Maya’s POV

I got  freaked out remembering my wild last night with Asher.

You’ve fucked up, once again. I muttered on low  for myself looking at Asher who was sound asleep beside me, Naked.

He was sleeping on his stomach letting his broad shoulder and round butt snatch her eyes on it. His right side face was pressed to bed while his left side of face was covered  with his thick bushy hairs. I  could still see his eyelid and pouty lips though. Slowly his olive skin switched to a bright yellowish tone as the sunlight fell on him.

No doubt, His naked glory was distracting me not that i was complaining though.

But it wasn’t the right time to admire his cute round butt, so I got up from the bed clutching the shits to my chest and found my t-shirt lying near the bed. Not wasting any further second I grabbed it and slid inside the t-shirt. Thankfully the t-shirt was big enough to cover my mid thighs so I didn't have to worry about my bottoms.

Standing on my feets, I threw the shits on him in order to cover him since his nakedness was putting me in awkwardness.

Rushing inside the bathroom I glanced back to make sure he was not awake before closing the bathroom door gently.

Once I got inside I breathed in relief and looked at myself in the mirror. “ damn “ i gasped the next second looking at myself through the mirror.

Asher didn’t leave a single part of my body without hickey!

Yes, I was covered in hickeys. A lot.

Gulping down my  saliva I touched those hickeys gently but immediately  regretted touching them as I hissed out of pain.

Most hickeys were purple and few were still freshly  red making me feel sore. Caressing my fingers over them  softly I realised how wild and rough we were last night. Was I that drunk to not even feel the pain of his teeths on my skin ? But to be honest, I still remember the most part of it where I was sure about what  I was doing and what he was doing to me. 

That means i wasn’t doing that just because i was drunk….i wanted it and i did it.

Nahh, i wanted him and i did it with him. I corrected my thoughts.

Fuck that means….. I inhaled deeply and splashed water on my  face repeatedly to calm myself.

One night  stands aren't new for me, I've done this a lot of times before and after relationships. Yeah, I never had a one night stand during my relationships. Maybe I wanted to remain loyal when I was seriously investing myself and my feelings into those men who did the total opposite. So yeah, hooking up with random man’s in the club and waking up naked in bed the next morning isn’t something that I haven't done before. But The only thing I'm bothered about is, Asher being my colleague….being my teammate.

I do not hang out with  my colleagues. That’s my one night stand rule that I've been following for years. Because fucking my colligues would only lend me into awkwordsness and unwanted insecurities which can  distrub my prefession. Once I broke this rule for Ruben and I already faced the consequences.

I don’t know what in the hell got into me that i broke my own rule just for that dick head guy. He seems so special and different, i couldn’t let go off him because i thought i loved him so much

It was only later I realised that it wasn’t him who was special and loveable but it was my love that made him stand unique and special.

After the break up with Ruben, all i wanted was some distraction and distance from him but being working together in the same office didn’t help me but did total opposite to what i wished for. Instead of forgetting him I had to bear his irritating presence all day. The more I was trying to kill my  feelings for him the more I had to witness his shitty face. This got even worse when everyone in the office started to question and gossip about my break up with Ruben, those were the times when I regretted not keeping my personal life private. I should have listened to my mind and never broke the rule that I made for myself but what happened is that I can’t go back to those days and change it. Instead I took that as a lesson.

No matter how good the man looked, no matter how genuine his words seemed, no matter how attractive and interesting he is, if he is my colleague then I'm not even looking at him with  that same thought ever again. This is how I have maintained my professional life without getting mingled with my personal life. I was sure that I was going well with  my  rule until I collided with Asher.

Leaning in, I placed my hands on the sink and looked into my eyes through the mirror. My eyes were red, probably due to the lack of sleep. I couldn’t unsee the moist present in my  eyes that screamed how humiliated and uncomfortable I was feeling back then, when I was trying to move on with all that office gossip and Ruben’s clingy new girlfriend around me. But I did. I moved on along with that. I was thinking of myself as a sorted woman until last night happened to me. 

Asher is still a question mark for me. 

I don’t know what i’ve with him. Of Course i was attracted to him but I don't know if i’ve anything for him other than  this mere attraction and lust ?  

I sighed,  frustrated, looking at myself in the mirror . I was trying to figure out what I should do now.

Water drops were dripping down  from my wet face, while my hair was still messy and tangled….just like the situation.

After a brief moment of silence I came to the conclusion of acting cool.

Yes, that’s what I'm going to do for now.

I can’t let myself catch feelings for Asher……i don’t want two exes in my office.

The last time i let someone enter inside me and then inside my heart, i got fucked up badly. Physically and emotionally  both ! It took months for me to get over whatever was left behind by him.

So, this time I won't let that repeat.

“ phew “ breathing out, I gathered my hairs in a tight fist  and made a tight bun that won’t loosen up.

“ Maaya…..”

The sudden knock on the door startled me.

“ Maaya….you there ?”

I heard Asher’s muffled voice from the other side.

“ yeah…coming in few minutes.'' I yelled from inside.

And when I didn't get any response in return from him , I took that silence as a response and brushed my teeths in a hurry.

Couldn’t deny the discomfort down in my vagina while peed, I guess I'm still sore.

Completing my morning chores I made sure I looked decent enough to step out but stopped as soon as I realised that i’m not wearing any bottoms. Not even a panty.

Gazing around the bathroom, I only found a pink napkin that I use to wipe my face after freshening up. And I'm not sure if the small napkin would help me right now.

Shit!

Why did he wake up right after me ? just to make me feel embarrassed.

Chill Maya, don’t forget that he’s the same person you slept with last night. So there’s nothing he hasn't seen before in you. I tried to convince myself but, heck…..that doesn't work.

Last night was different and now…..i can’t walk in front of him like this in daylight. I need my bottoms, and the only way to get my shorts is…..Asher. If I asked him, perhaps he would pass me my shorts that he removed and threw somewhere in the room last night. Aghhh!!! Why I'm remembering every piece of detail about last night. Mentally cringing on myself I gulped and pulled down my t-shirt in hope that it would cover my modesty. 

Not having enough choices, I slightly opened the door peeping my head out. Roaming my eyes around the room I searched for him and to my goodness he wasn’t there.

The bed was empty, his clothes were missing from the floor. And there wasn’t any clue of him.

Maybe he already left ?

I don’t know why suddenly I felt disappointed knowing that he already left, that too without telling me.

Was he regretting last night ? Was I just a fling to him ?

Biting my lower lip in disquiet, I slowly stepped out of the bathroom analysing the calmness around the corner of the room. After coming out of the bathroom completely, I looked down and found my  shorts lying near the dressing table. By  now I was sure that he left as I couldn't see any of his belongings here. With each passing second my hope was extinguishing little by little.

I wanted him to stay till I came out. So that i could tell him that whatever happened last night was a one time thing and shall not repeat ever. Nevertheless he left, not even saying a goodbye ?

Maybe he might have  something important to attend to, I thought for a moment but the next moment I realised that I've already started to defeat his actions. He should have waited for me and after exchanging a few words for a courtesy then only he should have left.

Now his actions makes me feel like a whore, whom he can just  fuck and leave. He’s so disrespectful. Anger built up inside me when  I thought about how easily he got me. And I, like a fool, thought it was a heat of the moment, unplanned and unexpected.

Clenching my inner jaw I bent down and picked my  shorts to wear.

From nowever “ hey, you ….oh shit…” comes Asher’s voice behind me  alerting me instantly. I straightened my posture and turned towards him who turned to the opposite side, not looking at me, while I pulled down my t-shirt looking at his fully dressed self.  

“ ….i’m sorry ….i…uhh..sorry…i thought you were still in the bathroom“ he turned towards the other side not facing me, as he kept apologising.

“ i’m sorry……i should have knocked “ he said once again and this time his tone was low and when i didn’t said anything in return he said “ ok….get dressed i’ll wait “ with that he hasten out of

room without looking back at me.

“ it’s okay, i thought you left “ i managed to say when i walked out of my room wearing my shorts.

Obviously I was feeling awkward but either way i have to face him.

“ ohh i woke up and didn’t found you anywhere later i figured out that you’re in bathroom so i got dressed up and waited for you but…..i was thirsty and the water jug was empty in your room…..so i came out to have water “ he explained everything while stealing glances at me.

“ hmm….” that’s all I could say, because I was still thinking if he had seen me in my most appropriate position when I bent down.

“ how’re you feeling now? Still sore ?” he stared at me waiting for a response as he slid his right hand inside his pants pocket and stood straight. Moving to the kitchen I grabbed a water bottle and gulped the ice water in one go while he followed me.

“ i’m fine “ i replied dryly

He leaned on the kitchen slab as he finally let out a small smile in the corner of his lips“ umm….so ? “

“ so…bye and see you in the office then '' I said with a lipped smile, not knowing how to reciprocate his energy.

His smile dropped as soon as I said that, he looked at me blankly for a few seconds as though he was having some sort of self conversation or maybe he just took his time to process my answer.

After a few seconds he finally spoke “ right….i’m getting late as well.“

Turning around he walked towards the hall and grabbed his belongings in hurry. I panicked, because I need to clear a few things before he leaves. Whatever we did last night was a one time thing and he should know this.

“ Asher, wait… i need to tell you something " I stopped him.

He turned around swiftly “ whatever happened last night was a mistake ? wasn’t it ? ” he asked, raising his eyebrows at me with a knowing smile.

This isn’t what I wanted to say.

It wasn’t a mistake.

Damn! Asher you screwed it up.