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Words might get finished, might get overused, but my admiration for His Elegance will never end.

I could no longer feel his presence, around me like few days. I couldn't see him. I couldn't touch him. I couldn't talk to him with the voice of my emotions.

I have no idea where he is. I have no idea how to find him. Or where he could be so that I could just run away to him.

This toxicity of addiction, of his addiction, is slowly slowly killing me. This love is drowning me in the sea of unfamiliarity.

Without thinking twice about my fears, I jumped into it earlier. I jumped into the sea of unfamiliarity just because of him. Just of how tempting it looked. But now when he is gone, the meaning of this life also faded away with him.

Now what I am going to do of this life...?

The breaths which I used to take in for living, feels useless now. This heart, which beats for him, now beats for no purpose. This eyes which used to die to see him, now no longer can see him.

The frustration was killing my mind, and the longingness for him was stabbing my heart.

Is this how we gonna end...? Is this what was supposed to happen from the ver beginning...? Were we fated to drift away after our divine meeting by the destiny...? Why can't we just be happy, just like other couples...? Why is the destiny playing with fate of our stars...?

All of questions popped up in my head, but I know I will never get answers to this questions. And that realisation of not knowing anything about why this happened to us, was hurting me.

Hahaha, whom I am kidding. Everything started hurting me for the moment he left me.

I stopped trying. I stopped trying swimming. I stopped trying to save myself from this mystic waters of unfamiliarity. I stopped and crushed the hopes of finding a save anchor, because everything and everyone in this world screams 'unsafe' to me now.

I am fading away. Just like him. I am drowing away. Just like him.

Weren't we supposed to one...? I guess that's why this is happening to me. I guess this is why I am giving myself a slow death, just like how he did to himself. Just like how we are doing this to ourselves.

With the last breath I took, I remembered that poem he wrote and left behind for me.

She doesn't knows it yet,
My identity,
My personality,
She doesn't knows anything as if her mind hit a button of rest,
But regardless of that,
She loves me,
And she loves her His Elegance.

I know I can't kiss you a goodbye,
As goodbyes are the wider lies,
Wider lies just like the sky,
I know everything as if my mind didn't hit a button of rest,
But regardless of that I didn't do anything,
Just remember, I love you,
And I love you my Her Sensuality.

Now that I am fading away,
Let me embrace you too in this slow death.

~ From His Elegance.

And with that, with that crossing of line, closed her eyes forever.

For real, they didn't lied when they said that 'take the rish, then he will show you what exactly taking the risk is'. The little brain didn't lied while presenting the cons of this and how it will ruin her up. Lastly, He didn't lied when he said those words.

"Don't cross the line,
His Elegance wouldn't spare you."

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(A/n- Epilogue soon to come❤️)