Rick

I stare her transfix, unsure what to do, I can feel her body trembling, the terrible weight of her despair. Her hair hanging to hide her face, her teeth clench to prevent her from crying out. Her tears are truly my undoing because I know she has pride and she would never cry infront of me, I admire her for that but it seems she couldn't take the pain anymore and I panicked. I gently sweep her into my arms to put her in comfortable couch to rest. The warmth of her body pressing against me, fitting perfectly in my arms as if she belongs there and only there and yes she damn belongs here with me. The aroma of her perfume and the feel of her embrace making me content, unwillingly I put her on the couch but I'm taken aback when she burst into more tears. I don't know what to do, I quickly dial the number of doctor but Jen refused to see the doctor. I tried to convince her, yet being stubborn she dejected the idea throwing her bitter words on me which agitate me.

"Not enough that I can't bear it" Her words slam against me like a punch to the gut, her words hurt but worse than that, it's seeing the genuine pain on her face. I decide not to fight and started massaging her feet gently to lessen the pain but she shoves my hands away like I disgust her. And I lose my all power to control my temper, I can take anything but her rejection, that makes me to lose my head.

"Shhh" I put my finger over Jen's lips to shut her up, this rebellious girl doesn't know when to stop, does she know she is playing with fire? Calm down Rick, you don't want to hurt her when she is already in pain. I shift my gaze on her feet, surprising myself I bend down on her feet and kiss her wounded feet. Why I always hurt her with my action and words? I don't mean to, but I end up doing so. The guilty tears escape from eyes, wetting her feet.

"Rick" her voice crack in surprise, she lifts my head to look into my eyes and she is almost on the verge of crying too.

"It always end this way, me hurting you" I pause for a moment, taking a deep sigh, it take everything in me not to sob loud "You know you are right, you are better off without me" this is true, we both have tainted past and that will always stay raw between us. If miracle happens and we end up together by any chance, the shadows of our past always haunt our relationship and make both of us miserable. She looks like broken glass, I don't want to hurt her anymore than I already have. She didn't deserve it then, and she doesn't deserve it now but the selfish me who can't sit back and let her go.

"But you don't know one thing, I'm selfish stubborn bastard. I can't leave you alone" she gasp on my words, her eyes wide with fear on my sudden change of the tone.

"Because if it's not you than I don't have any other reason to live for" I couldn't resist the urge of kissing those quivering lips, I've waited enough to claim what's mine. Ms. Jennifer Davis, you are mine and one day you will be mine again willingly that's a promise. I kiss softly on her lips to seal the vow, she is in the shock to react which give me an opportunity to kiss her little longer until she react violently.

As anticipated, she abruptly push me away after coming out of her initial shock and slap me flat across my face, her eyes blaze white hot.

"Don't you dare to touch me, I'm not that dumb girl anymore with whom you can easily have your way Mr. Rick Adam. I won't hesitate to sue you for this." the anger flare in her, despite of feeling angry I stare her with smirk, there is silence in the room as we stare each other's eyes from point blank range. Fuck, what the hell just happened, I should have control myself but her rejection taking a toll on me. If I will force myself on her, she would hate me more. I rub my jaw in frustration and turn back.

"Look I'm sorry, I just carried away in the moment" I said looking back into her fiery eyes.

"Carried away, this is the best reason you come up with for kissing me, stop playing your games Rick" She spit back at him, she eye me resentfully which twitch my heart.

"I'm not playing any game Jen, why can't you understand this" I honestly state the truth, I'm done with lies, she shakes her head in defiance, not buying any of it.

"Rick you always play a game, I don't give a damn what you feel or what are you upto unless it nothing to do with me. We are unfortunately part of this event and I don't quit this project just because of you but don't assume that I will tolerate this sort of your behavior" Wincing, she gets to her feet and starts walking away from me.

"Jen, fine I'm sorry but please stop" I grab her hand but again she slap my hands away.

"Stay away from me Rick, for a god shake please stay away" she scream. Her hatred ignite the rage in me, I grab her arm and force her to stop. Her beautiful face fluster and she fight back to push me away but this time I hold tightly at her place. "That was a mistake, I drifted back to our old days, I gather old habits never die easily. Anyway, Ms. Davis I have no interest in you, I have better and prettier girls around me, then why would I want you? Don't overthink on it." This time I shove her away from me, her face pale with offense, I feel sorry but this was needed, not for anything than to save my little ego.

"Then be with your prettier face rather than harassing me." A smug reappears on my face when the jealousy hit on her face, my lips curl into half smile.

"If I didn't not know you any better, I'd say you are jealous" I wink her to rile her up more, she turn on her heel shaking her head.

"Don't walk on your sprain feet damn stupid woman, since when you became this stubborn?" I bark on her, my every frustration expelling in the words.

"I can take care of myself" She reply drily without looking back hissing in a pain on every slow step. What to do with this girl? Furiously I quickly pick Jen up and throw her over my shoulder. She screams and smacks my back while I walk us to the car. I throw her in and lean down to buckle her in face. She hits my hand away, totally despising me. Climbing into the car, I don't say a word on the way back to hotel, but neither does she.

"Look, I'm sorry." I said it once I stop the car near hotel porch, she starts unbuckling her belt avoiding my words.

"I never want to hurt you again Jen. Why do you hate me this much? You said you forgave me for what I did to you in the past then why are you being so difficult with me?" I helplessly confront her.

My words got her attention, her piercing brown eyes now staring into mine, we share a moment of silence then her words punch me where it hurts, it left me devastate.

"Because I can forgive but never forget what you did to me Rick, that also doesn't mean I solely blame you for what happened but still I can't forget the way you broke me" half-heartedly I nod my head.

"We both can't move on in our lives this way, we need proper closure Jen to have our lives back on the right track" If I'm not wrong I see her face saddened with my words, yet she quickly brush it off smartly and look back at me with empty eyes.

"So, let's have that closure for forever. How do you want this to be?" her words ripped my heart from my chest and squeeze out the blood with her bare hands.

"Jen, I want you to know how sorry I'm for doing whatever I did to you in the past, though you know very well I had reasons. I never cared about a single soul in my whole life the way I do care for you, I don't know how to take that memories back but even in that dark I found a light in you and I.." my voice choke with emotions, I bang my hand against the steering wheel in annoyance for being this weak before Jen. I couldn't dare to look into her eyes because I can't bear her hatred anymore.

"First time I fucking hope that I can also have a happy life with someone, you were my that hope Jen" I hear her soft sniffle and I know she is crying too. Swallowing the lump in my throat, I continued.

"But it was a fat lie of my life, I died thousands of death on that day when you walked out of my life, blaming me for what happened on that day. I accepted that with heavy heart, it might be toxic relationship for you but it was the only time I ever lived in my life and I want you to know that I will cherish those moments till my death and I will always love you" this time I dare to glance over her face, she is already staring me with red eyes, her nose and cheeks red with the cry.

"Why are you saying this? Perhaps, you are doing it on purpose to make me weak again, so I can run back into your arms, aren't you?" I smile bitterly, she always assume worst of me.

"No, I just want to let you know that I could not move on in my life unless you move on in your life." her eyebrows furrow in confusion.

"What do you mean?" she ask, confusion visible in her eyes.

"I want you to live your life Jen" I answer.

"Can't you see I'm living my life already?" she exasperatedly replied.

"No, you are not living your life. You are just a body without soul, you became a person who loath every good thing around her. The girl who used to be lively, spontaneous and happy, she seems to forget to smile." She chuckle bitterly and this is my turn to get dumbstruck.

"You know why she is not that girl anymore because that girl died Rick, this is new me and I'm happy whoever I'm. You don't need to worry, I'm making you free from your all guilty consciousness, hope this can help you to move on in your life." she said looking straight into me. She is very adamant about this, she couldn't see what I'm imposing, she is not happy without me. She still do love me which she is stubbornly refusing, if she wants me to get out of her life then she has to prove me that she is happy without me in her life.

"Let me get this straight to the point Jen, if you want me out of your life then you have to be happy in your life with ..." its killing me to say that but I have to do this, if not with me then I want her to be happy with someone in her life, moral of the story is I want her happy in her life, first time I want to be selfless for her.

"I want you to be happy with someone else, I want to see you move on then only I will stop bothering you otherwise I will strongly assume I still hold your heart and I will pursue you." her sad eyes again turn into fierce.

"This is insane, you cannot force anything into my life" she squeal in fury.

"First time in my life I'm talking something very wise, if you don't love me then what's bothering you to move on, you cannot be single rest of your life" I know I'm getting her to see my point, actually this is the best closure for both of us. I won't deny I would die rather than seeing her with someone else but this could also be my chance to be back in her life when she will finally realise it's me who she wants, who she loves. But what if, she finds her happiness in someone else... then be it, at least one will be happy at the end.

"Maybe I'm done with the relationship, I don't want any man in my life" she sharply replied.

"Then chose a woman, anyhow I want you to be with someone then only I will be out of your life or else make habit of my presence in your life. I would never leave you alone sweetheart, actually selfish me want you to defy me and allow me to stay in your life." her constant denial from moving on with someone in her life is only raising my hope to be with her, I chuckle when she frown at me.

"You cannot dictate my life Rick, your presence doesn't make any difference in my life which mean I don't have to agree on any of your term. Hope we got our socalled closure, goodnight." She got down from the car, still struggling on her feet.

"It's true than, that you still loves me." this stop her, she turn back giving me most ugly stare and I can't stop grinning ear to ear.

"It's tempting idea to choose any random guy just to get rid of you out of my life but this means to follow your rule which I will never do" her words are full of venoms, this excite me further, I'm definitely turning into psychopath.

"Ms. Jennifer Davis, you can never escape me because I'm nowhere but there in your heart" Her face drop, did I hit the nerve, how badly I want to kiss her again.

"You are gone mad" she walk a little, shock written all over face when I take her in my arms in bridal style.

"Let me walk you to your door" she clutch my shirt, she wants to rip my hair off from my head but she holds back when she observes a crowd around us, I'm sure she doesn't want to attract the crowd and I indulge this opportunity to have her close to my heart.

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