(This is a repost fixing some shit)
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[age 15]

I was down in the basement in one of the torture chambers. Father had been taken away by a guard in a hurry not so long ago and left me in charge of a not so pleasant sight.

The room I was in was much smaller than the other torture chambers I've had gone into; this one only had a chair along side a small metal table where all sorts of hammers, daggers, pliers were sitting patiently ready to be used.

Father liked using things like these, since it was easier to get information than using weapons like guns to threaten the people that had the misfortune to be in such a place. My eyes traveled around the room the millionth time, blood stained the hard stone ground along with the walls.

I looked over at the dreadful sight of the woman in front of me, strapped to a chair; blood dripped from every wound on her body, while her frantic panting echoed throughout the almost empty room.

Her once blonde hair was now stained a crimson red along with her torn clothes; her leather black jeans were pierced through by three daggers, two of which were on her right thigh while the other one was penetrated through the side of her calf.

My eyes landed back onto the metal table examining everything that was on it, my body moved towards it slowly, making loud tapping sounds from under my feet. I picked up one of the daggers, my finger tracing over the sharp blade in amazement.

I've always liked daggers more than any other weapons, out of all the weapons I had been trained to use I've always liked these small yet deadly things. In reality daggers aren't so dangerous if you don't know how to use them, yet if they are used correctly and at the perfect time these small blades can be as deadly as a rifle.

"You... you're a monster.." the woman said through coughs, I was intrigued though I did not turn to face her. Yet I remained focused on the small blade in my hands. "You're a child, yet you're as much as a monster as your father. No. More than a monster, you're a devil!" She yelled through tears.

"Oh, I'm the devil?" I said finally turning to face her, my body fell back on the table behind me as I folded my arms over my chest with the dagger still in hand. "I assume you could be right. The devil, dresses up like a small little girl." I smirked at her as she watched me with terror. "Yet though, I do admit of myself being such a thing. You yourself aren't much far from it either."

"I am no near as atrocious as you!" She yelled desperate for hopes I'll break, though for her disappointment I didn't budge.

"Oh, you say so," I brought up the dagger closer to my face then pointing it at her making her flinch. "Year 831 March 27, there was a report of a pregnant woman along with her four year old daughter being attacked and killed by a group of bandits." I say eyeing her. "Witnesses reported that the group that had killed them were remarkably unusual, there was six of them five men and a strange blonde young woman, that may I add fits your description perfectly."

"I-" she tried to cut in but I didn't allow her to.

"You alongside five other men attacked and killed a innocent mother and child for what? Money?" I stop as I watched all her will fade from her face as her eyes fell down. "And that's not all, you also raided a whole bar killing every single person there. If you ask me that seems quite devil like to me." I pushed off the table walking over to her, throwing the blade upwards then catching it inside my palm then repeating the same action over and over again as I circled around her.

"How- how do you know all of that." Her voice trembled with fear.

"I did my homework before I got here, darling." I say with a smug grin. "Or what, did I leave something out?"

"Yes, I admit to it all. Though you can not say anything that will make me worse than you!" She said easing her voice. To that I can not argue, she was right though. Her actions were as well monstrous. But mine were worse.

"Yes I agree." I stopped in front of her, "I am the devil dresses up like a child, I myself am as evil as they come." I say before stabbing the dagger through her right arm, she screeched in pain. "I'm the devil." I chuckle at her useless cries.

"But," she managed to mutter through her teeth, "you are also a coward." She spat out staring right through me, her eyes had some sort of evilness to them now. Her aura had completely changed. "You're a devil only because you were ordered to be, you are a monster because that's who you have to be." My eyes widen at her words. My blood boiling throughout my body, her words were no lies.

"You're a monster and even if one day you'll try to escape it, you will never achieve that freedom. You're a devil and will always be because you don't know what not being a devil is like." I twisted the blade inside her arm making her horrific screams fill the room once more.

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[4 months after]

"YOU'RE USELESS YOU HEAR ME!!" His voice made me tremble, I accidentally dropped some paperwork when I had walked inside his office and now father was going off at me. To be completely honest this wasn't anything unusual, even though no matter how many times I've heard his words, that were way too repetitive, I was frightened like a little kid.

Useless.

Slut.

Disgrace.

I heard them all. I slowly crouched down to pick them up stacking them back in my arms before getting up to place them on his desk. "You disgust me." He spat towards me, but I didn't feel anything from his old insults. I was tired really. I've served him over and over again yet he only saw me as a weapon, one that could only kill and that's it.

I knew I was easily replaceable yet no matter how many times I've wanted to leave or fight back I couldn't, I just stayed quiet and sucked it all in. I was about to step back when I felt a sharp pain on my cheek, my eyes widen as I felt the warm liquid start to roll down to my chin slowly. He had thrown a dagger at me.

"Next time that blade will go straight through your chest." He threatened my life, I just stared at him; his h/c hair was slicked back with a few baby hairs sticking out onto his forehead, he had a cold disgusted look in his hazel brown eyes with dark circles under them.

"Get out."

I closed the door as I left his office, my body fell back onto it feeling my heart beat uncontrollably. Tears threatened to spill out but I couldn't, I can't cry. Not now. I pushed off the wooden door and started to walk back to the training grounds, though I didn't have guards following me everywhere anymore that didn't mean I wasn't being watched.

At every corner there was always someone there watching me from a distance, I sigh as I relaxed myself a little. "I'm ok." I told myself trying to make myself believe it, my fingers pressed over my new wound as I sighed. I needed to get myself cleaned up first, don't want it to get infected, my destination now changed and I was headed towards the infirmary.

When I got there to my surprise there were no guards, at all. "That's a bit weird.." I say as I looked around the hallway and then inside the room, this was really weird. I sigh once more I only needed to clean this cut and then I was out I'm sure it'll be ok, in and out just like that.

I walked over to one of the cabinets and started to search for some sort of disinfectant, I lifted myself up onto my tiptoes though I still couldn't see anything that was further back. "For walls sake." I mumbled as my hand searched blindly at the back of the cabinet, my fingers crossed over a cold glass bottle. "Found it!" I said then grabbed it and placed it on the table along with some clean clothes and a few bandages.

I looked around to find a mirror so I could make sure I was cleaning it properly, once I found one in some weird drawer I started by soaking one of the corners of the white fabric with the disinfectant liquid. I took a deep breath in and then starting to dab it onto my cut, I felt a slight stinging which made me clench my teeth slightly.

After I was done with it and placed a plaster over it and started to place everything back in their places, "and done~" I sang clapping my hands together and just as I turned on my heel to head for the door when my eyes landed on a figure leaning against the door frame.

This is why there were no guards around.

He eyed me and I did the same, he seemed annoyed yet it wasn't anything new. He wore his uniform; black jeans along with a turtleneck, it had a bunch of belts where all sorts of blades were secured onto it. His doll face was barely visible from his dark h/c fluffy hair that was covering most of it, his lips were brought up by the corners which brought shivers through my whole body.

"What do you want Anwir?" I asked trying not to look too phased by his sudden appearance, he let out a small chuckle before pulling his hair back with his hand revealing his dark hazelnut eyes. His scar was now also visible; a long scratchy line across his left cheek up to the middle way of his right eyebrow.

"Oh dear sister, what can't I just come see you?" He said as I narrowed my eyes not knowing how to go about this situation, this isn't like him. "I'm your little brother after all."

"I know you're here for something, come on spit it out." I say hopeful this would go smoothly, he has never showed up out of nowhere just to see his sister our encounters always ended with consequences.

"Yeah," he breathed out, "you're right." He started to walk closer to me though he stopped a few feet away from me. "Kill yourself." He blurted out. Of course he would say that, I know how much he hates me so why was I expecting something else.

"And what, then you'll be happy?" I asked not expecting a reply.

"Yes." He said. "Everyone will be happier if you died. Mom, dad, even your little boyfriend. Everyone." I felt my heart sink down to my stomach, and my teeth clenched together along with my fists. "So, kill yourself." He said once more bringing his arm towards his back pocket taking something out of it then extending it towards me. A dagger.

"Why would I do that?" I looked at the dagger then back at him with anger clearly displayed on my face, but his face had no emotion.

"I want you dead, and your death will bring me the power and honour I deserve." He stopped for a second, tightening his grip onto the handle of the blade. "I will finally have fathers love." My thoughts completely stopped. Does he really think my death will bring him all of that.

"You're wrong." I say looking straight through his bullshit, "if you think father will love you after my death you're an idiot." I said through my teeth.

"Mother will be happy." My blood suddenly started to rush through my body furry radiating of me.

"Don't you dare."

"She is in so much pain, watching you like this. I mean you can't tell me you don't see it." His words echoed the room.

"Shut up."

"She doesn't love you, she wants you dead."

"Shut up."

"All you bring her is pain and suffering."

"Shut up!" I flung at him grabbing the collar of his turtleneck, pulling his face closer forcing him to look me in the eye. "You don't know shit!"

"Haven't you notice, she has bruises and cuts all over her body. More and more every day." He stated calmly. "She doesn't love you, she wants to escape from you. You're a monster. Nobody will ever love a monster." I felt weaker with his every word.

A monster.

"You're a devil Y/n." He pushed the blade against my bear throat. "And devils need to be killed." I felt the blade gently pierce my skin, small droplets falling down to my chest. "One."

No.

"Two."

No!

"Three."

NO!

Slam!

The door burst open revealing Xenos along with some guards standing in the door frame. Xenos's eyes widen and he suddenly jolted towards Anwin grabbing him of me and slamming him onto the ground, punching him left and right.

Everything felt distant all of a sudden. I watched Xenos beat my brother yet I didn't move, my eyes looked over to the dagger that had fallen out of Anwids hand.

Kill yourself.

Maybe I should.

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[Authors note]

Hello hello ik this chp is kinda rushed but we'll I do t have an excuse anywho I hope y'all liked it either way hopefully. Apologies for any mistakes I do feel like there are a lot of them in this chp but I'm not mentally stable enough to proof read again.

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