Raph pov
I miss my mikey, i miss my brother, i miss his voice. what was the simplest of words silenced by a blade. i still remeber that day as if it was yesterday, even though its been three years, i was the first to find him. I found his body bloody, and dead on the ground.
FLASH BACK
"Mikey you shouldn't go up there alone." said leo as i rolled my eyes
"Let the dork have his fun i dare mikey to go alone." i said challenging my little brother
"Your so on dude im gonna prove theres nothing up there." mikey said climbing up the fire escape
"Mikey no!" Leo said sternly and he came down
"Your no fun." mikey whinnied as we all went down to the lair
"hey donnie were home!" I yelled as something whizzed past my head and i ducked "DUDE REALLY!"
"Sorry i didnt think it was going to do that!" He yelled back
"Whatever im going to bed." I said going to my room and so did the rest of us
It was about two am when i heard a noise outside my door. I waited for it to pass then i got out of bed and followed the noise.
It was mikey and he was leaving to go some where, so like a good brother i followed him.
He went all over new York from roof top to roof top. i couldn't figure out where the heck the kid was going. now that i think about it i should have seen it coming, i should have drug him back home.
"Shredder!" He yelled " im here!" And out came shredder and kari
"So you ready to take me up on my offer young child." said shredder
"No im here to fight." he said
I wanted to jump out but couldnt for i new it might kill him.
"You fight him you fight me." said kari and i threw my sai at the wall
"You brought a friend i see." said shredder
"No i have no idea whos that is." but mikeys voice said it all he knew it was me

"i think you know better weak turtle." shredder said his voice full of venom and I stayed where I was

"Look shredder I came to fight you for one reason I will never be yours." he said taking his stance

That's when it all happened, Mikey swung his nun chucks  and shredder grabbed them and pinned Mikey down hitting him in the face. Mikey got up and hit shredder as kari came up behind him and I sprinted for her.

"Leave my brother alone you monster!" I yelled and pushed her down as shredder got a hold of mikey and had him close to the edge of the roof

"Take one more step and your little brother wont live to see another day." shredder said and I look at him

"Then put him down and lets fight." I said and shredder laughed as kari injected me with a sleep agent as I fell to the ground

the last thing I saw was shredder stab Mikey and push him off the roof as kari broke his neck.

END OF FLASH BACK

" it's all my fault I did this. I should have kept him at home. why did I throw that sia? why did I come out from behind that wall? I'm so sorry Mikey, it's all my fault." I whispered to my self as I clutched a picture of Mikey close to my chest and let my tears fall on his old pillow that was in my room.

I will never forgive myself for what I did to him. this is my fault all of it.

A/N

HEY GUYS SO APERENTLY I FOUND A CH. ON HERE THAT WAS LIKE HALF WAY DONE, SO HERE YOU GO HOPE YOU LLIKE SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING IN A LONG TIME I HAVE SO MUCH ON MY PLATE RIGHT NOW WITH SCHOOL AND HOME WORK AND ALL THAT WOUNDERFUL STUFF.  ANY WHO COMMENT VOTE TELL ME YOUR THOUGHT.

THANKS.

T.C