I looked around the small, bleak bunk in despair. I just want out of here. I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand and sniffled a little. I miss home so much. I feel even more alone here than I did at home. I put my face into my pillow and just cried into it, everyone was asleep anyways so it doesn't matter how loud I was. 

I also felt as though I was going to be violently sick. The motion of the bus seriously wasn't helping me. I used to get travel sick as a kid and I don't think I am much better as a pre adult.

Once I thought I was finished crying, I needed a tissue. I got out of my bunk and walked to the bathroom to get one. When I got it I walked back to my bunk when I heard my name. "Jenny." The voice whispered. I know that voice anywhere, it's Niall's. 

I looked over to his bunk and sure enough his head was peeping out through the curtain. I just sighed and went to get back into my bunk. "Jenny." He said louder. 

"What?" I asked him.

"Why're you crying?" He asked me. I just looked down at my bare feet and ran my hand through my messy hair. I felt tears threatening to spill again. What is wrong with me? I usually never cry and I mean never. I looked up at him and bit my bottom lip. He looked genuinely concerned and I don't know why, he's meant to hate me. 

"Why do you care?" I asked him, trying to talk as quiet as possible so I wouldn't wake any of the other boys. 

"I do." He defended. 

"No, no you don't." I sighed and went to get back into my bed when he spoke again. 

"Jenny, please, I do care, come here." He said to me. 

"Come where?" I asked him, looking around the room. 

"Come into my bunk, I don't wanna know you're crying on your own." He said, making my heart skip a beat. Why would he want to help me? I shook my head, dismissing him. "Jenny please." He said and opened the curtain to his bunk. I wanted to say no but I also wanted the comfort. 

"I don't know." I sighed. 

"Come on, you know you want to." He smiled at me. I sighed but climbed into his bunk. It was different to mine, for a start it was a lot softer too. I got in and there was just enough room for the two of us. It felt weird being so close to him and touching him. He pulled the duvets up over us but not before I seen he was just in his boxers and t-shirt. "Why were you crying?" He asked me, leaning up on his elbow and looking at me. I just shrugged and looked down at my nails. "Was it because I shouted at you?" He asked me, taking my hand in his and running his thumb over my knuckles. 

"No, not only that I just I.." I didn't know what to say to him. I didn't want to sound whiny and needy. Niall reached and ran his hand through my blonde hair. I lay my head on his pillow not wanting to speak any more. The air between us was getting weirdly hot, I kinda liked it though. "I-I'm homesick too." I said and burst into tears again. Niall brought me into his arms and hugged me tight. I put my head on his chest and continued to cry. It felt so good to be in his arms but so wrong. I know I shouldn't be doing this but I couldn;t help but linger in the moment. I liked the way I felt in his arms.

"I know, it's hard to get used to." He sighed. He ran his hand up and down my back and for some strange reason I felt comforted. Hs warm, muscular chest pressed against mine and his comforting arms made me feel so safe. I felt my tense body relaxing and I sighed audibly. He reached over and handed me a tissue. 

"W-why do you have tissues in your bunk?" I asked Niall as I dabbed my eyes dry. 

"No reason, no reason." He said, smiling innocently at me. I give him a strange look but shrugged it off anyways. 

"Niall, I don't like the way we're moving either, it makes me feel sick." I said to him. 

"I know, you'll get used to it though." He said to me. "Maybe we should get some sleep though, we have to be up early to get started on the new album." Niall said to me. He brought me into his arms again and closed his eyes. 

"N-Niall." I stuttered. 

"Hmm?" He said, not opening his eyes. 

"What are we doing why am I in your bed?" I asked him. 

"Because I'm comforting you." He said. "I know this is all hard at the start, but you'll get used to it." He whispered to me. 

"Yeah but it's weird, you don't like me and-" 

"Why can't you just be quiet and enjoy this?" He asked me. 

"Because you're giving me false hope Niall." I pointed out. 

"Look just sleep." He said and reached over me and closed the curtain. I felt shivers go up my spine as he wrapped his arm around me. This is wrong this is so wrong why am I here, with him. "Relax babe." He sighed and I gasped at the name. I backed away from him slightly not wanted to fall any further into this. His eyes opened and he sighed. 

"Niall, you shou-" 

"Shush." He said and pressed one finger against my lip like Michael did the first day I met them. "I know you want this, why can't you trust me, all I'm doing is cuddling you." He said. 

"Yes but you don't really want to." I said. 

"I wouldn't be doing it if I didn't want to." He replied. "Fine, get into your own bunk then." He said, putting his hands up in defense. I give him one last glance and he looked pissed off again. I got out of the bunk and slipped into my own under his. 

It didn't feel as comfortable or safe to be quite honest. It just made me want to cry all over again. I liked the feeling of his arms around me even though they were only there for a few minutes and I'm kind of longing for them again like I am longing for his lips. 

Jenny what are you thinking? You don't wanna kiss him again, get your shit together. 

This bed wasn't as soft either and it felt cold and unwelcoming. I just wanted back in beside Niall but he didn't really want me there, did he? He was either just too tired to realize what he was doing or he was just pretending. He was probably just pretending, knowing that bastard. 

I rolled over and put my face in my pillow just wanting to scream into it for being so stupid as to actually getting into the bed beside him. I pulled the duvets up over my face just wanting to hide forever. 

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A/N I know this is super short but I wanted it this short haha :) Don't forget to vote and comment :) Thank you for all the reads !!