A/N I'll edit this soon :)

Niall and I were travelling to his old house now. We're been travelling a while now, I wonder when we'll be arriving. "Niall, I'm bored and I need the bathroom." I complained, putting my feet up on the dashboard of the rental car we had.

"You're a pain in the ass why did I bring you?" He asked, looking over at me.

"Because, you like me really." I smiled at him and he chuckled and nodded.

"Maybe a little." He tapped his fingers against the steering wheel. "Wanna stop off for a bite to eat?"

"I wanna stop anyways, all this travelling makes me feel sick." I sighed.

"Here." Niall said, reaching down the side of his door. He handed me a bottle of water. "Drink something, might make you feel better."

"Don't think so but whatever." I shrugged, taking a drink.

"We'll stop up here, I know a petrol station with a cafe and that, we'll stop and get a bit of fresh air." He said and a few minutes later he was parking the car. "D'ya want something to eat?" He asked and I shook my head.

"I'm not hungry." I shrugged. We went into the shop and I got a cup of hot chocolate to go and Niall got a cup of tea to go. It's absoutely freezing in Ireland.

"Will we keep going?" Niall asked.

"Yeah, but Jesus, it's freezing." I said, pulling the sleeves of my top over my knuckles. I should have worn a jacket.

"Here." He said, placing the cup of tea in the cup holder and took off his grey zip-up. He held it out to me.

"What?"

"You're cold, put it on." He said.

"But now you'll be cold." I said, looking at him and he just had a black t-shirt with a word printed backwards on it.

"I'll be fine, here, I want you to stay warm." He said and placing it on my lap and then started the car, turning up the heat. I put his hoodie on and immediately, his distinctive smell filled my nostrils and I felt content.

I finished my hot chocolate and soon I had fallen asleep. I was awoken to Niall gently nudging me. "Wake up babe, we're here." He whispered, taking the empty cup from my hands. I sat up and surely enough, we were in the driveway of the familar house.

Niall got out and grabbed our bags, taking them up to the door where Maura was standing waiting for us. "Oh hello guys, welcome back." She smiled and took Niall's face in her hands, kissing his cheek.

"Mammy." He blushed, pulling away and looking back at me.

"Whoops, forgot you're a big boy now." She giggled and Niall rolled his eyes, pushing past her into the house.

"Oh come in out of the cold Jenny." She said, grabbing me by the arm and leading me inside to the sitting room where a very cosy warm fire was burning.

"Oh it's lovely and cosy in here." I commented.

"Niall always loved his cosy fires." She beamed, turning to look at Niall who had flopped back on the sofa. "Greg is on his way over." Maura told Niall and I seen all the colour drain from his face. I sat down next to him and his body was tense. I placed my hand atop of his and gave him a smile. "I know what's been going on and I don't like to see my boys fighting, I love you both."

"I know." Niall quietly said, looking over at the wall so we couldn't see his eyes. His knee was shaking up and down against the floor.

"You don't need to worry yourself, I bet everything will be okay." Maura said. Nall just fake laughed, rubbing his forehead, looking down at his lap.

"Niall." I tried to get him to look up at me.

"I'll leave you two." Maura said. She's a great mother unlike my mother, she always knows what to do and when she's not to intrude.

"You alright?" I asked him. He looked up with glassy eyes and vaguely nodded.

"Just come here." He extended his arms. I crawled onto his lap and lay my head on his chest, drawing invisible cirles on it with my fingertips. He sighed audibly and placed his chin on the top of my head after placing a kiss on it.

"Are you sure you're okay?"

"As long as I have you here, I will be." He said and I smiled softly to myself. "I love-" He stopped himself and coughed.

"You love what?" I asked him.

"Oh, this heat." He sounded a little unsure but I shrugged it off anyways. It was then we heard the front door open and close and Maura's heels scurrying down the hall. Then we heard a "Nana!" It was obviously Theo.

"Greg be nice to him." We heard Maura hiss outside the door as I slid off Niall's lap onto my own seat.

"Hi." I smiled as they walked in. The little boy in his arms looked cautiously between Niall and I.

"Hey Jenny." Greg said, sitting down next to me on the sofa. Niall looked at me and then to Greg and sighed.

"Hey Greg." Niall said. Greg just gave him a half smile and turned his attention to the toddler he had put on the ground. "Want your bithday present?" Niall said to Theo who looked up at his dad.

"That's your uncle, Niall." Greg said, looking at Niall, not Theo. "Go with him."

"Come on." Niall held his hand out and took Theo's tiny one in his. He led him out to the hall and came back a few minutes later with a box and the package I had gotten him. I just bought him a teddy, I thought I needed to get him something.

"Happy birthday." I said and handed Theo the teddy. He ripped it open and smiled brightly when he saw the monkey I had gotten him.

"What do you say to Jenny?" Greg asked him.

"Thank you." He shyly said. He opened Niall's next and got all excited when he saw the wooden train track Niall had gotten him. Greg rolled his eyes, placing his leg over his knee, sighing.

Niall helped him open the box and started pouring the wooden pices on the floor. Theo picked up the train and showed Greg.

"Look da." He said and Greg just nodded.

"Of course he had to out do the present I bought him." Greg mumbled and Niall looked up a little hurt. "He always has to be fucking better at everything." He grumbled and Niall threw the wooden track back into the pile. His lips pursed and his brow crease appeared before he stood up and stormed out of the room.

"Niall." His mother called but Niall ignored him. It was then we heard a crash coming from the kitchen and ti was evident that he had thrown something glass against the ground. I quickly got up, ignoring the glances from Greg and Maura and I hurried to the kitchen where a furried Niall was refusing to engage in conversation with me.

"Niall." I paced my hand on his shoulder but he refused to even look at me.

"I am not fucking going back there." He said.

"Niall, please, just come back, he didn't mean it." I sighed.

"He didn't mean it?" He did, he fucking meant every word he said and I bet there's a whole lot more to be said and I cannot sit and fucking listen to it." He yelled.

"Niall," I started but he pushed me away and cut me off.

"No, my own brother fucking hates me now, do you know how much that hurts?" He yelled. "He wants nothing to do with me anymore, you don't realise how much that fucking hurts." He yelled, throwing another glass on the floor, ending in a loud crashing sound as he smashed his feelings and anger against the floor.

He looked a little ashamed but he was too occupied with anger to let it flood his mind for too long. His eyes searched me as though looking for support or help. I didn't know what to say so I just done the thing I know he loves the most. I brought him in for a hug, which he complied.

"Is everything okay in here?" Maura asked, coming in with a toddler on her hip.

"Yes." Niall replied. He stepped back and looked at the mess he had made on the floor, his eyes darted from mine to Maura's, then back to the floor. His face was full of shame. He went to grab the broom when Maura stopped him.

"Take him back to the sitting room, I'll clean this up." She said, handing Niall the small child. He nervously took him and we went back to the sitting room. He sat back on the ground with him, avoiding eye contact, or any contact in that matter, with Greg.

I sat back down where I had previously been sititng. Niall looked up at me every few minutes, his eyes looked almost fearful. The sad part was, he was fearful, in his own childhood home.

"How old is Theo today?" I asked greg.

"Two." He replied with a smile.
Once he had the track assmebled he sat up next to me. I got up to go to the bathroom though, leaving the two brothers alone. I knew Niall wasn't pleased but hey, I needed the bathroom.

"Jenny." Maura hissed from the bedroom beside the bathroom. I caustiously walked over to her and she lead me into the bedroom. "Is Niall okay?"

"I don't know, I'd say he will be." I shrugged.

"I hate seeing my boys fighting, I hate it, I love both of them and I am trying to be diplomatic here but it's not easy." She sighed.

"I see where you're coming from."

"I never seen Niall lose his temper like that, ever. I was kind of shocked like he has never freaked out like that." She said and I almost laughed. He was always lashing out on me at the begininng. Maybe just when he's stressed dor nervous he does, I don't know.

"Well, I have seen him lose him temper a few times but he never broke anything like he did today." I said.

"Like I told Greg before he came to take it easy on Niall and now he's upset him and as much as I love Greg, I want to strangle him but I guess I can emphasis with him because it doesn't matter what, everything is always about his famour brother, like we could be chatting to family and they'll be asking Greg how he and the family are and somehow the topic will change to Niall so I guess you can see where his anger is coming from." She explained.

"Yeah, I kind of understand." I said and she nodded.

"Right, I better let you go or Niall will come looking for you." She said and I left and went to the bathroom. Afterwards, I went back and sat next to Niall again. After a bit Maura came back into the utter silence that was in the room. I didn't know what to say.

Niall had nothing to say.

Greg had nothing to say.

I don't think Maura knew what to say either.

"Boys, can you not make up?" She finally said, breaking the growing silence.

"No." Greg sternly said. Niall stayed wordless.

"Greg come on, don't be childish." Maura sighed.

"Of course blame me."

"She wouldn't blame you if you hadn't of started on me." Niall snapped at him.

"Shut the fuck up." Greg fired back.

"Make me you childish bastard." Niall spat at him.

"Boys, boys, boys, stop it." Maura exclaimed, rubbing her forehead.

"I'll speak to our superstar, rolemodel child but I'll never see him the same way before he left us five years ago." Greg said. I can kind of see where he is coming from because Marcus has always been the star child in our family too.

"Greg, don't be like this." Maura sighed and he shook his head.

"He didn't even visit me last time here was here in Ireland and that's what done it for me." Greg said and Niall sighed.

"You try being what I am and see if you find the fucking time to visit somebody." Niall yelled.

"You could of found five lousy minutes." He retorted. "But whatever Niall, I am not gonna fight with you."

"Then why are you fighting with me?" Niall exclaimed, throwing his hands in the air. Greg just shook his head and picked up the toddler from the floor.

"We're leaving." He announced and picked up the teddy I had gotten him too. Not touching the train track Niall had gotten.

"Greg, don't leave him like this God." Maura said but Greg just shook his head.

"I told him, I am not fighting with him."

"Greg-" Niall started but was cut off.

"No, if you want to see me before you leave again, you know where I live." Greg simply stated and left the room. Niall groaned, pulling at his roots, while Maura got up and raced after Greg.

"I'm sorry Niall." Maura sighed, coming back into the room. "There's no talking to him."

"It's okay." He shrugged, biting his nails.

"Well, I might as well start dinner." She said, standing up. "You guys okay with chicken curry?"

"Yep." Niall replied and I nodded.

"I'll get that started then." She smiled and left the room. I think she just wanted to cook to occupy herself and get away from the tension that was growing because of what had happened.

"Come on, let's go upstairs." Niall said to me. I followed him up the stairs to his old bedroom. Once we were in there he backed me up against the blue wall. He pinned one of his hands on my hip and the other against the wall, above my shoulder, then he smashed his lips against mine.

"What are you doing?" I asked him.

"I'm just so angry, kissing you will relieve my tension." He whispered against my lips. I was happy to comply with this. He grabbed me under my thighs and lifted my body up. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he pushed his body up against mine again, but more forcefully this time. His fingers were digging into my sides but god was I melting on the inside.

His lips molded perfectly with mine and I was literally, like putty in his arms. I could feel him smiling against my lips as his tongue slipped into my mouth and I was just happy to know he was smiling again.

It wasn't long into the kiss before I felt something poking my thigh. I knew what it was. "Niall." I whispered and he pulled back for a second. "Your phone is poking me, can you put me down?" I asked him. I knew it wasn't his phone but I didn't want to make him feel bad.

"S'not me phone." He said, placing me on my feet. His face scarlet.

"Don't worry, I know." I replied and I couldn't help but look down to see a evident bulge in his jeans. Poor Nialler's getting a little too over excited.

"Sorry." He blushed, rubbing his forehead.

"I'm cold." I said, changing the awkward subject.

"You're always cold." He commented, coming around and wrapping his arms around my waist.

"Then keep me warm." I smiled, turning around to face him.

"You're already wearing my hoodie, how much warmer can I keep you?" He laughed.

"You could cuddle me." I suggested.

"Fine, you go down and sit in front of the fire and I'll be down in a few minutes." He said and kissed my forehead delicately.

"Why can't you come now?" I asked, eyeing him up and down.

"I have to..um.. unpack." He said and I just giggled.

"Bags are downstairs Niall." I swatted his forearm before I left the room. Unpack the bags my backside, more like have a wank. I went downstairs anyways and sat on the sofa, waiting for Niall.

"Where's Niall?" Maura asked, coming in and sitting in the armchair next to the fire.

"Upstairs." I replied.

"Why?"

"Unpacking." I said, trying not to laugh.

"Aren't the bags-" She pointed to the door.

"Yep." I cut her in.

"Okay," She giggled. "I shan't ask no more, better go check on dinner." She said and got up, leaving the room. Five minutes later Niall reappearred.

"Hi." He smiled, kicking his shoes off and leaving them at the side of the couch and sitting down next to me.

"Finish unpacking?" I smiled over at him and drew in a breath of air from one side of his mouth, raising his eyebrows. He shuffled over closer to me and opened his arms. "Are you okay now?" I asked, resting my head on his chest.

"I w-"

"Have you relieved all your tension." I nudged him with a smirk.

"Make one more joke and I won't cuddle you."

"Jeez, aren't you being hard-on me tonight." I said, trying not to laugh. "Eh? Eh?" I elbowed him.

"Jenny." Niall shouted, pushing me away. "Stop it." He tried to sound serious but I could see him trying not to laugh.

"Go on laugh, I know you want to." I nudged him.

"Fuck off." He said, but pulled me closer to him again. I smiled to myself, laying my head back on his chest.

"Do you want me to fuck off?" I asked and looked up at him.

"No." He held me tighter. "Stay."

"Dinner is nearly ready guys, were do you wanna eat? In here or in the kitchen?" Maura asked us.

"We'll go sit at the table." Niall replied.

"Alright, I'll call you when it's ready." She said and left again.

"You've got a nice mom, I'm jealous."

"Oh your mammy is nice too." He said, though he didn't sound too sure hismelf. I rolled my eyes at him and he stroked my hair. "Sorry." He mumbled.

"For what?" I asked but he didn't have a chance to answer because Maura was calling on us for dinner. He just gently kissed me, leaving me wondering what he meant as he walked off.

We sat down at the table and Jesus, Maura is a good cook. "This is delicious." I commented.

"Why thank you Jenny." She beamed. After dinner Niall took me back to the sitting room and turned on the TV. "I'm going out for my walk with Betty down the road, I'll be back soon." Maura called out to us. She was kitted in her walking clothes.

"Mammy it's freezing." Niall reminded her.

"And? I go walking most evening." She said.

"Okay, have fun." Niall said.

"You too." She smiled and walked off. Niall looked over at me and smiled.

"Come here." He patted his lap and opened his arms. "I wanna um.. talk." He stuttered, looking kind of nervous. I felt butterfies rise in my stomach and I don't completely understand why, it's just the way his voice sounded it made me feel a little uneasy.

I shimmied myself onto his lap and turned to face him on it. "Hi." I smiled and he gave me a half wobbly smile. He took my hand and intertwined our fingers, looking down at them. After a couple of seconds he looked into my eyes again.

"I mean, I just-" He seemed to be struggling. I was suddenly getting worried. "I have been trying to say this to you for a long time, I just haven't been able to, I mean- ah fuck." He cursed, rubbing his free hand over his face. "God, I am not good at this." He sighed, looking over at the wall to the side of him.

"Niall, just say whatever it is." I said, stroking my thumb over his knuckles.

"My heart is fucking racing." He chuckled.

"Why?" I asked him.

"Because-" He stammered.

"I love you." He almost whispered.

I was nearly sure my heart stopped for a minute. Did I hear him right?
I couldn't have.

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