Possibilities Unexplored

Back with Y/N and BF/N, they were seen sitting on the bench, eating and drinking.

Y/N: ...

BF/N: Hey, Y/N, you okay? You don't seem hungry.

Y/N: H-Huh? What?

BF/N: You doing okay?

Y/N: Sorry. Just a lot on my mind. Listen, BF/N... I, umm...

BF/N: ... Hey. Just slow down a little. Sounds like you're witnessing a system crash. Think about what you want to say and act on it before you forget, okay?

Y/N: Y-Yeah. Okay. Sorry. I guess... I just need to move around a little bit. I'm going for a walk. Save my food for me.

BF/N: Sure thing. But, don't take too long.

Y/N: No promises.

He then got up and walked away, only to gasp as he noticed Loona.

Y/N: Loona! H-Hey. Good to see ya.

Loona: You're hard to track down, y'know that?

Y/N: Why were you tracking me down?

Loona: Well... Since Blitzø and the others are on the job, I... figured I'd take the free time and come see you.

Y/N: Oh. Well, if only we knew you were coming, we would've gotten you more food.

Loona: Nah. I'm not hungry. I need some air. And to move around.

Y/N: Oh. I was about to do the same. Wanna walk with me?

Loona: ... Shit, why not.

They both walked away together. After a while, they were still walking, but they were enjoying the breeze and the sounds of birds chirping. However, Loona looked at Y/N.

Loona: ... Hey, N/N.

Y/N: Just Y/N. I try not to make it a habit to have people say my nickname since it's... a little weird.

Loona: Oh. Right. I'm like that. Blitzø always calls me Loonie and it makes me sound like a child.

Y/N: Right. I'll refrain from saying that name.

Loona: Thanks. Anyways... Have you... ever looked at a girl and wanted to... Y-You know, fuck them?

Y/N: What? Why would anyone wanna do that?

Loona: There are people out there that do that. I'm one of the people that are approached and are about to be sexually assaulted by assholes and shitty perverts.

Y/N: Seriously? The hell is wrong with these people?

Loona: I don't know...

Y/N: ... Well, if that's how you felt when you saw me, why is that so?

Loona: ... Because... I... I have social anxiety.

Y/N: Huh?

Loona: ... y/N... I-I can't...

Y/N: Loona... Please... If you don't want to tell me, I understand. But if you want to, I promise I won't laugh at you or do anything that would hurt you.

Loona: How can you promise me that when I've already heard it one too many times? Especially from... p-people like you?

Y/N: Loona, I'm not like them. Okay? I don't take joy or pleasure to bring harm to anybody. I know how it feels to be hurt emotionally and it's not fun. And it's a bullshit and asshole act for me if I were to do the same to everyone, including you.

Loona: ...

Y/N: Hey. I'll tell you what. I'll make a promise to you. And if I ever, EVER, break the promise, I'll let you torture me or anything that'll satisfy you.

Loona: *raises eyebrow* Why would you promise that?

Y/N: Because it's to prove that I'm a good person. But, in case I don't live up to it, okay? I promise.

Loona: ... *sighs* Alright, I'll tell you.

Y/N: I'm all ears.

Loona: *exhales* I... I have a knack to fuck up on my words and... make things awkward to people I like or wanna interact with. And people take advantage of that by lying to me and manipulating me. Trust me. I've been through a lot of bullshit where I've heard every word people use to lie to me, every action they would take to get me where it hurts, and when we're alone, they will try to rape me.

Y/N: ... So... Is that... why... you think I'm one of those people?

Loona: I don't trust anybody. Not even you. No offense. You seem like a nice person, but... I'm keeping my distance and my guard up towards you because I have a feeling that it's nothing but a false front.

Y/N: ...

Loona: I'm sorry, Y/N, but I can't bring myself to trust you. I've ran into a lot of people that have tried this shit with me.

Y/N: ... *thinking* Damn... She's really been through so much Hell. It's going to be difficult for me to earn her trust, but... Maybe if I can play my cards right, I can show her that she can trust me. Wait, why do I feel so dedicated to help her? I mean...

He looked at Loona as she looked ahead with her arms crossed.

Y/N: *thinking* I'm not gonna lie. She does look beautiful, but I'm more of a... personality-wise type of guy, even though she is undoubtedly beautiful and sexy. Meaning, I only want to be with someone not just because of how they look, but because of how they are. Aside from BF/N, I've never had any friends, growing up. Maybe... I can fix that. But, how? ... *normal* ... U-Umm...

Loona: *looks at Y/N*

Y/N: ... It's... It's alright if you don't trust me, Loona. I'm not trying to... pressure you or anything. I understand that you've had a very difficult and shitty life and all, but... I still wanna try and be your friend. I don't care what it takes. Take all the time you need.

Loona: ... *raises eyebrow*

Y/N: If I wanna help you understand that you can trust me, then why don't we start off with doing things that make you feel comfortable? Hm? Is there anything you have in mind?

Loona: *looks away* ... I-I'm... not sure... I mean, I did wanna have some space and time to myself, but the fact that I spent some of the time trying to find you means that I'm interested in trying to socialize, so... Why don't we start off with this? Starting today until I say so, you are to... Umm... k-keep your distance from me and don't do anything perverted. Like try to wrap me in a hug or... anything that involves any physical contact. Don't do anything that'll piss me off. And last but not least, do not, I repeat, DO NOT try to pull anything when my guard is down because if so, I will send your ass straight to Hell, you hear me?

Y/N: *raises hands up* Yes, ma'am. Loud and clear.

Loona: Good. But, for now, I wanna just walk and enjoy the fresh air, so keep your hands to yourself and if you want to look at me, keep your eyes away from my body.

Y/N: Will do.

From then on, they continued to walk as they enjoyed the silence. So far, Y/N hasn't done anything suspicious or anything to tick Loona off which caused Loona to look at Y/N as he was looking up at the trees as he could hear the birds.

Loona: ... *sighs* Y/N?

Y/N: Hm? *looks at Loona*

Loona: I'm sorry if... I'm talking like an asshole.

Y/N: No, don't be. You're trying to prevent yourself from getting hurt, which I completely understand. You may not believe me, but... Everything I told you at the bar was true. But, there were some parts I left out because I kept them to myself.

Loona: Why?

Y/N: ... Because I didn't want you to try and take advantage of me when I was hurt.

Loona: *eyes widen* What? Why would I do that?

Y/N: Because after I graduated, I've been struggling to find a job because people were being a bunch of assholes and didn't want to share the wealth with anybody, so I just stopped looking. And I quit looking for a date because every time I try to interact with a girl, they tried to take advantage of me and lie to me as they did some... *shudders* sexual harassments and... attempts to read me and use my emotions against me.

Loona: S-Seriously? I mean, you did tell me that at the bar, but... Not like this.

Y/N: Ever since then, I've given up on trying to find a job and a girl. Until a few days ago after graduation when I tried to get a job only for it to be the last straw. Nobody was willing to hire me or BF/N. Society's fucked up! No matter what you try to do or attempt to do, it'll all end up being in shit. My parents have been trying to think of a way to help me, but even they weren't having much luck. So... I stopped looking.

Loona: ...

Y/N: ... And the reason why I haven't shunned you away or anything else like that is because... you and I have both been through Hell since birth. I'm just hoping that... this isn't some pathetic attempt to-

Loona: Y/N, I'm not like those assholes. I mean, sure, I'm mean to my dad and co-workers, but I only do that because... they frustrate me. My dad treats me like I'm a defenseless child and Moxxie always bitches at me. As for Millie... I have nothing against her, I guess... But, that doesn't mean I consider her to be my friend!

Y/N: ... You've never known what it's like to have a friend, huh?

Loona: ... *shakes head slowly*

Y/N: Well, Loona... How would you feel if... I wanted to be your first friend?

Loona: Huh?

Y/N: I know that we both don't trust each other and... we've been through a lot, but maybe... By being friends, we'll be able to understand each other now and then.

Loona: What about BF/N?

Y/N: He's more of a brother to me than a best friend. In a good way. But, being friends with you is different than it is with him. So... How about it? Wanna be friends?

Loona looked at Y/N with hesitation and confusion, but underneath her human disguise, her invisible tail was wagging a little in happiness, knowing that Y/N wants to be her friend and nothing more. A part of her was telling her to not do it while the other part was telling her to agree to it and see what happens, despite what she's been through. The reason behind that is because of the fact that when she looked at Y/N's eyes, it's as if she couldn't feel any malicious or perverted intent in his aura. She thought that it was just a human's way to hide their true colors and get her where it hurts, something tells her it's not.

Loona: ...

Y/N: We don't have to if you don't want to. I was just aski-

Loona: No!

Y/N: *looks at Loona*

Loona: *blushes slightly* I-I mean... *sighs* Don't tell Moxxie or Blitzø because they won't let me hear the end of it, but... I would be lying if I said I didn't want a friend. But, how will I know if you're not trying to soften me up just to fuck me or something?

Y/N: You don't, Loona. It's a leap of faith. And people are attempting to take it, no matter what. And you know what? I don't think I've encountered a scene where that has ever steered someone wrong, before.

Loona: ... *holds left arm nervously* I... I want to, but... I can't... I-I don't...

Y/N: ...

Loona: ... *sighs* Alright, Y/N. I'll take the leap, but if anything happens-

Y/N: You'll kill me and send me straight to Hell. I know. It won't come to that. I promise.

Loona: ...

Y/N held his hand up to Loona as he waits for a handshake from Loona, only for her to back away.

Y/N: What?

Loona: What are you doing?

Y/N: I'm offering you a handshake. You don't know what it is?

Loona: ...

Y/N: ... You really don't know, do you?

Loona: *looks away*

Y/N: ... Well, a handshake is something that happens between friends when they meet or greet each other. Here, I'll show you.

Loona: ...

Y/N: Don't worry, Loona. I won't do anything that'll make you feel discomfort. I swear.

Loona: ... Okay...

Y/N: Okay. It's simple, really. Hold your hand out.

Loona hesitantly does so.

Y/N: Okay. Now, I'm gonna do the same and when our hands meet, we grab them gently and shake them up and down. Like this.

He reaches for Loona's hand and holds it before shaking his hand up and down.

Y/N: Like that. See? Now you try.

Loona exhaled steadily and grabbed Y/N's hand as they shook.

Y/N: There you go. You're a natural.

Loona: *smiles softly*

Y/N: So... Friends?

Loona: Friends.

Y/N smiled as they continued walking.

Loona: *thinking* By becoming friends with Y/N, I'll be able to learn more about him. I wanna make sure that this isn't an act or some bullshit he's pulling. Y/N may seem like a nice and... friendly human, but... I'm not judging the book by its cover. Apparently, that's what the humans say, right? Anyway, I hope that... being friends with Y/N was the right call. If so, I'll have to keep this a secret from everyone at I.M.P., but it'll be difficult since they're so fucking irritating and annoying. Especially Blitzø...

She looked at Y/N as he payed attention to what's ahead of him.

Loona: *thinking* ... Grr! Get a grip, Loona! He's just another stupid human that's trying to soften me up and when I let my guard down, he'll get me where it hurts! Fucking asshole... *sighs* Why is this so fucking complicated?

They continued walking.

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