Me and my boyfriend broke up so i invited my best friend Kevin to get some drink. Of course he said yes immediately cause there are so many times he told me to not mess around with them but i didnt listen. Im such a stubborn. We dance and drink all night until i blacked out so Kevin took me home. A few months after that night, when i went to his room while he was in the bathroom. I saw his thick diary open wide on the table being covered by all red highlighter and tons of old pictures of me and him for years that Kevin kept new all the time. His hand writing looks really naughty and intrigued , they keep go up and down nonstop like tryin to escape the line or findin something new around them which describe excatly like him and that makes me laugh out loud.'' He must really treasure our relationship '' thats what i thought at the moment until i saw the last sentences which being wrote by the biggest size while covered with the colour of red. My smile startin to fade, i cant believe what i just witness in front of my eyes so it makes my heart skipped a beat. Suddenly i hear the bathroom unlocked and dont know how or when, my hands was already close the diary while my heart keeps beating like it want to jump straight out of my chest to escape this reality. - Yoooo MJ u scared me, how long have u been here ? You should have tell me first bro im a guy too you know ? Dont get too comfortable ! I remembered i closed the door hmmm...

Kevin just keeps talking but all i can hear is the sounds of my heartbeat. That sounds even louder then his voice right now like it gonna explode in any second if i keep thinking about the diary. I didnt even realise how sweating i am right now. While i'm standing here holding my breath for as long as i can and praying that the whole thing he wrote was all a lie with my eyes stick to the shiny ground, Kevin was also knew something isnt right so he stop talking and walk towards me:- Heyyy you good ?- You kissed me ? - I knew that i cant hold it anymore so the second i breath out, the words eventually comes out of my mouth and its too late to take it back now.I take out all of my bravery and glance at him. Kevin was shock like me at that time. I can see him knit his brow but i know he doesnt angry at me. Like someone took the bones of a puppy that have been hidden very careful.- Are you mad ? - he ask but his eyes have never look away from me since the moment he saw me in his room not like mine tryin my best not to make eye contact.However i cannot look back again cause i was so afraid if i catch his brown eyes staring at mine im gonna lose my mind. I dont know what should i do or how should i answer his question so i just standing like a statue while hoping someone will help me get out of this akward situation.- Im sorry, i dont know whats wrong with me that day.. - I can hear him scratching his head - we both drunk and i guess i cant control my feelings anymore...- What feelings ? - The words sudden went out of my mouth again without me notice it. Probbly because i was curious too, about the feelings my bestfriend have for me for years.