So Michael dear decided keeping me away from Niall himself was too difficult a job for the little pussy to cope with. So guess what?

He got me a bodyguard.

Nope, I am not kidding. The fucker did.

I looked over at my new bodyguard. He was friendly enough, he always tried to make me laugh but I was not in the mood for laughing.

I was only in the mood for Niall and he most certainly was not Niall.

He was quite tall and bulky but he was so soft on the inside. Not very scary once you get under all the muscle. That's what I didn't like about him. He's not very how do I put it... manly.

Well, not of what I have seen of him so far. He's giant marshmallow so far but there must be another side ot him because otherwise Michael wouldn't hire him.

He hasn't been very good at keeping us apart to be honest because while he was snoring last night I snuck into Niall's bunk. He didn't even notice.

Oh yeah, Michael moved him onto the tour bus with the boys. Not even kidding.

I remembered it's Niall's birthday next month and I have absolutely no clue what I am going to get him.

Like what do you get someone that has everything?

I would ask him to be my boyfriend again but I guess we have drifted apart in the past few weeks we have been on tour. We are only allowed around each other when Michael permits it and it's having an affect on us. When we are together that stupid bodyguard is between us, keeping us apart and it sucks so much. Not that he is very good at seperating us, he's too soft to be quite honest.

Though when Michael is here he is usually keeping us apart and I guess it does have it's affect on us. We aren't able to be intimate. By intimate I mean, hug and kiss. I haven't properly kissed him for two weeks. Yes, two weeks. He wouldn't kiss me last night when I went into his bunk. He said it wasn't the right thing to do. Last night was the first night I was in bed with him since that night a few weeks ago when Michael caught us.

He has gave me small kisses though while we're in public but I haven't made out with him much since this American leg of the tour has started and it's making me him more.

Like Jesus, I miss his lips.

I miss him.

"Hey Jessie." He patted me on the shoulder and I turned around.

"It's Jenny." I snapped.

"Sorry, Jenny." He repeated. "They boys have a premiere of their new movie today in New York and you'll be going." He told me and I sighed. Jesus, I thought they already had like two films out, how many more do they need.

"Do I have to go?" I sighed.

"Yeah, you'll get dressed up, walk the red carpet then watch the film and after the film Niall and you are in your seperate bunks." He warned. He caught me trying to sneak into Niall's bunk last night. Yep, Michael has moved him onto the tour bus.

I was just upset last night and I wanted a cuddle but nope, I wasn't getting one, was I?

"Jenny, are you ready?" Paul came into the room where we were. "Hi." Paul smiled at him.

"I'm Ryan, nice to meet you." He said to Paul.

"Paul," Paul shook his hand. I wish Paul was my bodyguard. He's a lot easier to get along with.

"Where's Michael?" I cautiously asked.

"He went home yesterday, something happened, I don't know." Paul replied and I literally got excited.

"Seriously? Oh my God." I said, getting excited.

"I have to keep you away from Nathan." The stupid marshmallow piped up.

"Nathan yeah?" I raised an eyebrow and Paul giggled.

"Okay, let's go." Paul laughed, grabbing me by the forearm and taking me with him, though I was glad, I didn't want to be around that dopey shit.

"He's not very good with names." I said and Paul shook his head. "He called me Jessie before you came."

"God help you." He sighed. "There's something wrong with that Michael fella, I don't know why they hired him, like I have always been the tour manager and then he comes in and starts setting all the rules." He tutted as we got in the car.

"He's a fucking asshole, doing every thing to keep me away from Niall." I sighed.

"Well he's gone now and he hired that idiot to keep you away from him but I don't think he'll be able to, do you?"

"I don't know, he has been since he came last week but Michael was here last week." I smirked knowing Michael wasn't here anymore.

"I'm not gonna help him anyways, if I were in charge I'd let you and Niall be together, like Jesus does he not want you two to be happy?" He said and I never wished for him to be our manager so bad until then,

"He does, but he doesn't wanna pay me as well." I pointed out.

"S'not like it's coming out of his wages." He said.

"I know, he's just a bastard, isn't he?" I asked and he sighed and nodded. "Hey wait, shouldn't that marshmallow be with us now?" I asked and Paul laughed.

"Yeah, we just left him behind in the hotel." He chuckled.

"Why can't you make rules like Michael?" I asked him.

"Apparently, he's higher than me, it's only because he's a fucking asshole and he likes to threaten people, he was nice at the start not anymore."

"Is there any way to get him fired?" I asked and he shrugged.

"I'm not sure, maybe if everyone went together but he's gotten pretty powerful quickly and I know he has modest wrapped around his little finger." Paul sighed. "Like Jesus, I was here first but he seems to be making all the choices now and I am just being pushed to the side."

"Why weren't you left in charge?" I asked.

"He knows I hate him and we had a bit of a fight so I don't think he'd trust me, but you trust me, if I was in charge again I would get them to pay you and just pretend Niall and you weren't going out and say you needed to be payed." He said. Jesus why can't he be in charge?

"When is he back?" I questioned and he shrugged.

"Well, guess what? I booked the hotel for tomorrow night and I have Niall and you in the same room and if that idiot tries to change it, well, he won't have a chance against me." Paul said and I actually hugged him.

"Oh my God, thank you so much." I smiled. "Do you know why he hired such an idiot?"

"It was short notice, he knew he was leaving for a week or two and he had to get someone quick so he got that thing." Paul said as we landed. "When you see Niall, tell him." He smiled.

"How can I thank you enough?" I asked.

"Don't listen to that stupid fucker he hired, I'll deal with him, don't worry, he doesn't look scary at all." He chucked.

"What are you gonna do?" I asked and he just smirked.

"If you want, I'll get rid of him." He said.

"But Michael will know." I pointed out.

"Not until he comes back." He shrugged and I smiled.

"Jesus, why aren't I closer to you?" I asked.

"I protect people that deserve it and you and Niall don't deserve what he is doing to you." He said.

"Thank you." I said.

"Hurry up and get inside, the boys are in there, Lou is waiting for you." He said and I nodded and left the car.

When I got inside Niall was standing pacing the floor.

"Jenny!" He exclaimed when he saw me. "Where's your stupid bodyguard?" He asked me.

"Left him in the hotel." I chuckled. "Paul came to get me and did you know Michael left yesterday?" I asked.

"Yeah, isn't that why he hired that asshole?"

"Oh I though it was because he thought keeping us apart was too hard."

"It was partially that but he knew he was leaving so needed someone to keep us apart when he was gonna be absent."

"Why has he gone?" I asked and Niall shrugged. "Guess what though." I smiled.

"What?" Niall asked as Lou called on me.

"Paul has us in a hotel room together tomorrow and he said he's gonna try to get that idiot gone so we can be together."

"But what about when Michael comes back?" He asked and I shrugged. "You know how much this is gonna hurt."

"Yeah, I know I'm not allowed near you when Michael is around." I sighed.

"Why is that?" He asked.

"I'm not allowed to tell you." I quietly said.

"Jenny? What is it?" He asked but Lou called on me again.

"I have to go." I said and scurried away to get ready for the premiere. If Niall finds out I know Niall will flip and if Niall flips Michael will know I told him and if Michael knows i told him I will get fired and possibly beaten up so I can't win, can I?

"Excited for tonight?" Lou asked me as I sat down for her to do my hair.

"A little." I shrugged.

"Are you good at makeup?" She asked me.

"I'm not bad at it." I honestly said. I know I am alright at makeup, I always was even as a kid.

"You can help me keep makeup on the boys this evening then." She said.

"Oh my God, can I be Niall's makeup artist?" I asked.

"Yep, I'll teach you how." She smiled as Niall came into the room.

"Jenny?" He pulled up a seat next to me. "Explain."

"Explain what?" I chuckled.

"What did Michael do now?" He asked.

"Nothing." I lied.

"Jenny." He sighed as Lou put on the hairdryer. I mouthed through the noise. 'Sorry, I can't hear you.'

"Jenny, I know you're mouthing it." He said when the hair dryer stopped and I was just sitting moving my mouth like a dumb idiot.

"If I was allowed to tell you I would but I can't." I said and Niall sighed but didn't try to get it out of me any longer. I think he expected me to come and tell him again anyways. I would tell him but I can't.

"Jenny's gonna be your makeup artist today." Lou smiled at Niall.

"Really?"

"Yeah, I'm gonna train her." Lou said.

"Yeah, I'll be doing your makeup today." I smiled as Lou finished off my hair. After she was done with me she sat Niall down and redone his hair. Then it was my time to shine and I was stood in front of Niall with a pile of makeup in a box beside me.

"That's Niall's makeup in here." She pointed to one of the drawers in it and I pulled it to find some bottles and powders. Niall watched me with amusement as I peered at everything. "Tidy up his eyebrows first." She smiled.

"No!" Niall yelled and I laughed.

"Ah, come on Niall."

"No, you know I hate when you pluck my eyebrows god knows what she'll do!" He said.

"Niall, we have to fix your eyebrows, tonight is a big night for you guys and you need to look neat, you can't have a unibrow." She said, making me giggle.

"Fine." He huffed and I was handed pink tweezers.

"Do I just do here?" I asked, putting my finger in between his eyebrows were a few short hairs were growing.

"Yeah, just fix them up in the middle a bit and around them where there's hair growing." She smiled at Niall who looked scared. I started plucking and each hair I pulled he jumped.

"Sit still." I chuckled.

"I don't like this!" He whined his screwing his eyes shut.

"You better sit still, I might stab you in the eye." I said when he wouldn't stop fidgeting. He immediately stopped and his blue eyes were watering over. Gosh, he's such a baby.

"Can you just get on to the makeup?" He sighed.

"No." Lou answered for me. "Finish him off." She nodded and I went back to plucking.

"Can I pluck your eyebrows?" He asked, looking up at mine.

"No, don't need mine done." I said and he pouted. My makeup had been done by Lou and even my eyebrows. I didn't fidget and whine as much as the baby in front of me. Once I was done Lou showed me how to apply the makeup onto his face and neck so people wouldn't know he was wearing any. It seemed simple enough to do.

"Right, I'll leave you to finish him and I'll go get the other boys ready." She said and took her makeup box, leaving me with what I needed for Nialler here.

He watched me with amusement as I put out how much foundation Lou told me to on my hand. "S'too much." Niall said.

"No it's not." I said.

"Is." He fought back.

"Shut up." I said, grabbing the brush and starting to put it on his face. "Never thought I would be doing my boyfriend's makeup." I smiled and he shifted uncomfortably.

"I thought we broke up." He quietly said, looking down at his lap. I stopped blending the foundation into his skin and sighed.

"Did we though?" I asked him.

"It'd be a lot less confusin' if you weren't hired to be my girlfriend in the first place." He sighed.

"I know, like one minute we're dating the next we are being pulled apart and aren't allowed to speak."

"Sucks." He admitted and I nodded in agreement.

"So where are we now?" I asked.

"Well, we're not dating because you said to me that you wanted to listen to Michael, so I guess we've broken up." He shrugged.

"But we can get back together, right?" I asked but he didn't reply.

"When?" Was all he asked.

"October." I said.

"It's only the beginning of August, so you want me to wait two months on you?" He asked me with a raised eyebrow.

"I don't have a choice." I sighed.

"Just finish my makeup." He sighed. I feel so terrible but I don't have a choice.

"Do you still love me?" I asked him as I brushed under his eyes. He looked up at me and I felt a tingle go up my spine as our eyes locked.

"That's a silly question." He said, cracking a smile.

"You didn't answer." I picked up the powder.

"Do I really have to?" He asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Yes, you haven't said it since that day we went shopping and that was two weeks ago and a girl needs to hear it." i sighed looking down at my boots, the ones he got me.

"I don't want to." He mumbled. "Just hurry up and do the powder." He sighed, avoiding eye contact. See, this is what I mean, we have drifted haven't we. I didn't respond, I just finished off with the powder silently.

I did a pretty good job, it didn't look like he was wearing any at all. The only way you'd know is if you were wondering where his freckles went.

"There you're done." I softly said, placing the powder brush on the table and looking at him. He nodded and stood up to walk away. "Niall wait." I grabbed his forearm.

"What?" He asked.

"I need to hear the words, can you not just say you love me?" I asked, my eyebrows furrowing. He just pulled out of my grip and left the room. "Niall." I called after him.

"What? What do you want me to do?" He yelled. "It's your fault we've broken up and I am fucking tired of this back and forth shit and if you had of just let me pay for you in the first place then we wouldn't even be having this problem." He said as Lou appearred behind him again.

"It's Michael's fault, not mine." I desperately said.

"Blame Michael if you want but not all of this is his fault." He said and walked off. I was going to say something else but I didn't want to fight with him in front of Lou.

"Are you two okay?" She asked and I explained everything that has happened to her. (Except about the last contract, I'm not allowed to tell her.) "Hmm, I guess I understand now why Niall is so frustrated these days." She sighed. "Don't cry though, you're mascara will run." She teased, trying to get me to laugh but it wasn't working.

"I just feel terrible, but I need to get paid and there's nothing I can do." I sighed.

"We'll figure out something, I know everyone hates Michael."

"Everyone but Modest." I pointed out. "They seem to think the sun shines out of his ass."

"I would discuss this with you but you need to get changed." She said. "Mary's next door with the boys so go on in." She patted me on the back. "I'm here if you wanna talk afterwards though but we're on a tight schedule now."

"Alright." I smiled and left the room. I cautiously opened the door expecting to see half naked boys but the only half naked one was Niall. The other four were dressed on their phones.

"Oh Jenny!" Mary said coming over and handing me a dress, shoes and earings.

"Is Sophia and Gemma not coming?" I asked.

"Sophia and Eleanor are on their way and Gemma is gonna be there." Liam told me and I nodded. I looked over at Niall and he glared at me, hopping behind a rack of clothes as he was putting on his jeans so I couldn't see him.

"You can go get changed in here." Mary showed me the bathroom, much to my relief. I didn't feel like putting on a show for the boys tonight. When I was dressed I came back into the room and Niall's jaw dropped. Literally. He quickly grasped reality again and pretended he wasn't even looking at me and went back to his phone.

"Are we ready?" Louis asked.

"Harry's gone to the Loo." Liam replied. When he came back we all left but Niall held me back in the room.

"C'mere." He sighed and opened his arms to hug me. "Look," He whispered as he wrapped his arms around me. "sorry for being an asshole, but I'm frustrated and you can see that, can't you?"

"Yes because I am too." I sighed.

"I'm sorry for blaming you it's just you wouldn't take the money and I want to be mad at someone I just don't know who to be mad at."

"So do you still love me?"

"Depends." He let a small smirk take over his features. "Do you still love me?"

"Silly question." I smiled and so did he.

"Love you then." He smiled and I felt butterflies growing in my tummy.

"Love you more." I said.

"Guys, sorry to interupt but we need to fucking go!" Louis raised his voice as he spoke.

"Come on." Niall chuckled and led me outside.

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After we walked the red carpet we were taken to a theatre. We were the last in and the front row was reserved for us. I wish the back row was, I always loved the back row. The boys thanked everyone for coming then they took their seats and the lights dimmed and the movie started.

I was actually excited to see it. "This is so exciting." Niall whispered to me. His voice did sound excited.

The boys seemed so cute together. It was nice to see what they all had to say. Then there was a part where they spoke of their girlfriend's. I remember this day! This wasn't that long ago in London I remember that, I thought it was an interview for a TV show, I didn't know it was for their movie.

I was apprehensive to see what Niall had to say. I wonder would he even speak of me like?

Then they got to Niall and he started to speak.

"Yeah, I have a girlfriend, Jenny." His face lit up when he said my name. Did he really like me back then? This ages ago, near the beginning.

"What kind of girlfriend is she? Cuddly, cute, clingly?"

"The best kind." He replied with a smile.

"What do you mean?" She asked.

"Love everything about her." He shrugged and Liam nudged him.

"That's so cute, would you do anything for her?"

"Course!" He replied. I don't think he meant it when he said it because we weren't even dating back then. "Like she's the most beautiful, kind, down 't earth person I've ever met."

I looked over at Niall and he was smiling at the screen.

"So do you think you;ll be spending the rest of you life with her?"

"I mean, I can't say for certain because you never know what's going to happen but I sure as hell can wish." He smiled.

"So you want to?" She questioned. He smiled before answering.

"S'bit early but honestly, yeah." He said, he defintely didn't mean that one. He obviously had to say it. Sure he hated me back then.

I glimpsed at Niall and he returned a full gaze. The he leaned into my ear and whispered. "Maybe I didn't mean it back then, but if I were to say it now, I'd sure as hell mean what I say." He kissed under my ear and sat back.

I looked at him with the biggest smile my face every held before. He grinned back and me and took my hand.

Then, I finally got that kiss I have been craving these past two weeks.

Let me tell you, it was well worth the wait.

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A/N Sorry it took so long to update ! I didn't have time to write these past few days really so finalllyyyyyyy here's the update.

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