I place my books and laptop on my desk, take a seat at my desk and open my laptop. I quickly read through some e-mails. While I read them my phone is vibrating and I look at the screen to see who sent me a message.

"Hey, have you already arrived? How is your roommate? Is the building big? Is your roommate nice? I miss you love, Hunter."

I get an instant smile on my face. He always makes me better, especially after this first meeting with my roommate and her friends.

"I have arrived and my roommate is nice. She is from Alice Springs. The building is big, but fortunately close to the classrooms. I miss you too, can't wait to see you again."

I send the message and place my phone on my desk. I quickly read through some other e-mails and then Mia returns to the room, her body is covered with only a towel. She walks towards her small table, grabs a brush and combs her hair.

"Are you going to the party tonight?" she asks curiously.

I shake my head. "No, parties are not really my thing."

"Join us! It will be really great! Everyone will be there, that's how you get to know new people right away" she says enthusiastically.

I laugh. "Look at me, not really in the mood. Besides, I don't even have a party outfit. Plus I have never been to a real party before" I say and focus back on my laptop.

"I have enough nice outfits! And seriously? Have you never been to a party before? May I ask how old you are?" she asks curiously.

"No, only when I was very young. At home, I didn't have many friends, just Hunter, and he's my boyfriend. I am 18 years old" I say and look back at Mia.

"You are 18 years old! Come on! Join the party! It will be really great. It's the first party in 3 months" she says and looks at me.

"No, thank you, I'd rather stay in this room and read a bit" I shrug. It's true though, I'm not really a party person, if I could choose between social events or staying at home with good books, I would have chosen the books. 

"Boooooringgggg" she exaggerates.

I shrug. "That's who I am, a boring old soul" I laugh.

Mia grabs a dress and walks back to the bathroom. When she leaves the bathroom she wears a white short dress, it shows her figure very well.

"So, how does this look?" she asks me and spins around.

"You look amazing!" I tell her, close my laptop and walk back to my bed.

I sit on my bed and see how Mia applies her makeup. She goes for a red eyeshadow, not very dark red, but soft red, and she applies a lip gloss. Her hair is dry and she makes curls in it. Because her hair is red and her dress white, makes it a very nice combination.

"You really should come, please!" she begs again.

"No no, thank you. I stay right here" I place my hand on my bed.

Mia wants to say something, but Jackson enters our room.

"Hey" Mia laughs.

She walks towards his direction and gives him a gentle kiss on his mouth. I had no idea that they were dating. They whisper to each other, apparently they have forgotten that I am also in the room.

"Ah, Rose! You remember Jackson right? Well, I forgot to tell you that he is my boyfriend" she smiles.

"Yes, I remember him. Hi" I say.

"Hey" he smiles.

"Well, we're going to the party. You really don't come along?" Mia asks for the thousandth time.

"Wait, she's not going to the party?" Jackson asks surprisingly.

"Nope, she doesn't want to go to the party" she looks at me and back at at Jackson.

"Rose! You really should go! The parties Travis throws are amazing! Everyone will be there! You'll get to know everyone and even make some friends!" he says.

I look at Mia and all she can do is nod her head. Before I want to say something Cole and Jace enter the room.

"You guys ready?!" Cole asks. He wears a white t-shirt, black pants and white Nike shoes.

"Cole, get Rose to join us to the party" Jackson tells him.

"You're not coming?!" Cole asks surprisingly.

"No! For the thousandth time, I stay here, reading my books" I point at the books on my bedside table.

"No no no. You stand up, walk to your or Mia's wardrobe, wear your best outfit and join us" he tells me, and points to Mia's wardrobe.

I see everyone nodding their head. You know what? One party really can't hurt me. There can't be so much happening if I stay with them.

"Okay, fine!" I say and throw my hands in the air.

I stand up and walk to my wardrobe. There is nothing nice in it, at least for a party then. I look at Mia and she laughs.

"Come, I have the perfect dress for you" she walks to her wardrobe and pulls out a red short dress.

I swallow, this is very short, I have never worn anything like that in my life. I love to hide my body, not to show it. I take the dress out of her hands and walk to the bathroom. I take off my clothes and put on the red short dress. It is exactly my size. I look at myself in the mirror, and you know what? I don't look bad. My breasts look good and my figure is easy to see. I walk back to our bedroom and see all four of them looking at me with their mouths wide open.

"Damn Rose, you look fine" Jace tells me and keeps looking at my figure. It makes me a bit anxious.

"Okay, this dress looks much better on you than on me. I'll apply some makeup quickly and in the meantime you can curl your own hair, if you like" she tells me, and grabs her makeup bag.

Jackson whispers something in Mia's ear and she nods. The boys turn around and leave our room.

"Where are they going?" I ask, they didn't even say goodbye.

"They are already going to the party, since we still have a lot to do" she smiles.

After 30 minutes we are finally done, my makeup is finished and I curled my own hair. I don't recognize myself anymore, I never really wear makeup and especially not this kind of clothing. Mia hands me a pair or heels, white heels. I put them on and look at myself in the mirror. I have to blink twice before I realize this is me.

"We're all done" Mia says through her phone. "Yes, we are getting there now!"

"Ready to go?" she asks.

I nod and grab my jacket and bag. I hope this party will be fun and I have made all this effort for a reason.

.......

When we arrive at Travis' house, there are around 400 people. The first thing I smell is alcohol and sweat from all people.I sigh deeply and Mia grabs my hand. We walk inside and I have the feeling that everyone is looking at me. Here and there I hear boys whistle at me, but I don't give them too much attention.

"What do you want to drink?" Mia screams in my ear.

"I don't drink!" I scream back. She laughs and shakes her head.

"I guess this is your lucky day. Your first party and your first alcoholic drink, here, vodka coke" she pushes the cup in my hand.

I smell at the cup and the vodka enters my nostrils. I have to relax, I sigh and bring the cup to my lips and take a big sip. Before I know, I am coughing.

"You okay?" Mia asks and drinks a vodka coke herself.

"Yes, I am fine, no worries" I say, still coughing.

She laughs and grabs my hand again. She pushes us through the busy crowd and walks to the living room, where I see Jace, Cole and Jackson. They wave at us and Mia walks straight to Jackson. He wraps his arms around her waist, pulls her closer to himself and gives her a kiss on her crown. 

"You did a great job" Jackson tells Mia and points at my face.

"I know, thank you" she smiles, and takes another good look at my face.

I feel a little uncomfortable. Cole and Jace talk to each other and Mia and Jackson do the same, they have forgotten me a little. When I turn around to Mia, she is kissing with Jackson. I sigh and continue drinking my vodka coke. When the cup is empty, I walk back to the kitchen and pour in another glass. I have never drunk before, and after five glasses I feel the alcohol rise to my head. Nobody knows that I am gone, at least, I think, they didn't come to look for me.

I walk back to the living room and see a blonde boy. He laughs at me and gestures that I should head to him. I point at myself and he nods his head and laughs. I head to his direction and he is a lot taller than I am.

"Hey" he says. He has green eyes, and I have never seen such straight teeth.

"Hey" I say stutter, obviously because of the alcohol. 

"What do you think of the party?" he asks, and places his hand on my hip. He has a red cup in his hand, filled with alcohol, and gives it to me.

"Thank you" I say and point at the drink. "And honestely, I hate it. My friend, no, my roommate, promised me that she would stay with me, but here I am, all alone" I giggle.

"Then she's a weird friend. Who would leave you behind? Such a hot girl" he says quietly and his hand travels down. 

I can't push his hand away from me, I don't have the strength for it. "I-i have no idea" I stutter.

He leans in and kisses me. I want to leave, but his grip is too strong. His hand travels under my dress, and even lifts it a little.

"I-i don't want t-this" I say frighteningly.

"Yes, you do. Every girl wants this" his breath smells of alcohol.

"S-stop!" I want to yell at him but my muscles are paralysed.

Before I know, everything turns black before my eyes, and all I feel is his hand under my dress.

.......

When I wake up I don't hear music anymore, I have a tremendous headache. I pull my phone out of my bag and look at the screen, 6 o'clock in the morning. What happened?! Everything spins and when I turn around I see someone sitting next to me on the double bed. At first I think I imagine it, but when the person says something to me, I am very sure that someone is really next to me.

"How are you feeling?" a familiar voice asks me.

I recognize this voice, even though I haven't heard it often, the accent never disappears from your head.

Shawn Mendes.

"Fine" I lie, and place my hand on my forehead.

"You're lying" he tells me and gives me a glass of water and an aspirin. "Take this" he demands.

I sit up straight and take the glass and the aspirin from his hand. I take the medicine with a big sip of water and close my eyes for a moment.

"Thank you" I say quietly. 

"Do you know what happened to you last night?" he asks.

I shake my head. I don't remember much, only that I got a drink from a boy and that his hands were under my dress, after that everything went black.

"Someone probably put drugs in your drink. You became unconscious. I saw you lying down and immediately brought you upstairs" he tells me and looks at me.

"The blond guy from the party gave me a cup with alcohol in it. It had to be him. What happened to him?" I ask, and tuck strands of hair behind my ear.

"You don't have to worry about that" he smiles weakly. 

"Okay, well, thank you" I tell him quietly.

"You're welcome" he says softly, and looks down at the ground.

There is an uncomfortable silence. Shawn gets up and walks towards the door.

"You just need to know that I'm going to help you once, and I'm only here because nobody else wanted to help you" he tells me.

"I know, it's kind of you that you helped me" I say quietly.

He looks at me. "I'm not nice, Rose, and I will never be. I don't help people and certainly not people like you" he points at me.

"People like me?! What does that mean?" I ask offended.

"People who think they are better than anyone. I know exactly how you are made, you're not the first girl I meet. I hate your kind. Innocent, sweet girls, who do nothing wrong at all."

I want to say something back but it's too late, he already left the room.

What the hell is his problem?