Jen

I discovered lying down at night is the hardest part, last night I lay awake staring at the ceiling all night thinking about Rick, his saddened face was constantly floating in front of my eyes. His longing eyes do something to my heart that it stops functioning sensibly and wants to hold him tight leaving behind all past memories. God, why I couldn't stop thinking about him....I shook my head to clear those nonsense thoughts and try to sleep. Due to my twisted toe, I decided to take rest in the afternoon, so I can check the arrangement in the evening but Ms. Watson has another plan. She finds a way to annoy me, like right now she is giving me a severe headache by making noise while flipping the pages. What's her problem?

"Can you please stop flipping those papers?" with this we get into a little fight which ended in my favour as she decided to go out for shopping and she offered me her bed, how generous thought.. mark my sarcasm but I have to admit, I sort of started liking her sass.

Yet, I could not sleep, the last night conversation between me and Rick is not getting out of my head. This is third time he apologised me for his past action and beg me for my forgiveness, it shows he has changed because old Rick never regret his actions and take it what he wants without any hesitation. It's obvious he is changing, I can see through his eyes, his determination to rekindle our relation and make it right this time. But that won't change a bit between us because a girl full of love and believed in its power is now a woman filled with pain, pretending to live while the pain she feels live on, growing deeper and deeper inside her.

I got out of the couch to have a coffee, for nothing than just to distract my train of thoughts. While having my coffee, I check my phone to make sure I haven't miss any important calls...nothing..The only unread messages I have on my phone are from Rick, pain shot through my heart merely seeing his name pop up on my phone, I rub my thumb gently over his name on the illuminated screen. I open his first message "Good night Jen, see you tomorrow" My heart aches, and starts pounding strongly like it is going to pound it's way out of me, I check another message.

"Good morning Jen, hope you sleep well...how's your leg?" I feel tinny butterfly in my stomach, since when he started texting instead of calling, this is cute though... hell what I'm thinking, I press my thumb to check his third message.

"You are good in avoiding me as always. JEN HOW LONG this will continue, you are killing me with your silence but this won't stop me. Anyway, no need to worry about work... take rest love" I read this message again and again until my eyes are so blurred with tears that I couldn't read any more. I can feel my heart flip reading the last line.. "take rest love", he is playing so unfair. This might be simple words to him but for me, ugggg. I don't know when this torture will end, why he can't leave me alone. Can't he see, this never going to work and at the end we both have to endure the pain of losing everything.

And most surprising thing is, his little action still does have bigger impact on me when I thought he doesn't exist in my life. I want this to end at any cost but I don't want to run again like a coward to escape this situation. I have worked so hard to pull myself together after Rick broke me completely. He never cared about my feelings when he ruthlessly broke my family, he didn't say anything when his mother disrespected my dad when he died, he didn't feel remorse for breaking my scarlet's heart and he did nothing to save our love in past than why he is stubbornly want me to forget everything now. I recollect his words, he would stop when I would find love in someone else, then only he will believe that I have moved on from him. This is hilarious because he knows this is quite impossible, because I no longer believe in the joy of love to have special person that makes your heart flutter or makes you want to do better, he has ruined that part of me and I can't have that someone special in my life..

My phone vibrates and the name displays on my screen is of Daniel, I blink my eyes few times and it seems I have my answer, is that a sign of God to show me the way. In the heart wrenching journey of my life, Daniel is the one on whom I can trust. I don't need to hide anything to him as my life is open book to him. Without expecting anything in return, he sticks to me in my thick and thin. I didn't believe when Scarlet told me he has a feeling for me and surprisingly Mrs. Karen also confident that Daniel loves me but how could it is possible when he knows everything about me and Rick. This is insane, the ring dies and I take a sigh of relief but again it start buzzing, hesitantly I picked it this time.

"hello" he sounds nervous.

"Hello Daniel" I greet him back.

"How are you? It seems you forget to attend the call at first attempt" he accuses me in his soft voice teasingly.

"No, I mean I was busy in something" I answer in my defence.

"You are lying, you were staring at phone and thinking whether pick it or not" How does he know, stupidly I look around like he is watching me from somewhere.

"And what else you know?" I ask sternly still looking around.

"You are in immense pain and looking a way out of this pain" this actually startle me, all his words are truth and I don't have any answer for it.

"You don't retaliate, it mean I'm right, see...I'm a magician" he chuckles sadly and continues.. "Ryan informed me that Rick is out working on the hotel project and it didn't take me much to figure it out that he is with whom and for what purpose." Oh, Daniel knows very well how Rick's presence brutally works on me even if I tried hard not to show it to him.

"It's nothing that I can't handle" finally I gather myself and reply.

"I know. Still if you want someone, you know whom to dial." He said it very seriously in his convincing voice, his small gesture lighten my heart.

"You are nice person Daniel" I mean it, although he has been part of the revenge of Rick, he always stood by me emotionally.

"Nice is overrated" he says with a deep sigh "And I'm tired of being just nice person in your life, Jen" My mouth went dry, I don't know what to say. I'm scare to continue this talk as I don't want to lose Daniel.

"Daniel" I almost plead to stop him as I know where this conversation is going, I already had too much for this day.

"I just..." he pause for a moment then continues "I just want to say, anytime if you want someone at your side, all you have to say is one word." The question is do I want someone at my side, to help me to fight with my heart.

"I appreciate this but I have learned to fight my own battles, companionship only makes you weak and I don't want to be weak" I don't need someone just to prove anything to Rick, I can't force myself and play with someone's heart, just for the sake of getting away from Rick. Daniel is much more to me than this, I respect him.

"Then consider myself weak and be with me, can you?" The thing is, he sounds like he is joking, but he also sounds serious. This question burn within looking to the wind for a response, in return I have no answer, he understands and playfully laugh at my reluctance.

"You don't have to answer my stupid question and don't be stranger again Jen. And mind it, next time it would be you who would be calling" this time I can't stop myself from smiling widely.

"Certainly I will" I remember after Rick's incident at his house, I stop talking to Daniel. I start avoiding his call as I don't want to drag him into our mess.

"Finally she smiles" he says huskily, suddenly I'm feeling very shy.

"Thank you and good bye Daniel" In response, he chuckles.

"You are always welcome, bye Jen" with this line got disconnected, somehow he made me feel good after talking with him, even though I didn't share anything, he seems to understand. Typical, Daniel... can he be the healer of my wounds, is he the one my mom referred to in my dream.

My phone vibrates again, this time its Rick and his another message.

"Missing you Jen" my smile vanishes after reading his message and the piercing pain consumes my heart. He is making hard for me to avoid him, I can bear his heart-breaking words but not this messages fill with love. For once, i forget all my reasoning and instantly type the message and quickly i get the notification of delivered.

I freeze at my place,  what have I done, this will just fuel the fire and make the entire situation even worse.

"You are right, I'm looking way out of my pain" i reread my message which i have sent to Daniel.

Hello people!!

This one is short but turning point of this book.. hope you will enjoy!!

Thank you for 58k reads..

Any guesses what's going to happen next??

happy reading!!