Authors POV 

Are you a morning person or  night owl  ? 

Morning person, Ryan replied without a second thought. 

He doesnt like nights,  it brings darkness closer to him. 

one person you dislike the most? 

* dislike ? i loath my fucking dead father * he thought 

No one with a smile he answered.  

What scares you the most  ? came an intent question.

*sexual touch of woman * He wanted to say that out loud, but he knew he couldn't , so he composed himself and demanded more clarity about the  question as in ? 

As in general, what kind of thought  scares you the most ? she asked again, but this time with  more added words that clarifies him.

not being  Ryan Dixit..that thought scares me the most '' he  came up with a savage reply that got everyone who were present in the room smile .

Nivi Nocholas smiled, the young and beautiful reporter who was asked to interview Ryan Dixit for a global magazine. 

What would be your answer to people who call you lucky ?asked Nivi.

lucky ? he chuckled sarcastically and replied hard workdetermination to achieve success and dedication to keep working no matter how success i am..its nothing to do with luck his words were sharp enough to cut the crappy comments of peoples who called him lucky,not able to digest his growth. 

Its been a week since Ryan Dixit became a sensational topic as he won EY Entrepreneur of the year award. Being a founder and CEO of his brand RetrO, that manufactures and produces  fashion clothings. Ryan Dixit will now represent his country at the EY World Entrepreneur of the Year award(WEOY) which is going to be held next month. 

Awards never fascinated him but appreciation and recognition about his hard work and passion. 

He has been working and working hard constantly since the day one he stepped  in this business field. Failures and losses were there, always  but he never gave up and stood stubborn on his chosen path . And now after years when he is getting all the media attention and peoples applications that he deserved along ago,  he felt righteous for not giving up. 

Nivi smiled warmly, no doubt she was impressed  with the way  he patiently listens to her and answers her questions without showing any irritations. Looking at the  camera that was recording their interview from the past half an hour Nivi made sure that the frame was clear as she adjusted her mic a little, and turned to Ryan who was waiting for this interview to end but he didnt make it obvious on his face.  

Looking down at her questions cue card that she prepared for him Nivi asked youre too young to have such flair for business, from whom or where you mastered  ? 

Ryan thought for a moment and replied from my own Failures and lose,   

Till this date he cant forget how horrible he felt after losing his first ever project. That disappointment within him and the regret for making a wrong choice along with lack of business adroitness ate him alive till he worked on his expertise until he  cracked another deal and got his second project auspiciously.  

Nivi node, looked for the next question about his dating life though she felt that its too personal to ask yet she had to as her higher officials sent her to get this task done and she isnt in position to ignore their demand. Since Ryan has been very quiet about personal life with the media, people never got to know whats going on in his  life other than business. The curiosity to know what hes preserving as private in his personal life got people edgy for him. Now, the majority demands the information  of his personal life like if hes dating anyone or if he already found his soulmate and soon to be married etc. 

Being in the media for years Nivi knows how to get her answer without upsetting the celebrities. She smiled and asked her question trickly how come you being such a stunner that anyone could be misunderstood as a ramp model and yet there aren't any  single rumours of your dating life ?  

Ryan shifted uncomfortably in his place still maintaining his thoughtful face when he replied umm, its not about just the looks you know.i didnt find anyone that attractive yet he lied with perfection, looking straight at her. 

Needless to say he lied about it. Because he met womans who were attractive and beautiful but its just him who didnt want to be attracted to women because eventually  he knew where it would lead him. Perhaps he was too conscious about his phobia to invest his thoughts in a woman. being known of himself thats stuck in a darkness he always ignored and avoided to be in contact with a woman hes comfortable with. He had excused himself whenever  womens showed interest in him. He simply couldnt let that happen after coming to a conclusion by himself  that sex plays a major role in relationships and if he cant satisfy a woman whos in love with him then it would be  unfair to her. Hes not a relationship material and he was stick to it adamantly. 

May be he didnt saw the kind of relationships that exist without the pressure of sex satisfactions because, The major part of relationship is to be loved and letting yourself to love your partner beyond the insecurities and vulnerabilities. Of course sex matters, but not more then the one you claim to love.  

No one ? For real you didnt find any attractive woman that you met till now.  that was the instant reaction of Nivi.

He shrugged instantly.

*May be Jennifer Oberoi*

 his breath hitched when his mind reminded him about Jennifer out of nowhere. He hated his mind for randomly suggesting Jennifer when the Interviewer was asking about attractive womens. Well he would like to specify Jennifer as a captivating woman rather than attractive. Because every woman is attractive and beautiful but not every attractive woman will be as captivating as Jenny is, in eyes of Ryan. 

His thoughts went back to the day he officially met her in her own  office. That  was one hell of a day for him to stop staring at her and focus on the meeting. He was completely blown away by the purity  of her smile. The energy and positivity she had within herself was reflecting through her eyes each time she smiled, genuinely. Her yes, he still remembers how they shined each time when  she looked at him. He knew, its not about her being the beautiful one that caught his attention but her lively soul. She was captivating, in a lot of senses that he couldnt describe but only feel. But after that day  he made sure about not seeing her as anything else apart from Business partner. He doesnt want to start something that he cant get over later. Relationships  and women arent for me. He told himself. 

His trance of thoughts broke when he heard Nivis intent. 

That means you never been in any relationships till now ? Nivi asked again to get a proper verbal answer from him  because Ryans answer was pretty unbelievable for her as she herself knows that hes too good to be single all this while. He is hot, gentle and intelligent that any woman would love to be with and him saying that he didnt find any one interesting was unsettling for her.   

Ryan cleared his throat before saying i would appreciate if we stop discussing about my personal life for now, and i would surely make an official  announcement if i met someone special in future he didnt wanted to give topics for rumours and gossips by  saying that  hes not interested in relationships because the last time he said that in a interview and  people nearly questioned his gender. 

He is genocidal and he cant let that secret out of him for the cruel world. Hes insecure and afraid to let people know about it. He knows his phobia is curable and if he took the right medications and treatment he might get well but hes too insecure to let anyone know that theres a fearful and unassertive personality behind his intimidating, intelligent and powerful businessman persona.  He doesnt want people to know that theres another side of him apart from being the businessman Ryan Dixit.theres this insecure, unhappy and scared side of him that he always tends to hide from the world.  

Nivis smile dropped as she didnt get her expected answer from him. Clearing the air of despondency she put on a smile and asked the next question about his lined up projects and how he feels about being honoured and awarded as Businessman of the year at such a young age. Ryan expressed his gratitude and how thankful he is to those people who knowingly or unknowingly gave him a reason to do best of him which led him to success. He also added that he will not take this honour for granted and will definitely do something innovative and useful for  the society  that made him stand out. 

After another half an hour the interview finally came to an end, and the crew member left after greeting and congratulating him.

Ryan threw his head back and sighed heavily as soon as the media people left his office. 

He desperately wanted a fresh breath of air, but the interview was important for him since his product launch event is near and he cant take risks with the media. This is his peak time, hes well aware of the fact  that hes the sensational talk of the town at present and if he uses this opportunity well  his new product will reach out to more customers in a short time. Besides, the partnership with Oberoi industries isnt only because of the investing part. Oberoi industries is a prestigious and promising industry since many years, and as his new product is a result of partnershipping with Oberoi industries which is already famous among peoples so he doesnt have to put so much of efforts in publicity  and promotions. The Oberoi industry itself is a promising brand that people have been aware of for years. So getting his product launched with being a partnership with oberois is enough to let people know how promising the product would be. 

That doesnt mean that hes any less than Oberois but either way he is still a newbie in market and its been only few years of his company coming to live. So its not easy to grab people's attention on his brand. No matter how good his products are in such affordability peoples would still go for the brand thats former and longevous. He wants a suitable audience for his brand,joining hands with Oberoi will surely bring him that stability. 

Gazing at the ceiling of his office Ryan was getting restive as his mind was still dwelling on why he thought about Jennifer when the report was asking about attractive womens. 

Am i thinking too much about her and building something that isnt real ? he asked himself as he  constantly kept tapping with his fingers on the glass table in front of because he was getting fidgety. 

But before he could get any answer for his question, he heard a super enthusiastic voice of Jennifer entering into his cabin. 

Congratulation Mr.dixit