Jen

I wake up to the knock at a door, my eyes are still heavy with sleep. I frown while literally squeezing my eyes shut, pulling my cover over my head. Gosh, I am sleep deprived, this happens when you do share a bed with a monster. And what an irony, he sleeps peacefully beside me and I was all thinking about how weird the entire situation is...Rick.. his name is enough to rob my sleep away, where is he? I couldn't feel his warmth, damn Jen you really need sleep. What I would give for a cup of hot strong coffee right now!

"Coffee" And my wish come true, his manly voice and the fragrance of coffee is very enticing. Awkwardly, I slipped from the bed to freshen up, without looking at him. When I walked out of the bathroom, his blue eyes caught mine, his eyes studying me and boring into me. I couldn't dare to avert my eyes from him, his eyes hold unreadable emotions and his intensity making me shrink away from him. In a brief of seconds, a million things passing away between us, from the day we met to the day we got a part, and I feel squeezing of my heart. His Revenge has made my heart bleed eternally, my love for him is now broken and hurt. Clenching my hands into a tight fist, I tear my gaze away from his and grab my cup of coffee.

I could feel torturing tension between us, I keep focusing on my coffee, yet my mind is alert around Rick. He is still standing at the same place, not moving, it seems that brief of the moment has shaken him as well.

"Thanks for the coffee" I had to kill this silence, it's killing me. Rick said nothing in response, holding my coffee mug tight, I tried to compose myself. It is more harder than I assumed, its like going on the same road, the heartbreaks, hurt and losing yourself. I can't breathe in the same room with Rick, he is my tormentor and still has the ability to torment my soul. This is so wrong, and I can't go through with it.

"Look" I blurt, moving a cup away from me, I turn around to Rick. His blue eyes turned glacial.

"Backing away already" His voice carried a smug undertone.

"What?" I snapped, in return, he smiles mockingly.

"That's what you do, always a runner" his words, yes it hurts, but it almost always pains I can ignore and keep moving. Yet, I couldn't control the rage that started boiling within me.

"Any problem, instead of facing you choose to run, what best I could expect from the runner, I knew you would run but not this early" his eyes snapped at me with the anger and suppressed emotion.

"That's not true" I cried shrilly, do I? Shut up, you are stronger than this, keeping my head up, I look straight into his eyes with a poker face "Never mind, your judgment doesn't matter to me and I don't owe you any explanation, you are nothing to me" Rick look lost for the word, his rage is gone, and he looks exhausted.

"You Mr. Rick Adam is just a manipulator, who wants a baby from me in exchange for my freedom, a freedom from you. Trust me, I would do anything to get rid of you, if it means to bore your kid for a few months then be it." Rick recoiled as though I had struck him. The muscles of his face tightened, and he stares at me with a calm, frosty rage.

"Glad to know we are on the same page." Huh? I couldn't hide the surprise on my face over his words, this only made him smirks at me with victorious smug.

"Now, can you just get ready. We need to leave" I just nodded on his words, don't know what else to do. I took the quick shower, relishing the moment away from him. I still have the gown of yesterday, yuck but no choice.

"I know you look beautiful in this dress, but it doesn't mean you have to wear this all the time" I was well locked in the shower, his presence makes me cringe in the disgust.

"I left my bag in the car" I snapped back at him.

"That's again my big mistake, isn't it?" he mockingly said like I am dumb.

"You don't need to be rude all the time, I didn't know we are going to stay when I walked out of your car"

"Have you checked the closet?" he asked raising his brow. Instantly, I headed towards the closet and found my bag in there. When did he keep my bag inside?

"Thank me later, get ready. I am waiting in the car" Before I could come with a better comeback, he exits. Damn you, Mr. Rick Adam.

Taking a few minutes, I moved out of my room, holding my bag. I saw Rick smoking and leaning against his car, his eyes are covered with sunglasses, he is looking drop-dead sexy in his white shirt and blue faded jeans. This sight of him used to make my heart skipped a beat but not now anymore.

He throws his cigarette once he saw me and open the door of the car. We started moving in his car with a long-lasting silence.

My heart pounded through my chest as I noticed the arms around my waist, I am floating in the air and moving. I exhale his cologne and my mind stops, Rick is carrying me in his arms, I must have dozed off. Too sleepy or too tired to object this, helplessly I drafted my eyes observing the place. Suddenly I felt my blood freeze in my veins and my heart racing as I saw the familiar woodhouse.

"Stop" I yell in panic.

"Jen" A shiver run across my body, I couldn't think, my vision is getting blur, my eyes are burning with angry tears.

"I said stop Rick" Rick for the first time look nervous, his eyes are softened and I could see the appeal in his eyes. He stops holding me firmly.

"Put me down" First time he didn't argue and let me down.

"Out of all the places in the world, you chose this?" I pointed towards the wood house.

"Jen"

"Oh God, stop taking my name." I put my hand over ears and closed my eyes, turn my back and refused to hold the gaze that pleaded for understanding. I guess I am having another panic attack, this place is freaking me out. My breath chaffing my throat, if I collapsed on the floor in front of Rick, my life wouldn't be worth living. Hold your breath, keep counting, you can do this... Hell I can't do this, I stumble to the side, out of nowhere, my head starts spinning.

Before I hit the ground, Rick caught me in his arms. My teary eyes accusingly stare at him, he gently caresses my cheeks.

"Breath slowly, you would be fine" I am still panting and shuddering badly. His soft whisper doesn't help me.

"Why are you doing this to me?" A painful frustrated expression appears over his face, he struggles for the words. His eyes transfixed on me, he took me in arms swiftly and starts walking without a word.

"No, I don't want to enter in that house" I start yelling and hitting on Rick. When he opens the door, I almost passed out.

Oh, god this house still look exactly how it was when I stayed here, I could picture Mrs. Adam sitting on a couch right in front of the door with hateful glares. My eyes turn to the dining table, I could see me, Rick, Scarlet and Daniel sitting, the kitchen reminded me of my first cooking. I gazed upward to the room, where I stayed for months waiting for Rick, it was my love paradise. This was the place I saw countless dreams with Rick and planned my entire future and this was the place, right over the stairs when I heard Rick saying he did everything for his Revenge. It was the place from where my painful journey started...

Rick is taking me to the room, our room. My tears are unstoppable and pathetic. I hate to be like this before Rick, but I am helpless. I couldn't utter a word, my voice choked in my throat. Rick silently put me on the bed, I am so numb to react. Rick kneeled down to me, a look of pain subtle on his face. He wipes my tears, which couldn't stop. Looking at my face, he tenderly takes my chin in his palm, extends his lips toward my face and looks into my eyes compassionately and attentively.

"I don't know whether you believe it or not, but this is the place where we can get our closure. It all started here and it has to be end here." His eyes are worried and fluffed up. Placing his finger smoothly over my hand, he starts drawing a circle, surprisingly it helps me to breathe slowly.

His eyes study me for what seems like an eternity. My eyes don't waver and I can't tell what he is thinking which scares me.

"This place is very closed to my heart, I have learned and experienced the most beautiful feeling of love, few months with you were bliss." His eyes moist and his voice choked.

"Even at that time, when I wasn't aware of the feeling, I felt for you was love, I never wanted to lose you." His sorrow full eyes pierced through my broken soul, I sighed exhaustedly.

"Rick stop it, there's no point in talking all this" I had enough of this mental torture, I would be dying at any time.

"I know" his voice lowered, so much anguish in his eyes I wanted to yell. Why are you upset, that was me who came out as a fool for falling in your trap!

"You rest for some time, I would make something for you" Rick hesitantly remove his hand from mine, which I didn't know since when I was holding. Also, I didn't notice that my breathing is normal and I didn't have to take medicine for it.

His touch calmed me, his voice soothed me. Holding the doorknob, Rick glanced back to me, his eyes affectionately gaze me and then he walked out of the room.

Taking a deep breath, I looked around. How excited I was when Rick asked me to stay with him, every night sleeping in his arms, blabbering unstoppably, giggling, and smiling until my cheek hurts. Oh god, how I missed that innocent and lively Jen which died at the very moment when Rick's truth came out.

I wipe my tears, I start chanting in my head that I can do this. Rick might be right, we can end all this estrange and hurtful feeling right here, maybe after this I can start living in real. I was lost into my thoughts when Rick reappeared with the tray of food.

He sits beside me, he offered water which I took immediately. Although I recovered with a panic attack, I am still in shock. My head is taking everything slowly, there's no energy left in my body. Putting my hand on his, Rick guided the spoonful food to my mouth, I haven't realized how hungry I am. It is about one in the afternoon, and I didn't have anything since morning, my stomach growls with hunger and I feel embarrassed while Rick feeds me. His eyes are never leaving my face, I took control of the spoon pushing his hand.

"I can eat by myself Rick" I found my voice back.

Rick smile at me "Of course, you can"

"How we are going to proceed, we have to do it now" I couldn't believe I said that.

"Are you offering Ms. Davis?" His mischievous voice offended me, I scoff at him.

"You are too willing, its kind of turn off to me" I mouth gaped open in surprise.

"You wish Rick" I snorted. He smiles back, coming too close to me. His fingers traced lazy circles on my jawline and his warm breath fanned my face. "You don't know what I wish right now Jen" his thumb stroked close to my lips and my breath hitched, catching in my throat. Before I shove his hand away, he takes his hand back. "Little food was there" his voice and this intimacy making me very uncomfortable, I don't know how I am going to ....damn.

"I am tired, I need to nap" He moved to another side of the bed and lay down.

"You are not going to eat?" I asked.

"Later" With this he closed his eyes, I also need a sleep. Finishing my food, I placed the plate aside. I am too exhausted with the things which transpired between us, I also lay down, making a good distance from him. In my sleep I am shivering with cold and in a second the warmth evolved me. The hot breath tickles around my neck, my body covered with the shield and my body relaxed, I feel safe and normal. 

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