Rick

I look around to the people who are laughing, dancing with their companion, few are madly in love or few are just looking for one nightstand, in both way they are happy not alone, they are not invisible like me in this loud crowd. This is not new to me, whole life I kept distance from the people, not wanted to have any emotional connection as I had my own battle to fight, until Jen. I stifled a sigh, almost lose my breath. I find lump lodges itself in my throat, and my soul ripped away from my body recollecting her venomous words. I want to forget this unbearable pain which is making hole in my heart, however the quantity of alcohol I have consumed doesn't helping me at all. I hate the feeling of being less than one hundred percent in the control, I became fragile and I disgusted with myself for it.

I took the large gulp of drink quickly, enjoying the burn of alcohol running down my throat. I wiped my mouth, I glanced over the cocaine, last time I almost died with the overdose of drugs, the day I saw Jen in the Richard's for the first time, I thought I would never need this shit again. How stupid I was, she has moved on, you were fool to assume you had any chance with her. I caressed the drugs, don't think Rick, take it. This will help you to escape this burning pain, take it.

I put the drugs in paper and rolled it properly, I inhaled it deeply like a cigarette. Again taking a large dose, I am feeling fine now though I am tired, feeling dizzy and I feel lot of pressure in my eyes. A bitter smile curved on my lips, the music flooded everywhere, everybody is grinding themselves with other.

"Having fun alone?" A sexy voice invade my privacy, my blurry eyes slowly drifted to the voice, a beautiful brunette standing before me.

"What do you want?" I hastily roared, she flashed disturbingly seductive smile, then I actually observed her. She is wearing strapless dress which fit her body like a glove, it came to her mid-thigh showing her sexy long legs, and her killer heels are to die for. She moves to sit at my left.

"Can I join you handsome?" she is beautiful meat of piece, but her face is hard and ugly with the lust. She rub her hand intimately on my thigh, licking her red lips. Maybe this is what you want Rick, it's been a while since I had some female company. When I didn't oppose her advances, her face light up and her hands moved​ upwards shamelessly. A desire erupted inside me, no Rick you are not in your senses. I clenched my jaw and glared at her, I was about to shove her away from me, my phone ringed.

"Hello" I answered without checking my phone.

"Where are you bro?" it's from Daniel, so he finally got the time to check on me.

"How did you get time for me, I thought you are busy with your lady love" those words were bitter on my mouth, I hate it.

"Rick, its not what you are thinking. Common, tell me where are you?" I felt like crying, I love this man, he is my bro but he is my greatest competitor too. He is the best, a dream man for every girl, a perfect match for Jen, I always knew one day I will lose her to him and I think it's happening.

"I am in better place, enjoying, hav...having a party of my life, you know why? I am free man again" I smiled and tried to sound excited.

"You can join me if you want, the night is still young." Secretly I want him to be with me, rather than sitting here alone.

"I..actually.." he sounds uncomfortable, he hesistate, it means.. it means he is still with her, this late. A pinch of jealousy flicks my chest.

"You are with Jen, isn't it" I asked even I knew the answer.

"Rick, she is ..." I grip my hand into fist, I saw all red before my eyes.

"Don't bother, she means nothing to me now. Have fun" with this I disconnected the call, my phone buzzed again, in my anger I switched off the phone. The brunette frightened, her face paled, she got up from seat to move away from me but I grab her arms and drag her with me in a private lounge. Once I entered the room, I pinned her to the wall, I brushed her long and attractive brunette hair and crashed my lips on her. If Jen can enjoy her life than why should I cede myself for her, I never touched​ any women after Jen because I don't want to forget her touch, her kisses, her body beneath me, the moment was pure heaven which I don't want to share with anybody, only with her. Stop it, don't think about her, if you will have another girl than may be your pain will fade away Rick.

I deepen the kiss wrapping my arms around her waist, initially the brunette was shocked but later she openly reciprocate to my kiss clenching my hair. She started unbuttoning my shirt, I hurriedly open her zip, her beautiful mounds revealed. I sucked her neck, biting her flesh, I felt myself aroused. She is rubbing herself on me, I groaned when her fingers touched me below, I closed my eyes, she started kissing me sensually and slowly she is on her knee, her hands reach to my belt, struggling to unbuckle me. I closed my eyes enjoying the pleasure, a beautiful smile appeared in my vision, her soft moan and shy kisses. Her beautifully flushed face, her brown messy hair on the pillow, her half close eyes and the words which jolted me to life.. I love you Rick.. tears made home in my eyes, I shook my head to clear my vision ..but her innocent hurt eyes stared me.. I am all yours and you are mine Rick ..only mine. In fraction of moment, I shoved the brunette away from me.

"What happened?" She asked me with surprised expreasion, I don't even look at her.

"Get out" I whispered lowly.

"What?" Her voice puzzled.

"I said get out" I punched the wall furiously, I heard her screamed​ in fear, she quickly straighten her cloth and hurriedly exited from the room.

I am very angry on myself, why I can't get over her. She is the only thing in my mind, I can't cheat on her, logically it's not cheating as we are not together yet my heart doesn't allow me. My body, my heart and my soul are not mine at all, they belongs to her, they worship her..Fuck.. I cursed under my breath, jerking back my arms I hit the wall again, and again, and again until the blood smeared my knuckles, I screamed in frustrated anger mixing with the increasing pain, landing on my hands and knees, tears streaked my face, but they are tears of my defeat. Yes, I am miserably failed in the department of love.. she said I ruined her life, she don't want me in her life because I am destructive for her, yes.. damn it.. I am bad person, I don't deserve anybody's love, I am cold hearted bastard, I played with her to destroy her family.. I am a monster.. Argh.. I yelled out of fury.

But did she even know, I never had a choice at first place, I never planned my life this way, I wanted to have a normal life, a happy life with my family. Who did this to me, her father.. he came in my life and crumbled my innocence and turned me into monster. I was young, broken, shaken up boy, the boy who saw his family's demises. I saw the pain of my Aunt Emily, who was cheated, abused and raped, my father got killed, my mother suffered a mental trauma and became aggressive. Despite of everything I learnt to love her, I did some unforgettable thing to her, but it was necessary for David to have the taste of his own medicine, I felt guilty for hurting my innocent Jen and Scarlet but do I regret, No... David Milano deserved it, I am happy he experienced the feeling of helplessness when people point the finger on your girl, the feeling of powerless when your money can't buy happiness for your girl..Yeah, if this makes me monster then yes I am monster... She doesn't want me in her life, fine... I am done begging, if she can't see my love then she doesn't deserve my love.. Jenifer Milano... You will get to see new Rick, who don't give a fuck, what you feel or whom you love.. I lost my family and I will pertain I lost you too, Ms. Jenifer David Milano, you don't exit for me anymore, though my heart will always cherries the short span of time which I spent with my Jen, the memory of her love filled eyes and her smooth touch would be enough to survive.

I wiped my tears, my eyes are heavy and red. I brushed off the thought of Jenifer Milano, I removed pills from my pocket and took four pills at a time, my eyes grow heavy and my vision getting blurred. I bounced on the floor, I blinked my tears and luckily sleep engulfed me...You mean nothing to me Ms. Jenifer Milano.. this was the last thought in my mind before closing my eyes.

Jen

Since three days, I did nothing, I was home arrest, and courtesy goes to Mrs. Karen. She literally taken care of me like her own child, she feed me all healthy and nutritious food, she didn't allow me out of my bed. Few times I argued and even made a rude comment, but this didn't affect her at all, secretly I loved the way she pampered me. On the other hand, Daniel and Mrs. Karen became a pact, she called him over dinner every night. Daniel always offered her a hand for kitchen, and they chat unstoppably. I hate to admit but I like the giggles, jokes and family environment around me after long time. I miss my family, especially Scarlet. Daniel was kind enough to let me hear her voice, he always put her on speaker while talking to her. This was the best gift I ever asked, I found Daniel and Scarlet are sharing a very special bound, they genuinely cares for each other. Although I was happy in last three days, but the thought of Rick scares me. He didn't call me when I had taken a day off, as far I know him he would have look for a reason to reach me. My mind had more time to dwell on what happened between us, his agony filled eyes and his hateful words.. somewhere I know I broke him this time. How many times I thought to ask Daniel about Rick, but my lips couldn't fathom any word, what should I ask him? This will only give Daniel a hope, he will think I want to rekindle my relationship with Rick, I sighed frustrated. Whatever happened, it was for good, Rick understood we don't have any future.. I am very nervous to resume Richard's, at the same time I really want to be there...God...stop thinking Jen.

I took my bag, gave a final check to myself before heading off to office. Mrs. Karen texted me five times to assure that I am fine enough for the work. I love this woman, she is precious to me.

As usual the office seems quite busy, everybody is minding her or his own business, they carrying out their daily routine. Like other I started my work, my eyes couldn't help to stop myself for glancing over camera, is he there? A soft knock startle me, gently rubbing my temple I looked at my door.

Who else, Ms. Watson is standing at my door holding a coffee mug, she smiled nervously.

"Good morning, Ms. Davis, coffee for you" she walked to me and put the coffee mug on the table, she was the one who was laughing at me behind my back and now she behaves so kindly...bullshit!!

"Ms. Watson, I asked you not to bother yourself for my coffee, and I don't like to repeat myself" her brighten face drop quickly, do I care..no.

"I am sorry Ms. Davis for my rude comment, trust me I didn't...." I cut her in between.

"I don't need your sorry as I don't give a damn what you think Ms. Watson, don't give yourself so much of importance, you words doesn't bother me" Her eyebrows scrunched together, and she glared angrily at me.

"Is there anything else you would like to ask?" I was little hostile.

"Nothing Ms. Davis" she turned on her heels furiously, shutting the door loudly. I shook my head at her childish act. I don't want her to have a privilege of humiliating me again, this is the best way to keep people as far as possible.

In the afternoon, a meeting called in conference. Surprisingly​, the two people are sitting there for few minutes as Ryan got stuck with something, yeah its me and Ms. Watson.

We both silently busied ourselves into our files then on our phones, I am getting agitated sharing the space with Ms. Watson, I used to like her but after finding her true colour, her presence annoys me.

"Where is Mr. Ryan? And how long I need to wait here?" I asked edgily.

"You have a phone, why don't you call by yourlsef to check where he is?" she hastily replied me.

"It's you who get paid for the position of his PA, not me." I snapped on her.

"And I did call him, he texted me he got stuck somewhere and asked us to wait. What else you want me to do?" she retorted back. I decided to wait for Ryan rather than screwing my head with Ms. Watson.

After exactly half an hour her phone vibrate, she answered on a first call.

"How is he?" she asked slowly, her expression drawn and a very worried look crossed her face.

"Have you called the doctor? Do you want me to come?" With whom she is talking to, hope everything is fine.

"Fine, I will reschedule the meet" so, its Mr. Richards, she signed me that meeting got cancel. I got up from my seat to leave, I heard last word of Ms. Watson and I felt the ground slipping from under my feet.

"Take care of Rick" what happened to him, sweat started dripping down my eyebrow, I could taste the fear resting on my tongue, hope he didn't do anything crazy. I turned to Ms. Watson, who disconnected the call and staring me strangely.

"What? its not my fault that meeting got cancel?" how I should ask her? but I want to know what happened to him.

"Umm... I know.. it's just.." she is looking me in surprise, control on yourself Jen, I cleared my throat.

"Hope Mr. Ryan is well, you mentioned Doctor.. just concern about his health" she raised her brows in disbelief and wore a slight smile on her face.

"He is well Ms. Davis, I thought you guessed already that I was talking to Mr. Richards, is there something else you want to ask me, trust me I will enlighten you with the detail answer" She gave me knowing look, did she found out for whom I am concerned.. I don't think so..but if I will enquire further then she definitely will.. anyways Mr. Richards is with him.

After that I tried to focus on my work, though it was meaningless.. my mind drifted to Rick.. why the hell this man never let me have a normal life... I went home early, Mrs. Karen was busy so I was alone at home. What to do? I want to know how he is? should I call him.. eventually I dialled Ricks number which went to voice mail... shit.. anxiously I hold my head between my hands, whom should I contact? I already tried Mr. Richards number who is not answering my calls, whom else I should try, I am sure Ms. Watson won't help me. Suddenly, a name popped in my head, Daniel must be knowing about his whereabouts, quickly I dialled his number, thank god he answered my call.

"Finally you dialled my number" he sweetly said.

"Daniel, umm.. can we meet if you are not busy?" I asked him hesitantly, he would refuse if he is with Rick.

"Why, not? Do you want me to pick you?" My heart drop with his question, he doesn't know or this also indicates Rick is well.

"No need , I will meet you at diner close to my house, hope its fine with you" I asked.

"I'm on my way" he sounds good, Ms. Watson sometimes exaggerate the things, Rick must be fine. Perhaps, I should cancel the plan with Daniel.. no that would be rude.

I reached at diner, waiting for Daniel. He showed up little late, his face lost his charm, he looked worried.

"What happen Daniel?" I asked him.

"I just got a call from Ryan..I need to rush, sorry Jen" my heart thump hearing his words.

"Why? Is everything ok?" the words trembled on my lips, he looks uncomfortable, he couldn't meet my eyes.

"Daniel, please say something" I pleaded.

"This is about Rick" with those words my world started collapsing and I became numb..

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