Author's POV

Rick stood there watching Jen closely, his blue eyes fierce with something, He could not stand her crying, he felt like a pair of hands smothering his heart. He wanted to run towards her, wipe her tears and wrap his arms around her but whatever he saw made him at loss for words, so he could only keep quiet. At the same time, he knows Jen needs this. It pains him immensely to see her break down and hear her sobbing, it hurt him too much. But then he decided it is probably for the best, she needs to vent the pain, she had been keeping it all bottled up for too long. Rick folded his arms, conflicting emotions gathering in his mind. Tears welled in his eyes, streaking down his face, he struggled to hold them in but like Jen, something broke inside him too. Who would have thought Rick Adam can cry too?

On the contrary, Jen was lost in her tormented pain. Holding her stomach, she yelled and cursed the day when she had ill thoughts for her unborn. Rick had reminded her why she doesn't deserve happiness. She is a killer, yes she killed the most beautiful blessing of her life. Closing her eyes, she thought about the day when the doctor announced her pregnancy, and without even feeling the news, the first thing that came out of her mouth was about abortion.

"You must think before going for further formalities, or the best you could discuss it with the father" the Doctor advised with a serious note.

"Discussion not needed, let's start the formalities" Jen answered uninterestingly, the doctor saw many clients who reacted to the news in many different ways but Jen's reaction was beyond her understanding, strangely Jen's reaction was as good as no reaction. Her face was straight, with no emotions just plainly she told her to abort the life inside her. The doctor didn't insist further as its completely Jen's decision.

"Fine, please fill out the form and take an appointment with the reception" Jen completed the formalities, and she went to her house, a very lonely house. Taking out frozen food, she heated the meal while she changed into her pajamas. She refrains to think about the morning incident, she decided to forget once she is done with that thing. Yet, her mind subconsciously warned her, there was still a little human left in the shell of her body. She ate her food in silence, she didn't even bother with the darkness of the room. After dinner, she took three sleeping pills together to make her head stop with any rational thoughts and she just dozed off.

In the morning, Jen didn't appear too confident about her decision. Her hands shiver while she touched her stomach looking into the mirror. She thought the naïve and silly Jen would have cherished this day. She always had the perfect picture of the happy family in her heart, Rick holding a girl and a tiny little boy in her arms, they both posing for a camera while looking at each other with love. Jen has no tears to cry, she just stares at the image of the mirror, the woman in the mirror was vulnerable, not strong enough, she was not even able to carry her weightage of past than how she would nurture a new life. In Jen's head, she thinks that she was born with the curse, she could never have the fortune to have her loved ones in her life, and her fate always brings sorrow into the lives whom she dearly loves.

Shaking her head, she put on her jacket and take her files to the doctor's appointment. Her every step was hesitant, holding her papers she waited for her call in the corridor. It was a mistake to wait with full pregnant women. They all look very happy and radiant. A few women were sitting with their partners and they seem very happy. The air around the room was suffocating, and Jen decided to wait outside until her turn.

Jen was standing near the stairs when she heard a girl cry. She turns on her heels following the sound, she saw a little girl crying and a man bending over his knees trying to console her.

"I don't want him" She yelled in her baby voice.
"Why not, he is going to be your little brother" The little girl frowned.

"I don't want brother" The guy, who must be her dad was confused with the reaction, still he tried to understand the reason.

"so, you want a sister?" The baby looked irritated.

"I don't want any" Folding her arms, she said passionately.

"Dyna, help me understand, why?" Her dad asked patiently.

"Because I don't want to share you" Finally her dad burst into a laugh, and the little girl got more annoyed with the reaction.

"Dad"

"I am sorry princess, it just, I am relieved to know your reason" The little girl perplexed.

"You don't have to share me because you are always going to be my little princess and my top priority." The little girl smiled

"Your little brother will help us to spend more time together"

"How so dad?" She asked innocently.

"Your mom will be too busy with your brother which can give us more time for hiking, shopping and reading" His adorable reasoning wins her a cutest smile but it disappeared immediately, she scrunched her nose.

"I don't want to share mom either" Her dad took the little girl on his lap and look at her adoringly.

"You don't have to because we both will love you more. You will always be our first baby, and once your brother will be born, you will be a big sister that will add more of our love and respect to you. Your little brother going to adore you, see you will be having three people who are going to love you more than anything, that is what family is for, loving and caring for each other."

Anyone could see dad won this battle as the little girl looks excited and happy.

Suddenly, Jen pictured Rick as a dad to the little girl. Rick took the little girl in his arms and smile affectionately. "Family brings love and joy to us, and I would love you forever, just like I love your mom" Jen saw herself beside Rick, smiling at him with love.

This picture melted Jen's heart, her eyes filled with tears and it also reminded her that she is tearing another family from Rick, just like her dad. Rick has a right to know about this baby, she couldn't do this to Rick. Her hand automatically covers her stomach, and this time she actually felt the feeling of having another human in her womb, it's just not a thing. Jen thought of a family, Rick and Jen always craved for a family, and when they were actually blessed with this opportunity, Jen couldn't have the heart to steal that from Rick. So, it was decided, Jen would inform Rick about this kid and they both will decide together about the future of this little tiny person in my womb.

By gathering some courage, Jen decided to dial Rick's number, tears formed in her eyes and emotions choked her. Before Jen even could dial the number, she heard her name being called which startled her, while turning her mobile fell from her hand and to attempt to catch that, she lost her balance long enough to stumble down a few steps before she landed on her stomach. By folding her arms around her waist Jen tried to protect her stomach, but the damage was done. On emergency, nurses rush towards unconscious Jen who was lying down and holding her stomach, surrounded by a pool of her own blood, the anguishing pain and the blood on her hand, that was the last thing she remembered before she blacked out.Jen chanted her last prayers before closing her eyes please save her kid and she was sorry to disrespect the blessing in the first place, please save her kid.

Rick heard her painful scream and he couldn't hold his feet, he run towards her and took her into his arms. He let her cry, a flood of tears broke inside her and it kept on flowing for hours. Rick cradles her lovingly, instead of feeling good, Jen feels more guilt. They both cried, holding onto each other. Both the souls are beyond broken and they both are grieving for their greatest loss. They suffered a lot and their built-up guards over emotions are torn down and they are unable to hide their pain and a broken heart. Rick didn't say a single word but his silence is enough for Jen, she knows he feels her pain and understand her more than anyone.

Between the hiccups, she said " I killed our boy", yes she was into her 14 weeks of pregnancy and she discovered from the doctor later that it was a boy. Rick closed his eyes, He didn't open his eyes, had shut them tightly against the tears spilling from his closed lashes in gulping torrents. Jen's body shook with sobs so forceful that with each she gasped for breath and clutched Rick into her arms tighter.
"Shhh" Rick said brokenly.

"I am sorry" Jen cried again, her grief became his, and her tears mirrored his. Taking a deep breath, he forced himself apart from Jen to just look into her eyes, smoothing her hair and he wiped her tears, while his tears rolled down over his face. Jen froze as she saw tears in Rick's eyes, her hand on her accord reach to Rick's cheek, they both stare into each other, their eyes filled with tears and grief, Rick rest his head against hers and Jen leaned toward him. "Truth, please let me know the truth, Jen" Rick said choked with emotions and finally Jen opened her heart and told him the as it was. With every word, she cried her pain out and Rick listened to her, not interrupting her at all, or in truth, he has no words at that moment, he was reliving her pain.

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