Jen

I wake up feeling light, my senses are working fine now and I am breathing again. The stroke must have been like this what I felt seeing this house, surprisingly a good sleep helped. I tried to move out of the bed but something stopped me, then I realized, this is not something but Rick's arm which wrapped around me, my head rested on his chest and I could hear the thumping of his heart clearly. His arms around my shoulder and I wondered how perfectly I fit into him. I tilt my head and my eyes halts on his face, it's dark outside but enough moonlight shining through the window to see his sleeping feature closely, he is sleeping soundly and peacefully. I keep listening to his rhythmic breathing and my eyes glued to his face, he is the most pleasant sight. Rick, why everything is so complicated? I thought we made progress during our project but.... Why you had to know about our unborn child? Your action always giving me mixed signals about what you want? I accepted your deal because this Jen is not at all that gullible girl what she used to be. Hope this will end soon, I can't tolerate your presence in my life, you brought back all of the pain with that I hardly survived last time.

Slowly I tried to pull myself without disturbing his sleep, it seems more I try, he pulls me more closer. His body is tense as he holds me, as if he is expecting someone to rush in and try to hurt me, or for me to disappear or something. He is possessively holding me, the frown line appears over his forehead and that makes my heart feel estrange things. My hand remotely reaches up to his hairline and my fingers start stroking his forehead soothingly. He relaxes to my touch and unknowingly a smile curl to my lips. A thought snapped me, What the hell are you doing? Abruptly I pulled back, jumping at my side and before I knew what's happening, I found myself pinned beneath Rick. He growls and his eyes darkened, he is breathing heavily and I lost the count of my breaths. Dumbstruck I stare him, his grip on me tighten as he spoke with the gritted teeth.

"What the hell were you doing?" I don't know how to respond.

"I could have hurt you in my sleep damn woman, don't ever do this again" Rick's eyes are still blazing with anger.

"I was just trying to get off myself from you" I retort with the same passion, I won't let him intimidate me.

"What do you mean? I was not holding you" he instantly replied not buying it at all.

"Yes, you are Mister, now just get off from me." I tried to push him away but he doesn't budge, I starts hitting his arms in frustration.

"Stop behaving like a kid, Jen" he snarls, I am breathless and annoyed to death. His grip loosens as he rolled off from me. I caress my arms, I am sure he left bruises on it.

"Did I hurt you?" after pacing in a room for a while, he asked hesitantly. His eyes concernedly scan me and the look of remorse appears as he spots the bruises.

"I am sorry Jen" he shrugs his shoulder in the air.

"You still freak out in your sleep" it came out not as a statement but a question. I reckoned the same few incidents of our past.

"I didn't freak out, it just survival instance, you know." I shook my head, Rick is trying to avoid my eyes because I caught him.

"Whatever" I rolled my eyes.

"But my question stands still, why were you touching me?" And this is my time to freak out.

"I was not touching you" I yell at him.

"I thought I forced you in this but you seem more desperate for it." Stepping near to me, he bends to have eye contact with me.

"Rick"

"See, no Mr. Adam" he sneers at me, making me uncomfortable.

"You don't have to jest about it, I didn't touch you and I have no desire for you at all. Do you get it?" Nearly out of control I shouted at him.

"Fine, I trust you, no need to scream" Is he for a real?

"We need to talk about this situation" Suddenly his features became suffused, and he said, in a serious deep tone. I nodded my head absently, I hate to admit, he is right, we really need to talk.

"This is complex" taking a chair near to the bed, he looked straight right in my eyes, conversing more from his eyes then lips.

"And whose mistake is this?" I snapped back, he smiles which doesn't reach his eyes. He cold eyes warning me, scrutinizing me, but I maintain the confident posture before him, although I feel terrified inside.

"We better not count each other's mistake, or should I say sin?" his voice fills with the disgust and I felt a goosebump over my body. He is referring to his kid again. I moved my gaze away from him.

"Now back to our situation, I need a time, I just can't have sex with you" His words are like a slap on my face, he seems disgusted with the thought of touching me, this insulted my pride. A violent shudder passed over me.

"Do you think I am dying to sleep with you?" I replied fiercely, he is pissing me off.

"You are not, I know this, that's why I initiated this conversation" his voice is calmed and poised.

"You are assuming I am so dying to have sex with you, but that's not true. This is as hard as for you, because sleeping with the killer of my child is not easy, it repulses me" The pain in my head pounded, Rick succeeded to belittled me.

"No offense but before we do things, I want to be comfortable around you" His words are foreign to me, I can't understand a bit. He forced me all the way to this haunted house to reject me.

"If I repulse you that much then why to have a baby with me," I asked in perplex, actually I am curious about his answer.

"Because you are the only woman, I wish to have a child with" I still couldn't believe this vicious man can utter something sweet like this.

"For me it's you, only you, always been you" My heart skipped a beat and my eyes dared to meet his. He looks at me longingly, reaching for me, wanting to enhance the connection between us. I am almost right there in front of him, but we seem like miles apart.

"But that doesn't mean I could have a heart to forgive you, it broke me completely" My heart shattered like broken glass, bursting into million pieces as I watch tear in his eyes.

"Family is very important to me, Jen, that little thing was my blood, it came from our love, why did you kill him?" This time he is not accusing me but asking me.

"Rick please don't" I want him to stop this conversation right here.

"No, I just want to understand, is that because of your panic attacks?" His question caught me off guard, I felt sweat dripping off my forehead.

"What panic attack" I stuttered, clutching my arms.

"Which you had earlier? How frequently you have them?" He leans towards me, he outstretches his hand to hold mine but I pulled back.

"Oh, so this time you are planning to prove me a nut case, aren't you" Rick sighed a frustrated growl.

"I am not trying anything, I just want to talk. Please talk to me, Jen" The way he takes my name, it seems he put his heart into it. It sounds so special and loved. C'mon what you are thinking.

"I have nothing to talk to Rick. Stop manipulating me, what are you implying with this talk?" I feel humiliated and ashamed of myself, Rick found my weakness, he must be laughing thinking how pathetic I am.

"I am just trying to know whether you are healthy enough to have my kid" It made me actually laugh, I laugh until my stomach hurts, Rick looked at me with a bewildered expression.

"Rick now you are concerned, you didn't think before you blackmailed me into this" Rick smile back, I was taken aback with his response.

"I am not at all worried Jen, because you are going to stay with me here until you give birth to my child." I gasped in horror, it couldn't be possible that I got myself trapped again. He played me again. I raised my hand to slap him, but he caught my hand on time, his eyes became stone, like a marble.

"Never try this again" He pulled me to him, while his other hand cupped behind me, forcing me even closer between his legs and against his rockhard chest. We are at eye level now.

"Leave me" I panted, while he stares down me intently.

"No, not until you apologize" his eyes look furious.

"I hate you" I seethed. He smiles wickedly, breathing heavier as well.

"You know you are forcing me to change my mind, keep doing this and trust me I will pound deep inside you" and that makes me stop, I felt defeated. I drop my head down, but he grabbed my cheek and made me look back into his eyes.

"Apologize, I was being nice to you but you had to ruin it" His hands stops around my hip and placed me in place. I squirmed and stared at him icily.

"I won't" He brought his mouth right over mine, almost touching, breathing over my lips.

"I would bite your lips until it bleeds if you won't apologize" I am shocked to hear it, he couldn't do that, would he? My breasts, even under the top feel naked push against his hard chest.

Patience lost, I shoved his chest trying to force him back so I could breathe, but he doesn't move. Not even an inch,

"Stop, Rick, you are hurting me" My words made his body tense, his impulsive eyes roam around my body then to my arm, which clearly bruised.

"Fuck..." He groaned as he freed me hastily.

"Don't do that again" He whispered, his brush his fingers through his hair and glance at me with the same freaking remorse.

"Are you hungry?" He asked out of the blue, I turn my back to him, too angry and too shaken to answer.

"Meet me down in 20 minutes for dinner" Without waiting for my answer he just left.

"I hate you Rick" I screamed behind him.

Rick

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! How the hell you let this happened Rick, you must work on your temper, you don't let Jen's behavior get to you. This will kill the whole purpose dude.. Leaning against the door, I heard Jen's outburst from the inside of the room. She is really mad at me, why wouldn't she? You showed her your violent side again, shit her arms are bruised. You are horrible, Mrs. Karen rightly said you are a piece of shit who doesn't deserve Jen. Actually you don't deserve anything,  your own Mom doesn't want you.

I felt my heart cracked open in two as I reckon my purpose. This would be the end of everything, Jen could have a happy life, her past will be bruied right here and she would be free from her tainted past and can have new life with Daniel. Yes, that son of bitch, he better take good care of her... or else I would kick his ass.

Loving me made her lost everything and hating me has tied her to me. Jen couldn't realize but she hasn't let me go from her life, she is still hooked to me which is again breaking her, ruining her. She would never have the life she deserved until my presence completely vanished from her life.

I love you Jen, I really do. My intense love for you is making me to let you free from our toxic love. I promise that you won't be having any panic attacks in the future, just one last time be with me and let me help you... please my love...

Hello lovelies!!

Hope you will like my surprise and the twist in the story.

Do you really think, Rick would put Jen first over his emotion this time? 

What else Rick is hiding?

Jen would be able to see what's coming?

So JenRick's love story will end from where it started?

I would love to hear about your thoughts.... Please fill me with your theory...

Love, love and loads of love to you..