yeah. Let's not see each other for a while

yoongi: HUH?
read at 8:22pm

Jungkook grabs my phone out of my hand.

"Stop talking to him and pay attention to me," he says.

"Sorry. Let's go out there," I reply and point at the seashore.

We walk close together in the darkness and then sit close to the water. The waves are calm tonight. There is barely any wind and the atmosphere around is is still and quiet. There is no soul out there other than mine and Jungkook's. It is almost a silent night. Yet I have an overwhelming feeling in my chest..

"This is perfect,"  Jungkook words beautifully with a beautiful exhale. I look at his face. Beautiful.

"Wow you are pretty,"  I say to him carelessly.

Jungkook smiles widely at me. "After all these months of hanging out with you, I finally made you look at me."

I raise a brow, "What do you mean?"

He looks back at the waves and speaks again, "I've been into you this entire time but you were never interested in me. Yeah, we are close, but you never looked at me like how you look at Yoongi."

"What the heck? How do I look at Yoongi? I just look at him regularly like how I look at everyone."

Jungkook snorts, and shakes his head.

"No. You look at him for a few extra seconds than you would with me. I didn't know a second could hurt me. Ouch, " he pretends to be hurt and holds onto his heart.

I chuckle and playfully hit him. "You are crazy."

We both laugh a bit. That eases off my overwhelmed chest. 

Once we fall in silence again, I feel as though Jungkook's eyes were glaring at me. Or even staring. 

"If you are digging a hole in my back, you should stop and say what you wanna say," I straight up tell him without looking back at him. My peripheral vision did the job. 

He moves closer to me and leans toward me.

"Can I kiss you?"

I turn my head toward him but he ends up being so much closer to my face than I expected. With that in hand, I got kinda scared so I fall back.

I try to get up before anything disastrous but Jungkook gets on top of me and holds me down.

"So can I?" He repeats his question, but this time he is above me, and has a smirk planted on his face.

Honestly, I've been into the thought of Jungkook for a while now and this seems like the perfect chance. I am into him out of sexual frustration honestly. I know perfectly where I want my love to go.

"Yeah do it," I say and stare down at his lips.

He leans his body over mine and cups my face with his hands. He kisses me softly without exchanging a tongue but it's fine. All I feel is a little bit of pressure and some breath.

I'd say I don't have much experience with all of these sexual things so I don't know if tongue exchange is appropriate at this time. Probably not. Why am I disappointed though? Where is the hot makeout session that I imagined?

I get shy after he pulls away so I don't want to bother saying anything. Soft kisses? Not now. Now I'm angry and I need an angry kiss. I guess you get what you get.

"We should head back honestly," I say.

"We barely stayed here," Jungkook points out.

"Yeah but I'm awkward right now."

Jungkook grins as if he's done something award deserving.

Yeah, the kiss was nice but let's keep the 'soft' for the clouds. My mouth needs rain and thunder. 

"Alright. We can come again," he replies and gets up from the ground.

"I hope the waves are vicious when we come," I wish and head out of the place with him.