Jenny’s POV  

“ Fuck !! YOU “ She called out loud after knowing that it’s Cabir, who came inside not her P.A Nia. 

Seeing him, only added fuel in her erupting anger “ what the fuck …. How did you get inside  ? wait….why are you here in the first place ? ” she got up from her chair while raising her tone at him.

He stood, with his head hung low in shame and not able to look up at her. 

Jenny’s breath turned uneven due to the sudden rush of emotions in her, The images of last night flashed in front of her eyes, The amount of disgust and loathing she felt for him was countless. If it was in her hands, she would have sent him again to his mothers womb and never let him be born in this world. Last night he crossed all borders and boundaries that she had set up by doing such a shitty act that she never expected from him. 

True though, she knew that Cabir isn’t a genuine or good person for her after her break up nevertheless she thought that he could stoop so low just to prove that he can do anything he wants with her. How creepy and shitty a person could he be ? even thinking about him now gives her a migraine. 

“ Get out now, otherwise I'm calling the securities' ' burning him under her hateful gaze. She warned him using her authoritative tone while getting her teeths at him in sheer irritability. 

And that’s when he looked up meeting her hateful gaze he gulped down the lump of nervousness created in his throat before saying “ Jenny…please….gimmig five minutes after that i’ll leave and wouldn’t show my face to you ever…..i promise “ the hesitation in his voice and the glumness on his face blend well with what he said. 

Sensing his twichiness, Jenny nodded and sat down along with gasturing him to take a seat in front of her. 

Nodding at her he was slightly limping while walking to the chaira, she felt so proudiciouse to see him struggling to sit down without moving his lower body much. The effect of her kick on his balls was clearly visible. 

“ speak up, i don’t have a whole day for your bullshits “ she knew, it was harsh to be this way and she also knows that he deserves more than this.

Scratching the back of his neck, Cabir looked around before speaking up “ i….actually….i’m sorry for last night i know my sorry won’t be enough compared to what i did….but i just…..i huh “ he stammered while still gathering words mentally. 

“ If you're here to seek forgiveness, then let me tell you….what you did is unforgivable and unforgettable Cabin….” she stated the fact, staring straight at him. 

Her look was indimadating him that he had to look away. 

“ i know….what i did was cheap and unforgivable act…..” he said 

“ i accept that i didn’t entirely moved on from you….but i was trying ….to get over with you….and last night when i saw you again, your presence awaked all those memories of us….you…inside me….and i was ferocious on myself for doing such a grave a stupidity of letting you go away from me……to overcome those feelings i drank like maniac “ he explained regretting the moment of last night when he took heavy dosage of drugs after alcohol,  only to lose his sense completely. 

“ Not reasonable enough compared to what you tried to do with me, '' she said with a stern look. 

“ i was on drugs, “ he added,

“ That doesn’t count as a reason for what you did  “ she returned back clenching her jaw. 

The instant glossiness spreading over his eyes Cabir spoke again “ i’m sorry….again…i just wanted to tell you that whatever i did last night was purely out of my sense, i’m known of my behaviour….i’m not so good person but i’m not that bad either…..it’s just i lost my sense “ 

This morning when he woke up with a pain between his legs that made him recall last night's act of him, which caught him in guilt. He’s not a gem of a person, like any other human beings he too has his own flaws and mistakes along with selfishness but never in his dream he had thought of forcing himself on any woman, including Jenny. 

Face palming himself, he regretted doing what he did to her in the daze of alcohol and drugs. He knows he can’t entirely fault drugs because it was his own choice to consume such an addiction that led him in a context where he can’t forgive his own self. It was the very moment he realised that his addiction to drugs took control over his mind and he needs to stop this before it gets too late.  

Any addiction that becomes a poison for your ownself is not addiction anymore but suicide. Yes, when people willingly makes decisions to consume this kind of addiction just for to pleasure of couple of hours but apart from that pleasure there would be suffering and health issues also which one may choose to ignore in the daze and control of addiction,  using drugs or alcohol it can lead to changes in the brain, which can lead to mental health issues including paranoia, depression, anxiety, aggression, hallucinations, and other problemsThe drug addiction affects your brain and behaviour to the point where you can’t control yourself anymore. Therefore after consuming drugs people can not differ between their unethical actions and behaviours. 

Drug addiction can start with experimental use of a recreational drug in social situations, and, for some people, the drug use becomes more frequent. For others, particularly with opioids, drug addiction begins when they take prescribed medicines or receive them from others who have prescriptions.

With Cabir the use of drugs started as a diversion from his stressful and not so peaceful life. But As time passed, he needed larger doses of the drug to get high. Soon his need for the drage increased just to make him feel good. As his drug use increased, he realised  that  it's increasingly difficult for him to go without the drug. 

Many people don't understand why or how other people become addicted to drugs. They may mistakenly think that those who use drugs lack moral principles or willpower and that they could stop their drug use simply by choosing to. In reality, drug addiction is a complex disease, and quitting usually takes more than good intentions or a strong will. Drugs change the brain in ways that make quitting hard, even for those who want to.

The same case is with Cabir, who started using drugs as a diversion from his stressful life and disappointments, along with his few break up stories that somewhat hurted him. But soon as the time passed he got addicted to it, and before he could realise the drug began to consume him. 

But after last night, he understood that his addiction isn’t only consuming him but also affecting other peoples around him. He surely was jealous when Jenny unbotherly danced and enjoyed herself so much in front of all the audience in the club. He wasn’t happy with what he saw in Jenny, she was happy without him while he’s not. That’s the truth even if he denied to accept it, he’s not happy without her and he realised it only after leaving her. And till the time he realised this, it was already too late. In order to calm his racing nerves he took drugs in a such a dangerous dosage  that he lost his control on his mind and actions. 

With the morning sun rays falling on him, Cabir got his senses back and had know what next he had to do. 

“ I've realised and I'm willing to rectify my wrong doings….. “ his words come out sombre. 

There was a stony silence as he waited for her reply. 

Leaning back on her chair Jenny crossed her legs on each other while she was unsympathetic to him. None of his words made peace with her. But his explanation surely did makes her think twice about taking legal action against him. 

After the rushful morning and her meetings, Jenny had got a few minites for herself and in that meantime she had a self discussion of taking a legal action on Cabir for the sexual assults he did. Before she could reach a conclusion the piles of work happened to her. 

“ Look Cabir, just because you have realised your wrong deeds and being guilty about it doesn’t mean that i’ve to forgive you…..cause you have given me the worst few minutes of experience that I would  never be able to forget even if I wanted to. For me, You’ll  always remain as a pathetic cheap man who tried to molest me…..your sorry will not fix my fear of getting sexual assult if i drank a little to chill and have fun with my friends…….. Forgiveness is a far thing, I don't even want to breathe the same air of yours …..“ her words weren’t less than a knife for him, and little he knows he deserves all of these sharp and bitter sayings from her. 

She can’t put up a fake sympathy just because he’s guilty about what he did. Doing drugs and losing sense was his own choice, she can’t imagine what must have happened if she didn’t fight back with him and protect herself from him. 

“ I'm still sorry, and I've decided to stop taking drugs, “ he said, lifting his gaze up at her. 

With a serious look she said “ good, now get your ass out from my cabin and company “ 

Cabir node while getting up from the chair and walking out, but he stopped and turned around “ if not now, i will hope you will forgive me someday….bye” with that he left. 

She knew she was harsh with him, but it wasn’t her fault that he didn’t something irreversible to her that she can’t even think about forgiving him. Even though he realised his mistake and was willing to seek forgiveness from her, she was still not ready for this conversation and his presence. The incident is still fresh in her mind and it keeps reminding her how helpless she felt for a moment while he was forcing her. 

Jenny sighed heavily, taking her face in her palms she inhaled and exhaled for a few seconds to  calm her racing her heart. The conversation with him was too exhausting and mind-eating for her.  

Few minutes passed as she realised that she needed to get back to her work. Connecting with Nia via intercom she asked “ why my black coffee not on my table yet ? “Since her headache got worse after Cabir, she became irritable for not having her coffee. 

“ Sorry ma’am, there was some minor issue with the coffee machine, I'll get your coffee within a minute “ came an apologetical reply from Nia who described the issues to Jenny. 

“ Okay, and next time don’t let anyone into my cabin without asking me or an appointment “ Jenny hung up and resumed her work. 

After a good few seconds the intercom rang again, Jenny rolled her eyes tiredly before answering “ what ? “ It came out a  bit older than she wanted. 

“ Ma’am Mr.Ryan Dixit is here to meet you “ came a calm and composed voice of Nia.

“ lead him to my cabin and send TWO COFFEES for the gods sake “ she literally yelled at the coffee part before putting back the receiver with a thud. She didn’t know why her coffee is getting delayed today otherwise. 

She furiously typed on the laptop while her mind re-played what Nia said. 

Mr. Ryan Dixit.

Mr. Dixit

“ ohh fuck, last night  it was Mr. Ryan Dixit  “  she exclimed as she recalled and realised that it was Mr.Ryan Dixit whom she met last night, while she was drunk.

she lost the colour of her face “ Wait, drunk ? met Mr.Dixit ?  fuck my life “ 

**********************************

A/N

Need COMMENTS!!!